Here is another experience that fits the typical Christian mode.
About 25 years ago, I was hoping for some confirmation that God exists. I had grown-up as a Christian, but I had mostly lost my faith about 5 years earlier in college.
Each week I visited a different church. I went into a non-denominational church that was renting space in a strip mall. There were lots of empty chairs, so I picked an empty row. A few minutes later, a guy came in and sat in the chair beside me - even though 90% of the chairs were empty. That made me uncomfortable, but I didn't want to be rude and move away. The service wasn't very memorable.
At the end of the service this guy beside me followed me out the door to the parking lot. He said that he had never been to this church, but the Holy Spirit told him to go to there and pray for me. He seemed to know my issues which was a little uncanny, and he implored me to let him pray for me.
The whole thing made me uncomfortable, so I didn't let him pray for me, and I hurried across the parking lot and drove home LOL. But in retrospect, I suspect that this guy was being led by the Holy Spirit, and I may have missed an opportunity. IDK
Have you ever seriously considered maybe he was right?
Someone who has the types of spiritual experiences you have ,and yet resists their obvious meaning,
is in need of prayer and guidance.
I had an experience once that was sort of like that, but ended differently:
One time years ago I was going through a dark period. I just came out of the Orthodox church and I went to an Episcopal Church a few weeks ,and an elderly woman came up to me during coffee hour and gave me a book, the Ragamuffin Gospel, by Brennan Manning. She told me I needed to read it.
We became friends and we sat together during church. This older, middle aged woman also talked about her devotion to the virgin Mary, which was also something I could identify with due to my background. I found out this woman had been homeless alot, she had cancer and used a walker, and I encouraged her to go to the healing service.
She went to the healing service one week as I saw her there, and a few weeks later she was no longer using the walker and she said her cancer was gone. Then she got involved in the cathedral's homeless ministry. But I lost track of her as she started going to a different service time and she just as quickly was out of my life.
I have had more of these types of experiences in Episcopal and Lutheran churches than I ever did in the Orthodox church. In fact I can't recall anything like that in the Orthodox Church happening. Orthodox like to believe they have some kind of unique relationship to God, but it just isn't confirmed in my experience.