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[BeautifulWorshipper]

That is so awesome. I feel jealous because I have horrible OCD and I am scared God wont set me free, that maybe he wants me to live in this torture. Also my sister is gay and I pray for her freedom all the time. God bless you, you have an awesome testimony.

Hey I know what you are going through (heck I'm gunna write my own testimony soon and please read it i know what I'm talking about ) It took me nearly 5 years to get over something simlar, and I did not stop prayin all through that time God does heal. He heals broken hearts, damaged minds everything! Dont give up hope please!

Personally, I don't really think I could have fallen for Tony, despite having done some pretty gross stuff before, I still had boundaries and morales - the reason I became so attached to him was because he touched me emotionally which I've never had before - but yes thank God that He led me onto the straight path!

Girls wise, my attractions are growing, but one thing that Tony told me was that as long as you are spending time with God - praying, reading your Bible, and trying your best to keep His commandments, then everything else [being attracted to girls etc] will just fall into place - I'm leaving it in His hands.

Woa well done I' so proud! You dont need to be intrested in girls if your not quite ready. You need to focas on God. Hes up there in his throne smiling, saying welcome home my child! God loves you and he sent your only son to die for YOU

Hey cool dude, I also went to New wine and Soul survivor this summer.

Same, I went to week B!

I didn't make it 75 days on 1st October...

I think today it's 80 days though

All the better! Thats Great, What an AWSOME God we have. He truely IS amazing....Beyond our imagination, Stick with him

Katie x

 

[ChristsDisciple]

it toke me a long time to read that...but im so glad i did. Thanks for sharing it, was very inspiring.

 

[mikewould]

yea i never knew that about you. but now i do and i think you were very brave to post all that up. i'll be praying for you you are a cool brother in Christ. Love you lots, God Bless

 

[worshipleader2b]

yea i never knew that about you. but now i do and i think you were very brave to post all that up. i'll be praying for you you are a cool brother in Christ. Love you lots, God Bless

Yer, not the kind of thing I shouted from the roof tops

it toke me a long time to read that...but im so glad i did. Thanks for sharing it, was very inspiring.

I'm glad to read that...I'm sure I could make it shorter in some areas but it just felt right writing so much lol.

 

[mikewould]

yeah. well. you know what i mean, and lol. i do know what you mean as well.

 

[bannaboat101]

Worshipleader, yout testimony is so insperational. I however used to struggle with the exact issues that you did. I for a while went gay all the way which I will never do again. Worshipleader your life changing tesimony is so awesome I believe that more teens that went thorugh that will want to talk to. Also seeing this post just wants me to re-post mine with a update cause some other things are changin in my life. Also worshipleader I would like for you to pm me cause I would like to ask you something which deals with my ministry. I can't ask here cause a mods told me not to.
God Bless you
Mike

 

[Jeremiah4Christ]

Amazing, and that's just inspiriational. I am so happy that God has worked in you to change you. I hope He can do the same in me through long suffering. Our God is an awesome God. It's great to see that he has worked in you and you had to go through many trials but you're prevailing. That's AWESOME! I'm in awe though because I have almost the exact same struggles as you and I'm starting to overcome through God's help and my will to change.

 

[AJB4]

I can't believe I haven't posted here sooner (I have read it after all), but thank you worshipleader2b. I'm struggling to overcome (today was day of huge temptation for me), and I'm going through homosexuality too right now, but hey, I'm taking the settingcaptivesfree.com course, and it's really helping me. Sometimes it feels hopeless (me trying to change I mean) and impossible, but I'll get there with time.

I'm 7 days clean now, which means I've beaten my previous record of 6 days.

 

[marshgreencohen]

it's such a heartfelt testimony.One thing I can say is...I'm like you.I grew up living with pornography and homosexuality without even realizing that it ain't what i should be. we share exactly the same sort life,detail per detail. God bless...I enrolled in settingcaptivesfree.com and I'm praying that He'll help me through this.

 

[worshipleader2b]

I can't believe I haven't posted here sooner (I have read it after all), but thank you worshipleader2b. I'm struggling to overcome (today was day of huge temptation for me), and I'm going through homosexuality too right now, but hey, I'm taking the settingcaptivesfree.com course, and it's really helping me. Sometimes it feels hopeless (me trying to change I mean) and impossible, but I'll get there with time.

I'm 7 days clean now, which means I've beaten my previous record of 6 days.

I know that [at times] it feels hopeless. In my class at school, there is this guy who I fancied for so long, and now I have been set free, he tells me he is bisexual! There are temptations still, of course, but I now have this new found strength and desire to just say 'Get lost Satan, I'm God's :', and I pray that you would experience that freedom too soon
Congrats on breaking your old record, top stuff, and keep on keeping on!!

it's such a heartfelt testimony.One thing I can say is...I'm like you.I grew up living with pornography and homosexuality without even realizing that it ain't what i should be. we share exactly the same sort life,detail per detail. God bless...I enrolled in settingcaptivesfree.com and I'm praying that He'll help me through this.

I'm praying that too....it's good you've got your struggle out in the open and we have a faithful father up there who will run with us throughout the whole race - we have to run it ourself of course! - but He's there. I'm pleased you've received encouragement from this and pray for the strength of Him in times of trouble and need.

___

On another note, today is three months of complete freedom. Go God!

 

[mikewould]

wow this is becoming a great ministry, to God be the Glory, amen

 

[worshipleader2b]

Yeah, I'm really pleased with that too - this is such a massive problem for guys, mainly because it's embarrassing and very sensitive.

100 days free today

 

[JPPT1974]

Praying continually for you all
That have had this problem
You all will recover out of this
By Jesus who will help you all.

 

[melville125]

Hey worshipleader!

New to this forum and just had to say how much it touched me to read your testimony.

First of all, so much of what you said is true for me too. I was 5 when I started masturbating, always had feelings for other guys in my teens etc. The porn only kicked in with the internet a few years ago. I wasn't from a Christian background though and didn't know Jesus until I was 24. I've never been able to kick these habits until...

Well the amazing thing as I read on was that the breakthrough for me also came at this year's Soul Survivor (week A). I work there every year as a steward and this year, another steward opened up to me about his sexual purity struggles, so I told him mine and we started an accountability thing. (I was nearly late to steward a main meeting cos we were having a heart to heart and confessing and praying!) I shared stuff I've never talked about before. I even told him how I've had fantasies about other guys (as a Christian I would NEVER do anything sexual with another guy, but that doesn't stop the enemy playing tricks with your mind!!). Turns out he has been there too!

I have to say I've fallen a couple of times since August, but as you posted somewhere else, you have got to really want to be free of these sins, and probably for the first time I desperately want to!!! Now I have a friend here at uni I can be accountable with regularly face-to-face and I'm coming up to 4 weeks with no masturbation or porn. It feels great

I have been able to share openly with several other guys now, and it has deepened our friendships. What's more, one day last week I had two guys open up to me about sins in their lives. Neither had talked to anyone about it before. Both now want to be regularly accountable.

I am sure that God will use you in the same way. As I have read some of your other posts, you seem to have a great godly wisdom. It takes bucket loads of courage to come clean about this stuff and you have shown you've got what it takes. The enemy MUST NOT be allowed to ruin the lives of any more young Christian guys by using the wall of silence.

I'm proud to call you my brother and a fellow-soldier in the battle. Maybe we'll bump into each other at Soul Survivor next year (after all there's only about 12,000 people there !)

 

[AJB4]

As you'll read in my profile, I've fallen a lot, but no more. This time, I'm being super-careful.

 

[melville125]

AJB4

You rock too! Read your profile and I'm so encouraged to hear that you are finding freedom.

Praying for you mate!

 

[worshipleader2b]

Hey worshipleader!

New to this forum and just had to say how much it touched me to read your testimony.

First of all, so much of what you said is true for me too. I was 5 when I started masturbating, always had feelings for other guys in my teens etc. The porn only kicked in with the internet a few years ago. I wasn't from a Christian background though and didn't know Jesus until I was 24. I've never been able to kick these habits until...

Well the amazing thing as I read on was that the breakthrough for me also came at this year's Soul Survivor (week A). I work there every year as a steward and this year, another steward opened up to me about his sexual purity struggles, so I told him mine and we started an accountability thing. (I was nearly late to steward a main meeting cos we were having a heart to heart and confessing and praying!) I shared stuff I've never talked about before. I even told him how I've had fantasies about other guys (as a Christian I would NEVER do anything sexual with another guy, but that doesn't stop the enemy playing tricks with your mind!!). Turns out he has been there too!

I have to say I've fallen a couple of times since August, but as you posted somewhere else, you have got to really want to be free of these sins, and probably for the first time I desperately want to!!! Now I have a friend here at uni I can be accountable with regularly face-to-face and I'm coming up to 4 weeks with no masturbation or porn. It feels great

I have been able to share openly with several other guys now, and it has deepened our friendships. What's more, one day last week I had two guys open up to me about sins in their lives. Neither had talked to anyone about it before. Both now want to be regularly accountable.

I am sure that God will use you in the same way. As I have read some of your other posts, you seem to have a great godly wisdom. It takes bucket loads of courage to come clean about this stuff and you have shown you've got what it takes. The enemy MUST NOT be allowed to ruin the lives of any more young Christian guys by using the wall of silence.

I'm proud to call you my brother and a fellow-soldier in the battle. Maybe we'll bump into each other at Soul Survivor next year (after all there's only about 12,000 people there !)

It's SO great to read yet another story like yours!! Reading something like that is just so heart-warming and amazing, I'm so glad you're finding freedom, and I can relate to you in how great it feels at 4 weeks free! I'm at 17 weeks free and it still feels that good...even better! God bless ya man, I'm only a PM away if you need me.

 

[MatthewEn]

gr8 testimony man

 

[InflamedHearts]

Great story, thanks be to God

 

[mikewould]

have not heard from you for a really long time. hope you are well and.. merry Christmas... take care brother.

mike