My story

[syrin]

I'm 27 and have been an alcoholic since I was 18. I have never gotten treatment because I can function. I go to work everyday, I'm successful. I have a wonderful son and husband. I always take care of my responsibilities. And yet...
I have never been able to keep liquor in the house for more than a week. Forget beer... thats gone in half that time. I feel better drunk, sleep better drunk. I'm better than I was before my marriage. Then, I would shake in the mornings and need a drink before work.
But I grew up in an Irish household and my family worked hard and partied harder.
Now, I know I have a problem. But, its easy to shrug off because I dont drive drunk, I dont beat my son or let my housework slip. I am good at my job and always support my family. Whats the first thing I do? I don't want to stop drinking. But, I think I do have a problem.

 

[Protinus]

You should stop drinking and ask the Holy Spirit for help. But unfortunately, things probably will have to hit rock bottom for you with enumerable losses before you take drastic measures to help yourself. The problem is that you rationalize your drinking too much and I don't think you think you really have a problem.

You have made a bold step here though and keep sharing with us!!

 

[syrin]

Easier said, than done. Thanks for the kind words.

 

[justanobserver]

You should stop drinking and ask the Holy Spirit for help. But unfortunately, things probably will have to hit rock bottom for you with enumerable losses before you take drastic measures to help yourself. The problem is that you rationalize your drinking too much and I don't think you think you really have a problem.

You have made a bold step here though and keep sharing with us!!

Easier said, than done. Thanks for the kind words.

Protinus, once again, I stand in agreement with your advise.

Syrin - yes you are right - it is easier said than done BUT you have got to want to do it. Protinus is correct is what he said and I stand with his advise. I battled being a drunk/addict/sober/clean for years off and on, thru 3 marriages and one lost careeer - lost it 2 yrs short of retirement! 2 years!! no one's fault but mine. So I know its much easier said that done. Even went to Military rehab (Dec 99 - Jan 00) and it didnt clean me up. But finally I did do it and got sober for myself.

I been sober now for almost 2 yrs and clean for around 2 and half years. I had to just make up my miind for me to do it. I had help. I went to AA meetings and when I was still stationed down south, went to some Celebrate Recovery meetings that I really enjoyed, read the Big Book and mostly and I will admit this (and I am not a chrisian), I asked Him for the strength and help to get and stay clean/sober. And I will testify that I believe He answered my request on sobriety.

It aint easy, theres no magic wand but only hard work, many shed tears, determination, discipline and a will to want to do it.

I wish you all the best in your walk.

 

[Protinus]

Protinus, once again, I stand in agreement with your advise.

Syrin - yes you are right - it is easier said than done BUT you have got to want to do it. Protinus is correct is what he said and I stand with his advise. I battled being a drunk/addict/sober/clean for years off and on, thru 3 marriages and one lost careeer - lost it 2 yrs short of retirement! 2 years!! no one's fault but mine. So I know its much easier said that done. Even went to Military rehab (Dec 99 - Jan 00) and it didnt clean me up. But finally I did do it and got sober for myself.

I been sober now for almost 2 yrs and clean for around 2 and half years. I had to just make up my miind for me to do it. I had help. I went to AA meetings and when I was still stationed down south, went to some Celebrate Recovery meetings that I really enjoyed, read the Big Book and mostly and I will admit this (and I am not a chrisian), I asked Him for the strength and help to get and stay clean/sober. And I will testify that I believe He answered my request on sobriety.

It aint easy, theres no magic wand but only hard work, many shed tears, determination, discipline and a will to want to do it.

I wish you all the best in your walk.

bless you JAO!! I am so glad you've given of yourself to be here. Welcome!!

 

[HannahE]

I am a recovered alcholic and when i first got help i was forced into it and didnt want it. The thing that changed my mind was that i fell in love with Jesus. I got in the Word and learned who He really is. The amazing God who DIED for my freedom. Christ has set us free by his death so that we can live a free life, not so that we can go around staying stuck in our stagnant life of sin. After i learned who Jesus was and began to love HIm it began to break my heart when i realized how i was hurting Him by letting my addiction continue. He is so powerful we just have to give up our control to Him and we have to want it, really want it. So my advice right now isnt even to address your drinking issue head on but to put all your energy into reading the Bible, the gospels are awesome in learning who Jesus is. And God will do an awesome work in your heart.

 

[PrairieGurl]

Dear Syrin,

Your story sounds very much like my own & I had to "hit rock bottom" before I went for help.

I so agree with Protinus & Justanobserver's advice!

I've been sober now for 2 weeks

As Prontius has said " You have made a bold step here though and keep sharing with us!!"