diego, I want to let you know that God loves you despite how you feel and it doesn't matter how many times you go to Him because you are going to the right person. 1John 1:9 "If we confess our sins unto Him, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from "ALL" unrighteousness."
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Matt 6:33, "But seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."
Do you read your Bible? Do you pray? If not, then your are starving yourself. If we don't feed our body we starve, if we don't feed our spirit we starve.
I want to encourage you to seek out a Bible believing church and to hang around Christians (not everyone is perfect) because that'll give you strength.
As for drinking, here is your answer:
John 7:37
"In the last day, that great [day] of the feast, Jesus stood and cried, saying,
If any man thirst, let him come unto me, and drink."
John 7:38
"He that believeth on me, as the scripture hath said, out of his belly shall flow rivers of living water."
John 4:14
"But whosoever drinketh of the water that I shall give him shall never thirst; but the water that I shall give him shall be in him a well of water springing up into everlasting life."
So you must believe that He exists and you must come to Him and it is His promise that you should have rivers of living water.
Every promise of God is YES and AMEN in Christ Jesus. (2 Cor 1:20) You can take it to the bank.
Remember, God wants you in reality and out of bondage.
Jeremiah 32:27
Behold, I am the LORD, the God of all flesh. Is there anything too hard for Me?
I John 5:14-15
"Now this is the confidence that we have in Him, that if we ask anything according to His will, He hears us. And if we know that He hears us, whatever we ask, we know that we have the petitions that we have asked of Him."
Philippians 4:6-7
"Don't worry about anything, but in everything by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus."
I John 3:8-9
"For this purpose the Son of God was manifested, that He might destroy the works of the devil."
Isaiah 26:3
"Thou wilt keep [him] in perfect peace, [whose] mind [is] stayed [on thee]: because he trusteth in thee."
Heavenly Father, we thank you for diego and we thank You that You hear us. Father, we ask that You would destroy the works of the devil against diego and we ask that You would send ministering angels (Heb 1:14) to minister to him. Father, fill him with Your living water and Your love and Your power as he seeks You. We pray for all of these things in The Mighty Name of Jesus!!! Amen!!!