Hi everyone,
This will be my second time posting about this issue. The first time i posted about it, It was brought to my attention that it was too vague and thus confusing. And it was and the reason was because I had some private matters in there that I didn't want to disclose but I am going to try to make it more clearer while still trying to keep some certain things private. I will try to do it in bulletin points this time.
1. A year and a half ago, I received a horrific injury that damaged my nerves that left me in excruciating pain in a very sensitive area of my body. I couldn't function, speak, eat, I was in agonizing brutal pain every day. It was a nightmare of nightmares that reeked havoc on me and my family.
2. After about 3 months somehow, I don't know if you would call it a miracle or what you would call it, the pain moved to a part of my body that was more a lot more tolerable. Apparently nerve pain can move around. The pain was still terrible, but I could at least function with the pain in this part of my body where it is now than where it was before and have had this pain every single day since then. I lived in huge fear ever day of the pain going back to where it was originally.
Here's where things get confusing but PLEASE try to bare with me. During the beginning of my horrific injury, I discovered that one of my habits that I have had for 30 years magnified the pain and NOTHING took it away. I promised myself if God ever took away my pain or moved it to a part of my body I could handle, that I would never do it again, and THAT's WHAT HAPPENED.
I did NOT know how hard it was going to be to break that habit. I did it for 30 years (since I was 11 years old) to cope with all the abuse I endured in my past. Every day was a huge struggle and not only that, that habit also relieved a lot of other physical pain that I had. But I managed to do it, I managed every day, white knuckling it not to do it for a year and half. But one day, I just gave in. The first time I did it, I didn't bring the pain, but the second time, it brought the pain back to area of my most feared spot and hasn't left since.
I am completed devastated. I put all this stress back onto my family by doing this, put myself back into this hell and all for what? I KNEW this was a HUGE risk when I did it and I STILL did it. I knew while I was doing it, what I was risking! I don't know why I did it!!! What kind of person am I?????? Why would I risk being back in 24/7 horrific pain, missing my family and all their special moments, putting them under stress again? Why would I do this????? I am a mother!!! What type of mother would do this?????? There is something seriously and deeply wrong with me!!!!!! I know the pain won't move again because it was only by a miracle that it ever did the first time! Now I have the pain in both places! It's been 5 weeks going on 6 weeks. This type of pain just doesn't leave! It's NERVE DAMAGE.
I'm not asking for prayers or sympathy, because I DONT deserved to be rescued this time! I'm asking why would I do this???? WHY?????
Beloved one, I heard you said,”I'm not asking for prayers or sympathy, because I DONT deserved to be rescued this time! I'm asking why would I do this????”
Beloved one, are you not asking why you would do this ?
You did this because you heed the prophecy or teaching about yourself, that you don’t deserved to be rescued this time.
Beloved one, resist the false prophets and teachers, that were saying,that you don’t deserved to be rescued this time.
Beloved one, consider what the Lord have said:
“Thus says the Lord of hosts: “
Do not listen to the words of the prophets who prophesy to you. They
make you worthless; They speak a vision of their own heart, Not from the mouth of the Lord.”
Jeremiah 23:16 NKJV
Beloved one, consider all prophecy that make you worthless, are prophecy from false prophets, that they speak a vision of their own heart, not from the mouth of the Lord.
So we can consider all prophecy about us, that make us worthy, that they, the true prophets speak a vision of the Lord, from the mouth of the Lord.
Beloved one, this is what we have heard:
“When evening had come, they brought to Him many who were demon-possessed.
And He cast out the spirits with a word, and healed all who were sick, that it might be fulfilled which was spoken by Isaiah
the prophet, saying: “He Himself took our infirmities And bore our sicknesses.””
Matthew 8:16-17 NKJV
Beloved one, so consider and believe the true prophecy that Jesus Christ Himself took your infirmities and bore your sicknesses.
To God be thanksgiving through Christ. Amen
