need some advice

[neocide]

Hello,

This is my first time on this board, so if this is the wrong forum, please let me know.

Im 21 and have been having drug problems for about 5 years now. A year ago I came to a very bad point in which I came close to overdosing a few times and had a few siezures. Oddly enough, I was trying desparetly hard to regain a relationship with God.
I am a pastors kid and was raised "in the church"

I know God has infinite grace...otherwise I wouldnt be here anymore. But I once had a passion for God that I can feel arising in me again. Drugs just keep getting in the way.

God brought me far away from home for half of 2003, to get my act in order.
I did great for awhile. I moved back home and started out ok, but have recently fallen back into using again.
I have tried to pull myself out, but its like an age old process with me to just keep turning back to drugs.
When I do so I totally lose focus of life and God.

Anyone have any good books or advice to help me out here?

 

[sawdust]

Have you told your father you are using drugs? I ask because as I read your message the scripture came to my mind: "I have sinned against God and man". This is what the prodigal son says when he returns home to his father. Sometimes when we "slip back" it is because we have not started from the right beginning. We have not been totally honest with ourselves, God or those who love us. I'm in Australia so I cannot give any practical advice regarding clinics or organisations that will help you and I'm sure you can guess the one good book I would recommend. It can be a difficult road, do not give up. I will keep you in my prayers.
take care

 

[neocide]

Yes... my father knows all about it. I am currently living with my parents. But they may not know all of my current stuggles, just that I am having trouble.

 

[Yitzchak]

My suggestion is to enroll in a program like teen challange. Somewhere will you will have accountability. Trying to "kick" the habit on your own seems dsyfunctional to me. The responsible thing to do is to admit your weakness and get the proper help. That would be putting action with your repentance.


Being double minded about it will cause you to go in circles for years. Either you have this problem or you don't. If indeed you do have the problem then get the proper help.

 

[12volt_man]

Yitzchak is right. You have got to get into a place with other believers where they can hold you accountable and share your burdens.

Have you ever looked at a fireplace? Put those logs in there together and they make a big fire. Take one out of the fire and you'll see that it goes out almost immediately. People are a lot like that, too.

That's why it never works to try to fix a problem like this on your own.

Check your PM's.

 

[LOVELYST]

hello, thankyou for posting your problem here on this site, so we as the body of christ can help you with our advice. From reading your post, I know that God has a plan for you, it's not easy come from a drug situation, that is from the physical or fleshly part of it, you see, you have to start to operate in the spirit and to do so, you have to seek God to guide you there, do you really want to stop drugs? if you really want to then God will see that, you have to pray and believe that God will change that part in you, you have to believe, because in his word, he says, all things are possible through Christ that strenghten us, so Christ is your strenght through all this, but you have to believe and pray for your deliverance and as a sister in christ, I will pray for your deliverance. We all have to fellowship with our fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. God said to love one an other. If you need to talk you can reach me daily at this e-mail address rhonaw24@hotmail.com. God bless you



lovelyst

 

[sawdust]

Yes... my father knows all about it. I am currently living with my parents. But they may not know all of my current stuggles, just that I am having trouble.

I'm sorry Neocide, I most probably wasn't clear in my last post. It is your "current" struggles I was referring to, not prior to moving back home. I feel very strongly Neocide that the verse I quoted was a Word of knowledge from God and that you would benefit greatly from studying the parable of "the Prodigal Son." Study it from the 3 different perspectives of the characters in the story, ie The father, the "wayward" son and the "righteous" son. Keep in mind Jesus told that parable for the benefit of people who were like the latter of the three characters. I would also like to share something of my own learning experience and that is that confession is not just something that we do when we sin. I have come to understand that confession, in it's fullest sense, is an attitude we hold towards God, others and ourselves all the time. It is about being who we are (warts and all) in an open and honest way, without deceit or self-justification. That can be extremely hard because as Jeremiah the prophet said "the heart is most deceitful above all else, who can understand it?" The promise to go with that though is that God understands and 1Jn1:9 reminds us of His faithfulness to forgive and cleanse us. Talk to your dad, not just about your problems, but about anything and everything. I think the Lord has some wonderful surprises in store for you Neocide, far more maybe than you may excpect. My prayers are with you.
take care

 

[neocide]

Thanx everyone...I am seeking out ways and or groups here in south FL to help me out.
Also, sawdust, I just started reading a book that someone gave me over Christmas. Its called "The Homecoming" and the main theme is the story of the prodigal son! Im going to read it twice....

I will continue to come to this board in my time of need...thanx everyone for your continued prayers!

Tim (neocide)

 

[sawdust]

Thanx everyone...I am seeking out ways and or groups here in south FL to help me out.
Also, sawdust, I just started reading a book that someone gave me over Christmas. Its called "The Homecoming" and the main theme is the story of the prodigal son! Im going to read it twice....

I will continue to come to this board in my time of need...thanx everyone for your continued prayers!

Tim (neocide)

"Come to me all you who are heavy laden and I will give you rest"

Don't just come because you have need Neocide, come because you have friends! God bless you.

 

[betalkin2god]

I'm so glad you are reaching out! Good Job! It's Awesome that you're hungering after God and wanting to Find Him again!
Old habits are Hard to break and we need several things to do it. 1st--total submission to God and Asking Him to help you overcome this. Ask God to take away your yearning for drugs (and keep asking). Ask God to Help you and ask Him to be the Boss of your life and your body. (you prob'ly have already but I just wanted to lay that out).
2nd--Get someone to help you. God is Great and God is Good, but sometimes we need a flesh and blood Person. Get a counselor or youth pastor or someone older and wiser. It helps.
3rd--Break all the old things that Lead you to drugs. Are there people you need to break off with? Is there music or something else that you did when you were doing drugs that causes you to still think about drugs? In other words, break off any old habits or friends that were associated with doing drugs.
4th--Fill your time with something Good. Start a new hobby or a sport---fill that Free time that you're sitting around Thinking too much. Do something Positive instead.
Hope this helps.
Blessings,