- Apr 19, 2007
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Over the last few years i have been fighting idenity issues and problems that i thought was mental health issues but really its demons inside me controling me telling me am going to hell
for a very long time i have been jumping from one false faiths to another but most of the time i want to find peace , i was born catholic but due to trauma i cant remember much of that time where i was a child due to the trauma i didnt really know much of the bible apart from the childrens bible stories i know that Jesus is God and the holy spirit
through out my childhood was subjected to abuse all kinds of abuse when i was 16 i became homeless and i lost faith i became a witch or thats what i labeled myself as but i didnt really do much with it until i met my husband he at the time he had no faith then i jumped faith and became muslim , my dad died ( my dad had nothing to do with the trauma and abuse as he worked nights ) from then i jumped from one false faith to another over and over then i went back to being christian but to an lgbt church where my idenity issues got worse i thought i was a transgender man ( am born female ) went to pride etc but i was still faith jumping then i came across a church that plays praise and worship music and my husband through the other church is christian but will not come to the new church my husband is at the old church
LGBT friends etc I have tried over and over for him to come to the new church but he says no so i cant make him go there
because of everything that happened to me as an adult and child i hear voices and see things i thought it was mental health issues but i dont think it is now av had the mental health issues for years now and nothing helps get rid of the thoughts voices and demons in my head
i take medication av tried to stop taking it but every time i have my husband fights with me about it and get stressed out over it
i want to be bapised as i havent yet got it done as a adult who can choose to became Christian and i have started to read the Bible and learn more about jesus i have asked my husband if i could get bapised but he told me to wait a year before getting it done as he wants me to be going to the new church for a while as he feels this is a phase am going through
i want to get it done sooner but i guess i have to wait a year
my husband dont believe in demons etc but i really think there is something demonic going on with me he believes the drs who want to load me with meds and i dont know if they are damaging me or what
today is thursday and i love getting to the weekend so i can go to church on a Sunday and sing and praise Jesus
am unsure what to do about the voices thoughts and seeing things unsure if it just illness or something else
for a very long time i have been jumping from one false faiths to another but most of the time i want to find peace , i was born catholic but due to trauma i cant remember much of that time where i was a child due to the trauma i didnt really know much of the bible apart from the childrens bible stories i know that Jesus is God and the holy spirit
through out my childhood was subjected to abuse all kinds of abuse when i was 16 i became homeless and i lost faith i became a witch or thats what i labeled myself as but i didnt really do much with it until i met my husband he at the time he had no faith then i jumped faith and became muslim , my dad died ( my dad had nothing to do with the trauma and abuse as he worked nights ) from then i jumped from one false faith to another over and over then i went back to being christian but to an lgbt church where my idenity issues got worse i thought i was a transgender man ( am born female ) went to pride etc but i was still faith jumping then i came across a church that plays praise and worship music and my husband through the other church is christian but will not come to the new church my husband is at the old church
LGBT friends etc I have tried over and over for him to come to the new church but he says no so i cant make him go there
because of everything that happened to me as an adult and child i hear voices and see things i thought it was mental health issues but i dont think it is now av had the mental health issues for years now and nothing helps get rid of the thoughts voices and demons in my head
i take medication av tried to stop taking it but every time i have my husband fights with me about it and get stressed out over it
i want to be bapised as i havent yet got it done as a adult who can choose to became Christian and i have started to read the Bible and learn more about jesus i have asked my husband if i could get bapised but he told me to wait a year before getting it done as he wants me to be going to the new church for a while as he feels this is a phase am going through
i want to get it done sooner but i guess i have to wait a year
my husband dont believe in demons etc but i really think there is something demonic going on with me he believes the drs who want to load me with meds and i dont know if they are damaging me or what
today is thursday and i love getting to the weekend so i can go to church on a Sunday and sing and praise Jesus
am unsure what to do about the voices thoughts and seeing things unsure if it just illness or something else