- Sep 17, 2010
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I don't know if I'm necessarily new to Christianity, considering I was raised Catholic, but I've been struggling with my spirituality for over a decade and now that I've come back to Christianity for good, everything feels new and confusing again.
I don't know what made me walk away from God for so many years. I guess that I just didn't feel His presence in my life, and with all the bad things I was going through, I wondered how God could care about me so much and still put me through so many bad things. It was hard for me to believe in a God who would leave me alone through all I went through. (And I did feel utterly alone in those times.)
I've been having some deep religious conversations with a co-worker of mine, though, and it's helped me come back to Christianity. (I also think the fact that the office I've been working in since May is full of Christian women is God's hand in things as well.) I still feel a little lost - I don't know what church to go back to, I don't know where to start. I know I don't really fit in the Catholic mold, that's for sure.
Anyway, that's my story. I feel better, now that I've gotten it out.
I don't know what made me walk away from God for so many years. I guess that I just didn't feel His presence in my life, and with all the bad things I was going through, I wondered how God could care about me so much and still put me through so many bad things. It was hard for me to believe in a God who would leave me alone through all I went through. (And I did feel utterly alone in those times.)
I've been having some deep religious conversations with a co-worker of mine, though, and it's helped me come back to Christianity. (I also think the fact that the office I've been working in since May is full of Christian women is God's hand in things as well.) I still feel a little lost - I don't know what church to go back to, I don't know where to start. I know I don't really fit in the Catholic mold, that's for sure.
Anyway, that's my story. I feel better, now that I've gotten it out.