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[jamesjeffery]

Hi All.

I have been a Christian since i was 18-19. I was baptised at 19. I came to God through a friend who has been a Christian for a while.

I love God, but I dislike me. I know inside I am a bad person and as much as I try to change I find it hard. I admit I am a sinner and will never change that, hence the reason for Jesus but I just keep sinning and I feel God might think I am taking liberties.

Basically here are some of my sins:
- I have sex unmarried
- I get angry and break out in anger fits (partly due to my anxiety issues)
- I talk about other people behind their backs
- I download movies and software on the net
- I sometimes view porn
- I drink. I used to drink every day, but honestly its like once a month now, and when i drink i have about 2 cans of larger.
- I sometimes show anger and disrespect to other people
- I enjoy graffiti art

Thats just some of them. I just find it so hard to change. I want to go to hevean and understand I could be gone from this earth at any moment.

I read the bible sometimes. I used to study it and attend bible study but all changed when I was made homeless and started drinking a while back. I am 24 now.

I have never once blamed God for anything and I am so glad that he gave me the strength to get through what i did.

My life has changed alot. I am about to start university in September studyng Computer Science. I mean another issue is that I have recently fell in love with Physics. I never doubt God, there is no reason to doubt something that is certain, but some people have said Christians can't study Science.

I mean is it wrong for me to do a degree in Computer Science?

God has given me alot and taught me a lot.

Please pray from me and I am so welcome to advice. I want to get back on the right track with God again.

Thank You.

 

[Jayangel81]

Welcome to Christianforums.com

I know where you are coming from, I too used to hate myself, even still when My depression gets a bit crazy I still dislike myself.

Honestly you are on the begining of youre journey so to speak, youre headed in the right direction of wanting to change and seek God.

Those sins you stated, really think about what it does to you and youre relationship with God(if you havent already) And make a descision to want to sincerly stop, than go before God and repent, I for one used to have certain trouble with specific sins, I could not for the life of me stop falling into them. Thats why you need to keep asking God to change you, and He will, just keep doing the best you can.

This from my own personal experiance God loves to break people down and rebuild them in His image so ask Him to do that, myself became so broken and God healed me.

Fill yourself with Gods word and let it renew your mind, the bible is more than a book. It is the Word. fill yourself up with God and get to know Him better

I dont see anything sinful about getting a degree in computer science, maybe while you do that ask God what His will is. It might be different wont know till you pray about it.

Will be praying for you brother

 

[Johnnz]

You seem to have a mixture of personal issues and some less than helpful teaching. Both issues will interact with each other.

You can PM me if you want some suggestions for obtaining some intellectually adequate material.

John
NZ

 

[Rage4Christ]

You sound pretty normal to me.
Just keep trying. Learn from your mistakes. Show love in all you do. (Even cut yourself a little slack eh?)

Don't fear Science-- Christ is truth, so we have nothing to fear in that arena.

 

[bsd13]

Hi All.

I have been a Christian since i was 18-19. I was baptised at 19. I came to God through a friend who has been a Christian for a while.

I love God, but I dislike me. I know inside I am a bad person and as much as I try to change I find it hard. I admit I am a sinner and will never change that, hence the reason for Jesus but I just keep sinning and I feel God might think I am taking liberties.

Basically here are some of my sins:
- I have sex unmarried
- I get angry and break out in anger fits (partly due to my anxiety issues)
- I talk about other people behind their backs
- I download movies and software on the net
- I sometimes view porn
- I drink. I used to drink every day, but honestly its like once a month now, and when i drink i have about 2 cans of larger.
- I sometimes show anger and disrespect to other people
- I enjoy graffiti art

Thats just some of them. I just find it so hard to change. I want to go to hevean and understand I could be gone from this earth at any moment.

I read the bible sometimes. I used to study it and attend bible study but all changed when I was made homeless and started drinking a while back. I am 24 now.

I have never once blamed God for anything and I am so glad that he gave me the strength to get through what i did.

My life has changed alot. I am about to start university in September studyng Computer Science. I mean another issue is that I have recently fell in love with Physics. I never doubt God, there is no reason to doubt something that is certain, but some people have said Christians can't study Science.

I mean is it wrong for me to do a degree in Computer Science?

God has given me alot and taught me a lot.

Please pray from me and I am so welcome to advice. I want to get back on the right track with God again.

Thank You.

It's a process. You aren't just born again and suddenly sin free. If that was the litmus test God would be a very, very, very lonely God waiting for someone to make it.

The fact that you still sin just means that God hasn't completed the work he has begun in you. By calling yourself a "bad person" you are calling God a liar because he calls the saved and the redeemed SAINTS. Because he doesn't see you as a sinner. He sees you as purified by the blood of Christ. That's why we're saved by grace by faith. Because there is no other way than grace that we could ever reach salvation.

Edit: By the way where did you get this obscene notion that drinking is a sin?

 

[LilLamb219]

God knows that we will fail when we try our best...it's why we're all in need of a Savior and thankfully He has provided one for us. His death on the cross in you substitute was enough to redeem you!

You feel guilty for doing wrong things and that shows that you are repentant. Just because you have difficulties stopping your bad habits, doesn't mean that you aren't repentant...otherwise you wouldn't have bothered to even write here in this forum.

You might not see major changes in your life all at once...try looking for baby steps

Computer science isn't evil...if that's what you enjoy doing, go for it.

Drinking in moderation is ok too!!

And as for graffiti, it can be an artform without having to destroy someone else's property

 

[Wrexscar]

I love God, but I dislike me. I know inside I am a bad person and as much as I try to change I find it hard. I admit I am a sinner and will never change that, hence the reason for Jesus but I just keep sinning and I feel God might think I am taking liberties.

Your a Christian. That means In Christ your a saint. Deep down inside you are not a bad person you are a child of God adopted into his family. God loved you so much he died for you. You don't have to change that it has already been changed for you when your spirit was born again.

You keep on sinning, you say, this is not surprising when you label,yourself a sinner who you don't like.
God calls you his child he loves.

As for the sins you still commit
(yes you still commit sins but that doesnt make a fundemental diffrence to who you are in Christ)
If you believe your a sinner and can't change, then you wont change.

ps drinking in moderation and studying computers are not sinful in themselves.

 

[jamesjeffery]

Thank you all for your replies. Really appreciate it.

 

[Forealzchola]

God honors your desire to do the right thing...however you have to be strong and fight the good fight of faith..what i first thought of after reading your post is that you need to cut off your resources...(the root of this sinful activity) the premarital sex..be it a gf or a friend with benefits scenario it needs to end..the porn..maybe no cable tv or filtered internet access...drinking alcohol is not a sin just getting drunk is ( even though personally i feel is wiser to never drink at all) ween yourself off these drinks..with strong sodas, herbal drinks and smaller amounts....the anger and anxiety issue can be discussed with a christian counselor. I would also recommend you to an accountability partner and or a more mature male christian peer that you can talk to about your issues and growth in the your faith walk. God bless

 

[dodolah]

Christian and Science should not be against each other.

The only thing that can make it against each other is man's arrogance in admitting that there is a God has everything to do in the creation of universe.
All things points out to Him. and man is just to stupid to admit it.

Blame it on the man.. not on the science itself.