New Chapter: I had hodgkins lymphoma

[anjelica]

I just went and posted a prayer for them. Poor Debby and poor Sandy. How old is Sandy?

 

[RuthD]

Thank you so much for posting a prayer. Sandy is about 15 or 16 I believe. She is a pomeranium with long blonde hair and so cute!

 

[anjelica]

Awww. How sad Ruth

 

[anjelica]

Gotta go to bed now. Got to keep my strength up to deal with my mother LOL Talk tomorrow if you are in Ruth. Hope you get a good night's sleep and have a nice day tomorrow. God bless xx

 

[RuthD]

I hope you sleep well. I hadn't realized how late it got. I'm going to have me beer, the nasty neighbors are home. Oh well. I think I'll play some music now. Good night dearie! {{{{hug}}}}}

 

[anjelica]

Oh NOOOOO Jade has just been really sick. I think Bob has let her get something. I am so worried and upset as he has been doing strange things lately and it looks like the beginning of Alzheimers Disease and my doggies are not safe. I am crying now. I don't know what to do. Bob has done a lot of dangerous things lately and I am not safe either. I am so worried. Plese pray

 

[RuthD]

I just got finished listening to a cd and having a beer. I'm so sorry that Jade is ill. I'm praying that all of you there, animal family included are safe. What sorts of things is Bob doing?

 

[RuthD]

{{{{{Anjelica}}}}} Praying you can find out what's with Bob and feel peace again.

 

[anjelica]

Ruth, there are lots of things that Bob is doing. He is very very forgetful, and does not seem to know what he is doing all of the time. He often seems to be in a world of his own and cuts off from me totally. He leaves things on and as I am not totally well, yet, I cannot go round checking after him all of the time. He was going like this before I got sick but it has got worse over the last few weeks.

He just does not seem to know what he is doing. I have tried to talk to him about it but he denies that anything is wrong and gets really angry if I try to talk to him. I cannot go to his doctor as he will not allow it and it would need his permission for me to say anything to his doctor.

Long story Ruth but that is just a bit of it.

 

[anjelica]

Thankyou so much Daisy Mae for your good wishes for my birthday. I so appreciate that. I have had a lovely day. Amazing things happened.

Ruth, I don't know what is happeing to Lady right now - the eggs will not hatch for a while yet. I think she has only laid two, and is sitting on them most of the time, but the male keeps kicking her off the nest as he wants to sit on them too - lol - which is unlike a male bird. It appears that no-one told him that it is the female that is meant to do the incubating ha ha

She keeps on trying to kick him off the eggs too so there is a real battle going on ha ha

 

[Jimmy P]

Happy belated Burpday Anjelica

 

[anjelica]

Ruth, I just was reading back and saw your post about your mother. It is so horrible when it is a mother that abuses. Mine abused me something terrible. It was really really bad.

for many many years it hurt me terribly and the pain was almost intolerable. I took advice lots of times about whether I should totally cut off from her or not. Mostly I was given the advice to cut off and was told that she is not my mother but simply the vessel that gave birth to me. That was from a Catholic priest - and there was another Catholic priest who told me that she had stolen my soul. This was all so helpful and I did cut off from her for a long time but we lived away from her at that time. So it was easier.

When we moved back here for financial reasons and other reasons, it became really difficult again. Then when I got cancer she and my brother were the only ones who would or could help us. so we needed them but I hated having to have her around.

Yes, I have forgiven her and do forgive her because I believe she is sick in some way, but I know that it is best to not be near her as much as is possible.

Yet, lately, she has wanted to push me out in my wheelchair and she is 89 and has emphysema so I kind of feel a bit of something for her for doing that.

Sometimes I think that things are getting better but then I realise that they are not really and each time she hurts me badly again, I sink low again.

It has been such a hard road through this cancer, with Bob, and my mother and other things that have been against us. I truly do not know how I have got through it. But then I have to say that it is God that got me through or faith or something.

 

[anjelica]

Happy belated Burpday Anjelica

Awww, thankyou Jimmy. Hugs to you. God bless you friend.

 

[Tigger45]

Ruth, I just was reading back and saw your post about your mother. It is so horrible when it is a mother that abuses. Mine abused me something terrible. It was really really bad.

for many many years it hurt me terribly and the pain was almost intolerable. I took advice lots of times about whether I should totally cut off from her or not. Mostly I was given the advice to cut off and was told that she is not my mother but simply the vessel that gave birth to me. That was from a Catholic priest - and there was another Catholic priest who told me that she had stolen my soul. This was all so helpful and I did cut off from her for a long time but we lived away from her at that time. So it was easier.

When we moved back here for financial reasons and other reasons, it became really difficult again. Then when I got cancer she and my brother were the only ones who would or could help us. so we needed them but I hated having to have her around.

Yes, I have forgiven her and do forgive her because I believe she is sick in some way, but I know that it is best to not be near her as much as is possible.

Yet, lately, she has wanted to push me out in my wheelchair and she is 89 and has emphysema so I kind of feel a bit of something for her for doing that.

Sometimes I think that things are getting better but then I realise that they are not really and each time she hurts me badly again, I sink low again.

It has been such a hard road through this cancer, with Bob, and my mother and other things that have been against us. I truly do not know how I have got through it. But then I have to say that it is God that got me through or faith or something.

My dad who is suffering from Alzheimer disease has always been critical and said hurtful words. But in the last stages of his life I've chosen to just let his words blow by and in doing so has actually healed some of the pains of the past.

 

[Jimmy P]

You're welcome....I also wished a belated birthday to my Grandma in Heaven and as usual, I was late That's normal for me...

 

[brinny]

Anjelica, i'm not feeling too well....but stopping in to say one mo' time Happy Happy Birthday....Yes, it's officially passed yer birthday, but the celebration and joy can continue loooooong past it, and it should....

Continue being blessed, in spite of things you cannot control yet, and remember that you ARE quite a SURVIVOR, and there IS a reason for that. So, Yay, birthday wishes and joy CAN continue (who wrote those rules anyway)

 

[Jimmy P]

Hope you feel better Brinny...

 

[brinny]

Thanks...i think i ate too much LOL

 

[Jimmy P]

Ouch, I've done that...I love Italian food, but I don't know when to stop lol...awww, feel better...

 

[brinny]

i ate fish n' sauteed garlic......was good but maybe toooo much garlic