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[ANN2626]

Hi,
I am new. I used to suffer from anxiety and I still do but lately
I have been having unwanted/negative/horrible/scary thoughts and I do not understand why! It is driving me crazy and scares me. I just break down and cry and pray. It is hard for me to understand why I would be thinking this way. Looking back on my childhood I did have obsessive thoughts that kept me up at night but I guess it all went away and I forgot about it.
I had such a great childhood and I have an awesome family. I was brought up in a christian home and really couldn't have asked for a better family. I don't understand why I have these problems. Noone in my family has mental illness and it is hard for me to admit this to them. I am embarassed and afraid. Sometimes I am even embarassed to let Jesus know, even though he knows. It is making me feel like I am an unstable person and that I am crazy or something. I know it is all in my head and sometimes I can control it but sometimes it really gets to me (like right now) and I just break down in an anxiety attack.
I just really need someone to talk to who is a christian and understands!

 

[Caty]

You can always come on here, we are here for you!!

 

[annrobert]

Ann2626,
Hi I am sorry you are suffering like this and I will pray for you.
I went through some horrible mental torment myself that lasted over two years .
I thought Jesus had abandoned me and would never come back.it was horrible.
I do understand the horror and fear of it all.
Jesus totally understands as well and will never hold it against you,rather He will protect you and keep you in His hand.
If you ever want to talk just let me know.
annrobert

 

[JohnnieGuy]

We all get this. It's ok to tell God. Refresh your mind with God's Word.