My apologies

[W2L]

You were great brother in your true self, and thank you for apologizing, the horrible wicked left me awhile back already, so I knew you had been to our Lord about this and have been restored to sanity again. Please don't think I'm mad or anything, I've been just like you, to my own family and all, so I know how bad it is to wake up to the destruction evil spirituality in us turns us into.

Please remember that satan will come and try and shame you for all that happened, however let Christ's grace shame him and put all his loveless lies into the fire of our Lord's love over you - until the liar in you is totally dead. For a fresh water spring can't produce clean and dirty water at the same time, so not until you are drinking living waters - His gracious love streaming in you have you reach Heaven's above.

Please don't isolate yourself for then you will never ever heal, I know that from experience, rather humbly ask Jesus to show/teach you how to stay free from such spiritual madness, by delivering any loveless lies.

And so when you want to cut someone off from God's salvation because of their sins and wrongdoings, give grace instead, like you need yourself, and so Jesus will also have grace on you.

Forgive us our sins as we forgive those who sinned against us. Such a pity it had to go this way isn't brother? I reckon that this is because you hide your sin instead of let Jesus set you free from them. If you feel the need to hide sin, or blame others for your wrongs, or judge others or yourself then you are in evil spirituality and have to stop being like that and burn unfaithful love there and then - time and again!!! Only then you can go on with life after that a free man and easily talk about your past sin for they no longer hurt but are examples of God's grace instead and bring more loving grace around than ever in the hearts of those till stuck with such wrongs in their lives.

I found that when we willingly stop doing it wrong because we mourn our Lord Jesus, then we have reached our goal, not before. If you have sinned a lot, like in your judgmental one, then the bad spirituality is not killed straightaway but rather pesters until you are totally dead being like that and hate judgmental spirit and love to give grace.

So once you are able to accept ever human being who has ever lived or will ever live as God's own lost Children who need to be saved, especially those who did really bad things, like Hitler, Mao, Stalin, and all those horrific serial killers, and other people gone wicked, because the lies they believed, letting in satan killing their true and good life. Some people kill all their good life and then die suicide, this means that the true person is with our Lord long before the final person is, for a murderer has no eternal life in them, so in the part where we let in satan to do the killing we loose our eternal life. Suicide is not advisable from this perspective because in the one we do the deed we are utterly doomed for how can we repent of murder after we are dead? A really bad trap to be for those who do bad.

The idea is not killing ourselves sinful people ,but letting Christ save us sinful people by dying to being bad because we love Jesus so much more. We can only do that after we have come in in all our sin in such parts of our lives, so if we sinned badly for a long time then our cleansing a evildoer will also take a long time, where slowly one by one we get free from the sinful spirituality that imprisons us until the last chosen has come in - and then FIREWORKS on wicked spirituality - not before. This alls for patient endurance of the chosen that's for sure.

Now I'm sure the liar has been saying really bad things about me, or others, or God, or yourself while you were reading all this. For satan hates the truth of love and grace, so when you see this alive in you then you know who the real culprit was - the one I have been speaking to, and the one who hurt you so badly because you believed the lie and not God's loving truth - but not you who loves The Lord, and also not you who was overcome by wrong, though you are in deep trouble now for satan's spirit has stolen all your good life while you were running a muck doing his bidding in this part of yourself and you need God's grace big time (no problem though if you have faith in is love,) so please keep drinking His blood brother until you wail your loveless sin and meet Christ on the bottom of all of that and die to sinful spirit and are restored in true life again.


Please bro watch the accuser as you read the Word below without taking your eyes of Jesus, and you will find it very liberating indeed. I love this piece for it made me understand who lived in me doing the evil wrong - namely our loveless (which is lawless,) egocentric spirit - this is what we need to get rid of and in that part of our selves we are place right on the bottom, like I tried to share with you, so glad you be with there soon. For then we have 2 witness to the lawless one to demonstrate instead of only one.

2 Thessalonians 2

Concerning the coming of our Lord Jesus Christ and our being gathered to him, we ask you, brothers and sisters, not to become easily unsettled or alarmed by the teaching allegedly from us—whether by a prophecy or by word of mouth or by letter—asserting that the day of the Lord has already come. Don’t let anyone deceive you in any way, for that day will not come until the rebellion occurs and the man of lawlessness is revealed, the man doomed to destruction. He will oppose and will exalt himself over everything that is called God or is worshiped, so that he sets himself up in God’s temple, proclaiming himself to be God.

Don’t you remember that when I was with you I used to tell you these things? And now you know what is holding him back, so that he may be revealed at the proper time. For the secret power of lawlessness is already at work; but the one who now holds it back will continue to do so till he is taken out of the way. And then the lawless one will be revealed, whom the Lord Jesus will overthrow with the breath of his mouth and destroy by the splendor of his coming. The coming of the lawless one will be in accordance with how Satan works. He will use all sorts of displays of power through signs and wonders that serve the lie, and all the ways that wickedness deceives those who are perishing. They perish because they refused to love the truth and so be saved. For this reason God sends them a powerful delusion so that they will believe the lie and so that all will be condemned who have not believed the truth but have delighted in wickedness.



But we ought always to thank God for you, brothers and sisters loved by the Lord, because God chose you as firstfruits to be saved through the sanctifying work of the Spirit and through belief in the truth. He called you to this through our gospel, that you might share in the glory of our Lord Jesus Christ.


So then, brothers and sisters, stand firm and hold fast to the teachings we passed on to you, whether by word of mouth or by letter.


May our Lord Jesus Christ himself and God our Father, who loved us and by his grace gave us eternal encouragement and good hope, encourage your hearts and strengthen you in every good deed and word.

So happy you came back, so incredible happy I hope you will soon be completely restored to us and we can keep grow in His loving truth together bro, also in the parts of your life where you have been hiding in the darkness.

Much love

I have gained a measure of peace by apologising, but i still have disturbance within myself.

I know shame very well, but im too weary to let shame overwhelm me. The weariness is stronger than the shame.

 

[W2L]

St Padre Pio came face to face with the devil. He had years of torment. In the end he won. I am sure Gods prefers someone who is in it for the long haul. However hard it gets.

I have have been struggling for 1.5 years now with this same 'problem'. Every day it lives in my mind, eating away at me.

Where else could I go? Who else promises mercy and eternal life? Religion destroys me just as this world does, but where else can I go? I need God more than he needs me

 

[Goatee]

Where else could I go? Who else promises mercy and eternal life? Religion destroys me just as this world does, but where else can I go? I need God more than he needs me

Then i would say forget about 'religion'. Concentrate on God. If that means personal time between you and God then so be it. Spiritual reading even.

Concentrate on 'God' and nothing else. Let 'religions' worry about themselves.

You need God. He knows this. Like me, you have to get on that bumpy road and endure it.

 

[W2L]

Then i would say forget about 'religion'. Concentrate on God. If that means personal time between you and God then so be it. Spiritual reading even.

Concentrate on 'God' and nothing else. Let 'religions' worry about themselves.

You need God. He knows this. Like me, you have to get on that bumpy road and endure it.

Like I said, the damage is done. It cannot be undone. Ive seen too much.

 

[Goatee]

Like I said, the damage is done. It cannot be undone. Ive seen too much.

Ok, you know best. But, dont give up on God. Jesus came to forgive sinners.

 

[W2L]

I persevere however

 

[W2L]

Ok, you know best. But, dont give up on God. Jesus came to forgive sinners.

God is my only hope. As much as I hate religion, I cant hate God who is my hope.

 

[Jeshu]

St Padre Pio came face to face with the devil. He had years of torment. In the end he won. I am sure Gods prefers someone who is in it for the long haul. However hard it gets.

I have have been struggling for 1.5 years now with this same 'problem'. Every day it lives in my mind, eating away at me.

That means you only got 2 years to go in this part of yourself bro, please don't stop eating God's grace and handing yourself in unfaithful love to Jesus - time and again - until the dragon accuser burned that harlot making you so sinful like that. When you willing lay down your sinful life because you love Jesus for dying for you then you know the end in sight.

Be of very good courage and give mercy to you who can't do it right - time and again - until only the wicked are left - for then comes the best part - God's lightning strike casting the wicked dead - the very thoughts/voices/ feelings that condemn you to hell and make you feel bad about yourself a sinner all the time in such a way that sin doesn't stop but gets worse. Awesome time that!

peace

 

[W2L]

Thanks for your understanding. I'm logging off for now. Need some quiet time

 

[Noxot]

usually nirvana makes no sense to me

the lyrics might be a tad off in most human eyes, even if it is "aqua seafoam shame" it's still the same truth.

 

[Jeshu]

Like I said, the damage is done. It cannot be undone. Ive seen too much.

Everything bad will be undone, nothing bad is going to stay and even better where you have been really bad you will receive the most love and grace, an amazing experience let me assure you and very, very humbling.

You'll love Him bro the sinner you have been - it is absolutely fantastic to be set free and produce good instead of bad life.

 

[Jeshu]

usually nirvana makes no sense to me

the lyrics might be a tad off in most human eyes, even if it is "aqua seafoam shame" it's still the same truth.

The truth spoken is absolutely great brother but the spirits in which it is sung needs a lot of work to be sanctified though. Could be confusing for some people from that perspective both good and bad to wake up inside, unless we are awake to that of course then we can truly enjoy a song like that.

Good find bro

 

[Noxot]

I think that in some ways that religion is designed to fail. it's like the son not being killed by Abraham and instead slaying a goat caught in a thorny bush.

faith can be irrational and irrational freedom is what is causing all the problems in the world but this faith was said to be a very good thing by God and so this irrational freedom met with real love towards God becomes sanctified.

it's like darkness turning into light (among other things)

I think this is why in some sense a few respected souls I know have said the bold and provoking statement "there is no sin"

 

[W2L]

One rose growing in the desert cries out against the barren landscape.

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

I have explained it before. It would only offend you and would gain much criticism as it did before. I'm alone and must bear my pain alone. That makes it all the more difficult.

Youre alone? I thought you were married. Either way, were here for you

 

[W2L]

Youre alone? I thought you were married. Either way, were here for you

There is more than one kind of loneliness.

 

[Jeshu]

I think that in some ways that religion is designed to fail. it's like the son not being killed by Abraham and instead slaying a goat caught in a thorny bush.

faith can be irrational and irrational freedom is what is causing all the problems in the world but this faith was said to be a very good thing by God and so this irrational freedom met with real love towards God becomes sanctified.

it's like darkness turning into light (among other things)

I think this is why in some sense a few respected souls I know have said the bold and provoking statement "there is no sin"

This is only becoming true after all have entered in 100 percent. However if we find Newness of Life in Christ in a part of our lives, like love for God or neighbour then sin will stop in such part of your life and God's blessings will begin to pour down upon you. always remember the golden rule - any demand of the flesh and sin is at the door, any gift of God in His love and go for it!

So don't marry new things or think sin doesn't matter for it certainly does - we have to get rid of unfaithful love before sin stops completely. Takes 3 1/2 year in your believer self and another 3 1/2 years for your willful sinner self. Anyone Crowning Jesus when lawless, like I did, and 10 years desolation awaits, not recommended let me assure you. But you already know the desolation and seen it bloom you know bro wrong from right in His love isn't it. His loving truth sets us completely free, one by one Jesus takes us up to Him untill we are in Him in our all.

Follow Paul's instruction brother when it comes to being gentile/willfully sinful inside of you, he gives us allthe answers as well as himself.

 

[W2L]

Truth can be lonely. At least our perception of it can be.

 

[Jeshu]

Truth can be lonely. At least our perception of it can be.

ponder our Lord growing up perfect in a sinful world including His mum and dad down here. When you find Him your loneliness will bless you my boy. Living Revelation 12 again bro, back here again! Those awesome wheels again.

 

[W2L]

ponder our Lord growing up perfect in a sinful world including His mum and dad down here. When you find Him your loneliness will bless you my boy. Living Revelation 12 again bro, back here again! Those awesome wheels again.

I did momentarily ponder how lonely the cross must have been.