Hey everyone, my names Josh, a new user of this forum, I'm pretty glad forums like this exist and I'm excited to be here. I'm here and I have a pretty interesting story I'd like to share with those who are interested, how God turned an Atheist into a Christian believer, I'm also about 3 weeks into the Christian faith, so this is pretty new to me, many new experiences and changes have happened in this short period of time. Anyways, here is how I realized the existence of God.
God, being angry at me for my life of sin and also not believing in his existence, showed me his wrath. My goodness, how scary this experience was. I was filled with a terror unlike any other, and I just couldn't explain what it was. I thought I was going to die from fear and terror alone. This fear lasted about half an hour If I remember correctly. It started while I was in my room, I was watching a show called King Of The Hill a comedy cartoon not really strong on Christianity, but it is mentioned quite a few times during the series, and one of the characters, Luanne , was doing a Christian puppet show for children, and during her story with her puppets, the puppets were in a bad situation and Luanne said "Who wants to live in a world without God?" and then said to the puppets, "God does care, and he will show it!" As soon as she said that my body was filled with terror unlike anything I have ever known. Like God was squeezing me. I walked out of my bedroom and sat for a bit in the living room, trying to understand what was going on. My grandmother told me she saw a child alone near the elementary school right near our house, and even though I was nearly dying out of fear, I decided to check it out. I didn't tell her what was happening to me, but I'm sure she noticed I was acting pretty odd for the time this was going on. That "child" near the school wall made me think it was actually a demon, waiting to drag me down to hell.
Now at this point I was feeling much pity for myself, and feeling pretty sorry for myself at this point because I wasn't sure what I did wrong to deserve this, or if this was even God doing it. I was confused. Right before I was about to leave the house to see if it was a young child alone out there, which I really didn't think it was, I heard on the TV a woman say, look at him! He's feeling sorry for himself! The audience in the background laughed. Which is exactly how I was feeling, like the television was mocking me. Coincidence? I don't think so. God sure does work in mysterious ways.
So I leave the house and walk on down across the field, to the school, and this child was nothing more than a bucket, and the bucket had a hole in it on the back and a faucet-like thing was poking out from inside the bucket hole. Must of been a faucet that was connected to the school wall, and a bucket connected to it for whatever reason. It looked like crimson liquid was dripping out from the bucket, not much, almost like blood. Here, I was at the height of the dread, and I walked back home, God, it seemed like such a long walk even though I didn't walk far, must of been from the dread, I was trembling.
My neighbor, Flow, had a beautiful setup on her lawn, the 3 wise men, Mary and Joseph, and Jesus in his manger. I felt like I had to go up there, so instead of heading back into the house, I walked up near where this manger setup was, and said, here I am, an unwelcome guest, forgive me. I walked up to Jesus's manger, I got on my knees, and begged for help, to help take this horrible dread away from me, when that didn't work, I got up, and walked away towards my house.
I turned around and I said to Jesus, I want to call you Lord. Immediately the dread and terror I was feeling was lifted from my body, I felt none of the dread I felt before. So, let me tell you my friends, I sure do believe in God now. So here I am, slowly trying to get deeper into the Christian faith. Please read Psalm 53, let me know what it means, it seems to be why I was in the situation I was in.
1 The fool says in his heart,
“There is no God.”
They are corrupt, and their ways are vile;
there is no one who does good. 2 God looks down from heaven
on all mankind
to see if there are any who understand,
any who seek God.
3 Everyone has turned away, all have become corrupt;
there is no one who does good,
not even one.
4 Do all these evildoers know nothing?
They devour my people as though eating bread;
they never call on God.
5 But there they are, overwhelmed with dread,
where there was nothing to dread.
God scattered the bones of those who attacked you;
you put them to shame, for God despised them.
6 Oh, that salvation for Israel would come out of Zion!
When God restores his people,
let Jacob rejoice and Israel be glad!
Anyways, God bless, and thank you for reading. I'll be around, posting. Take care. Wish me luck, and please pray for me.
God, being angry at me for my life of sin and also not believing in his existence, showed me his wrath. My goodness, how scary this experience was. I was filled with a terror unlike any other, and I just couldn't explain what it was. I thought I was going to die from fear and terror alone. This fear lasted about half an hour If I remember correctly. It started while I was in my room, I was watching a show called King Of The Hill a comedy cartoon not really strong on Christianity, but it is mentioned quite a few times during the series, and one of the characters, Luanne , was doing a Christian puppet show for children, and during her story with her puppets, the puppets were in a bad situation and Luanne said "Who wants to live in a world without God?" and then said to the puppets, "God does care, and he will show it!" As soon as she said that my body was filled with terror unlike anything I have ever known. Like God was squeezing me. I walked out of my bedroom and sat for a bit in the living room, trying to understand what was going on. My grandmother told me she saw a child alone near the elementary school right near our house, and even though I was nearly dying out of fear, I decided to check it out. I didn't tell her what was happening to me, but I'm sure she noticed I was acting pretty odd for the time this was going on. That "child" near the school wall made me think it was actually a demon, waiting to drag me down to hell.
Now at this point I was feeling much pity for myself, and feeling pretty sorry for myself at this point because I wasn't sure what I did wrong to deserve this, or if this was even God doing it. I was confused. Right before I was about to leave the house to see if it was a young child alone out there, which I really didn't think it was, I heard on the TV a woman say, look at him! He's feeling sorry for himself! The audience in the background laughed. Which is exactly how I was feeling, like the television was mocking me. Coincidence? I don't think so. God sure does work in mysterious ways.
So I leave the house and walk on down across the field, to the school, and this child was nothing more than a bucket, and the bucket had a hole in it on the back and a faucet-like thing was poking out from inside the bucket hole. Must of been a faucet that was connected to the school wall, and a bucket connected to it for whatever reason. It looked like crimson liquid was dripping out from the bucket, not much, almost like blood. Here, I was at the height of the dread, and I walked back home, God, it seemed like such a long walk even though I didn't walk far, must of been from the dread, I was trembling.
My neighbor, Flow, had a beautiful setup on her lawn, the 3 wise men, Mary and Joseph, and Jesus in his manger. I felt like I had to go up there, so instead of heading back into the house, I walked up near where this manger setup was, and said, here I am, an unwelcome guest, forgive me. I walked up to Jesus's manger, I got on my knees, and begged for help, to help take this horrible dread away from me, when that didn't work, I got up, and walked away towards my house.
I turned around and I said to Jesus, I want to call you Lord. Immediately the dread and terror I was feeling was lifted from my body, I felt none of the dread I felt before. So, let me tell you my friends, I sure do believe in God now. So here I am, slowly trying to get deeper into the Christian faith. Please read Psalm 53, let me know what it means, it seems to be why I was in the situation I was in.
1 The fool says in his heart,
“There is no God.”
They are corrupt, and their ways are vile;
there is no one who does good. 2 God looks down from heaven
on all mankind
to see if there are any who understand,
any who seek God.
3 Everyone has turned away, all have become corrupt;
there is no one who does good,
not even one.
4 Do all these evildoers know nothing?
They devour my people as though eating bread;
they never call on God.
5 But there they are, overwhelmed with dread,
where there was nothing to dread.
God scattered the bones of those who attacked you;
you put them to shame, for God despised them.
6 Oh, that salvation for Israel would come out of Zion!
When God restores his people,
let Jacob rejoice and Israel be glad!
Anyways, God bless, and thank you for reading. I'll be around, posting. Take care. Wish me luck, and please pray for me.
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