Not feeling sorrow

[TenthAveN]

Has anyone ever struggled with becoming desensitized to their sin? I think I’m feeling that right now, and I’m afraid that my heart is becoming hardened because I’ve rejected Christ for so long.

 

[Ann77]

I have noticed that a lot people with OCD experience what you're going through. Feelings or lack of feeling can become obsessional for some. I know this can be scary..I so get it. But think of it this way, no one with a true hardened heart obsessively worries about this. It's just not logical.

Hoping your OCD gets better. Praying.

..keep walking in faith. Some of the most godly people had a season like this.

William Cowper:
The Lord will happiness divine
On contrite hearts bestow:
Then tell me, gracious God, is mine
A contrite heart or no?

I hear, but seem to hear in vain,
Insensible as steel;
If ought is felt, 'tis only pain
To find I cannot feel.

I sometimes think myself inclined
To love thee, if I could;
But often feel another mind,
Averse to all that's good.

My best desires are faint and few,
I fain would strive for more;
But when I cry, "My strength renew,"
Seem weaker than before.

I see thy saints with comfort filled,
When in thy house of prayer;
But still in bondage I am held,
And find no comfort there.

O make this heart rejoice or ache;
Decide this doubt for me;
And if it be not broken, break,
And heal it if it be.

 

[covergirl]

Has anyone ever struggled with becoming desensitized to their sin? I think I’m feeling that right now, and I’m afraid that my heart is becoming hardened because I’ve rejected Christ for so long.

I think you actually do feel sorrow otherwise you wouldn't care to be here . We walk by faith not by our feelings . God is with you

 

[Mari17]

Has anyone ever struggled with becoming desensitized to their sin? I think I’m feeling that right now, and I’m afraid that my heart is becoming hardened because I’ve rejected Christ for so long.

In what way have you rejected Christ?

 

[TenthAveN]

In what way have you rejected Christ?

I have not accepted His forgiveness. It’s difficult to put my full trust and faith in Him, and I keep doing all of these things in order to appease Him, even though I’m aware that they are futile.

 

[Ann77]

I have not accepted His forgiveness. It’s difficult to put my full trust and faith in Him, and I keep doing all of these things in order to appease Him, even though I’m aware that they are futile.

I can totally relate to this. I question my motives and heart so I'm stuck in unbelief.

 

[Mari17]

I have not accepted His forgiveness. It’s difficult to put my full trust and faith in Him, and I keep doing all of these things in order to appease Him, even though I’m aware that they are futile.

Why don't you accept his forgiveness?

 

[TenthAveN]

Why don't you accept his forgiveness?

Because I’m always afraid to evangelize because I’m afraid of becoming an outcast at work and losing friends, and it makes me feel useless and evil.

 

[Mari17]

Because I’m always afraid to evangelize because I’m afraid of becoming an outcast at work and losing friends, and it makes me feel useless and evil.

How exactly has God led you to evangelize to them? What is it that you feel you're supposed to be doing?

 

[TenthAveN]

How exactly has God led you to evangelize to them? What is it that you feel you're supposed to be doing?

Telling them about Jesus, and letting them see Christ when they see and talk to me.

 

[Mari17]

Telling them about Jesus, and letting them see Christ when they see and talk to me.

OK. I'm asking because this is a common fear of people with OCD - that they have to evangelize "indiscriminately," so to speak; feeling like they have to bring up Jesus to anyone in any situation, without thinking about whether or not it might be appropriate or whether or not the Holy Spirit is opening up an opportunity. And I've also heard those with OCD express the fear that because they're not evangelizing, they're not saved. These fears of yours sound suspiciously obsessive to me.

 

[covergirl]

OK. I'm asking because this is a common fear of people with OCD - that they have to evangelize "indiscriminately," so to speak; feeling like they have to bring up Jesus to anyone in any situation, without thinking about whether or not it might be appropriate or whether or not the Holy Spirit is opening up an opportunity. And I've also heard those with OCD express the fear that because they're not evangelizing, they're not saved. These fears of yours sound suspiciously obsessive to me.

Wow Mari thanks for this I struggle with this for years as I know evangelism is my call and it's hard to tell what's OCD and what is coming out of love and freedom

 

[Mari17]

Wow Mari thanks for this I struggle with this for years as I know evangelism is my call and it's hard to tell what's OCD and what is coming out of love and freedom

You're welcome! These blog posts have helped me a bit when it comes to obsessing about issues like this:
STREET PREACHER OBSESSION – OCD & CHRISTIANITY
DISCERNMENT OF SPIRITS – OCD & CHRISTIANITY