No Assurance

[DeerGlow]

A lot of people already know but, I struggle with impulsive thoughts and fear of having committed the unpardonable sin, by apostasy (Hebrews 6:4-6, had a period of strong doubts and depression leading me to call myself atheist and Taoist for a while) or blasphemy (cursing and blasphemy against God, Jesus, and the HS Matthew 12:31, Mark 3:28-30, Luke 12:10). It came up in a nightmare. My alarm went off about an hour and twenty minutes ago, but I fell back asleep and had a dream my brother was dead (I've remembered, I had to think and clear my dream from reality but he is alive and fine.) and I was crying in the dream because I was convinced we would never see each other again for eternity because he'd go to heaven and I'd go to hell. I don't want this to become reality.

 

[The Brown Brink]

Everything alive struggles.
People struggle and make mistakes.
The main idea is that we don't hurt each other deliberately.
Jesus said for us to love God and to love our neighbor. That's all we have to do.
The yoke is easy.

 

[Tolworth John]

If you are a Christian you have not and will not commit that sin.
Trust Jesus who having gone through so much to gain you, that he will not let you go.

 

[Rescued One]

If you love Jesus, you will obey Him. Your life hasn't ended. Follow Jesus and obey Him. If you sin, ask His forgiveness.

 

[Goodbook]

Pray for your brothers salvation. Sometimes we so focussed on ourselves and our own issues that we neglect how Jesus calls us to love one another. When we pray for other people God is pleased.

You might think you in a pickle, but what about others who have nobody to pray for them? Your prayers will make a difference. Plus we are praying for you here on CF.

 

[Daniel_]

A lot of people already know but, I struggle with impulsive thoughts and fear of having committed the unpardonable sin, by apostasy (Hebrews 6:4-6, had a period of strong doubts and depression leading me to call myself atheist and Taoist for a while) or blasphemy (cursing and blasphemy against God, Jesus, and the HS Matthew 12:31, Mark 3:28-30, Luke 12:10). It came up in a nightmare. My alarm went off about an hour and twenty minutes ago, but I fell back asleep and had a dream my brother was dead (I've remembered, I had to think and clear my dream from reality but he is alive and fine.) and I was crying in the dream because I was convinced we would never see each other again for eternity because he'd go to heaven and I'd go to hell. I don't want this to become reality.

If you have repented and trusted in the death and resurrection of Jesus you are saved (1 John 1:8-9). The Father even gives you the Holy Spirit as a deposit and guarantee of your inheritance in the Kingdom (Ephesians 1:13-14). What is in the past is done, focus on the here and now, spend time in prayer and studying the Bible. Perhaps you received that dream to help get you back on the right path. Even when you mess up remember your heavenly Father still loves you and will not leave you or forsake you. Hold on to the truth of the Bible. Tell the enemy to flee from you in the name of Jesus if he keeps trying to mess with your mind, the word of God is your sword and faith is your shield (Ephesians 6:13-17).

God bless!

 

[ub4me]

I think the fact tHat you feel some conviction and remorse, and the longing to go to Heaven... Shows the Holy Spirit has not left you. Forgive yourself from your past.
Continue growing and strengthening your faith.
His mercies are new every morning