If I turn to god it just makes things worse.
Why would it make things worse?
It suprises me that you say " if I turn to god it makes things worse ". You do realize that the ongoings in your home whether spiritual , physical or mental are being allowed to take place as a test from God, Our Father. It may be time to repent and go back to your first love, Jesus Christ of Nazareth. You will see a dramatic change. I'll pray for you.
Be blessed.
I'm not sure if such a test would be from God. God is about peace and freedom.
You can only experience the peace and freedom of God by being
in Christ and having the indwelling of the Holy Spirit. (Philippians 4:7, Galatians 5:22)
Any test would be to see how much you are willing to cling to the hope of Christ and His Word, when it seems like the world around you, or even your sanity, may be crumbling.
Also you should know that God is about more than just peace and freedom. Remember how Jesus said he came not to bring peace, but a sword? (Matthew 10:34) Something else to consider...
I plan to and I thought I had but there is always something lurking. I've always been close with the spirit world ever since I was very young. I've seen things and experienced stuff in my time. I will write down what you said and try that. I have felt better within myself apart from suffering from stress relating to other things.
Don't take this the wrong way, but I get the feeling you are either holding on to, or giving power to, this spirit world that you refer to. You say you've been
close to it since a young age, and that you've seen things. Is that because you've wanted to see them perhaps?
As I say, please don't take offense, I'm just giving you another option to consider.
Regardless, what should hopefully start becoming clear for you is that Jesus Christ is above all this; for this spirit world is under His command, and yours, when you are in Him.
I pray that the Lord will pierce your heart with the Living Word as found in the Holy Bible. Let the Spirit guide you unto all Truth, becoming indwelt by His presence and having the peace that surpasses all understanding.
Father, if you are willing, let the Power of Your Spirit drive this soul such that he will have all authority and confidence to drive out this presence from his home, just like Paul was able to drive out the spirit from the woman with a spirit of divination (Acts of the Apostles 16:18)
I pray in the name of the Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit. Amen.