- Apr 25, 2023
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Hi my name is Thomas I’m 23 I’m new here and I was a non-believer who found his faith again, this is my first post. My name is quite fitting in regards that Saint Thomas was the doubter of Christ. But I just wanted to say hi and tell you my story.
My story begins when I was first baptised as a Catholic as a baby, fast forward a few years and I attended church regularly with some of my family. On one occasion according to my parents I described a man who was bleeding and wearing sandals, so they asked me where he was and it was in corner of the church where there wasn’t any crucifixes of Jesus just an empty wall. Of course my parents thought that it was a bit strange. However I had forgot about this until last week I believe God stopped me from knowing this because of my lack of faith but as you’ll read on you’ll see I gained it again.
Next I completed my Holy Communion and that’s when things changed, I just stopped believing in God, I don’t know why. I just did. For the following years my life was a mess. Many bad things happened to me, I won’t explain them all but it was a bad time that’s for sure.
Fast forward to a week ago and I was at the final straw I had no purpose as a man, and my friend moved away I felt like a failure. So I decided to pray to God to guide me on the right path and show me a sign, I pleaded to him asking for help.
Less than 10 minutes later I got up to go in the shower and I felt something that I can only describe as a force pushing me off balance slightly and as if my chest had opened up, my breathing was extremely heavy, and my emotions took over like I’ve never felt before. The strange thing about this was they were happy tears, I was smiling but crying my eyes out. I know it wasn’t a panic attack because I have had these before. This was something different. Then suddenly I knew what my purpose was in life, it had been staring me in the face since I was a child, I’m a historian, and will always be a historian. As I continued to cry, I got in the shower and I knew this was God who had answered my prayer, I begged him to forgive me for my sins, I have never felt happier since, I get emotional just thinking about God even writing this. I promised God I would be a better Christian and I don’t want to let him down, I know I will sin but I want to learn to recognise my sins and repent. I am also now moving towards my goals and have a clear path that I can only thank God for.
That is my story I would love to learn more and speak to some great people.
May God bless you all.
My story begins when I was first baptised as a Catholic as a baby, fast forward a few years and I attended church regularly with some of my family. On one occasion according to my parents I described a man who was bleeding and wearing sandals, so they asked me where he was and it was in corner of the church where there wasn’t any crucifixes of Jesus just an empty wall. Of course my parents thought that it was a bit strange. However I had forgot about this until last week I believe God stopped me from knowing this because of my lack of faith but as you’ll read on you’ll see I gained it again.
Next I completed my Holy Communion and that’s when things changed, I just stopped believing in God, I don’t know why. I just did. For the following years my life was a mess. Many bad things happened to me, I won’t explain them all but it was a bad time that’s for sure.
Fast forward to a week ago and I was at the final straw I had no purpose as a man, and my friend moved away I felt like a failure. So I decided to pray to God to guide me on the right path and show me a sign, I pleaded to him asking for help.
Less than 10 minutes later I got up to go in the shower and I felt something that I can only describe as a force pushing me off balance slightly and as if my chest had opened up, my breathing was extremely heavy, and my emotions took over like I’ve never felt before. The strange thing about this was they were happy tears, I was smiling but crying my eyes out. I know it wasn’t a panic attack because I have had these before. This was something different. Then suddenly I knew what my purpose was in life, it had been staring me in the face since I was a child, I’m a historian, and will always be a historian. As I continued to cry, I got in the shower and I knew this was God who had answered my prayer, I begged him to forgive me for my sins, I have never felt happier since, I get emotional just thinking about God even writing this. I promised God I would be a better Christian and I don’t want to let him down, I know I will sin but I want to learn to recognise my sins and repent. I am also now moving towards my goals and have a clear path that I can only thank God for.
That is my story I would love to learn more and speak to some great people.
May God bless you all.
