Must not spit!

[Kostilaks]

2 years ago, I used to have a compulsion to keep my saliva in my mouth in case I would randomly. inhale/smell smoke from random strangers who were smoking on the street. I would spit the saliva later, in order not to count as if I smoked.

One day, I remember being stressed with this and I remember praying to God. I am not sure what I said but I remembered having some thoughts about a promise about stop spitting on the street or something like that. I cant remember if the promise was 100% intrusive thoughts.


I worry because maybe a punishment was asked in case breaking it.


Today, I removed some food that was stuck in my mouth as part of an other ocd compulsion and I remembered the whole smoke/spit compulsion. My ocd started telling me that I maybe broke it.

I just want to get it off my chest. My ocd is telling me not even write this post because maybe the hypothetical promise was about not even think/speak/write about the spit/smoke compulsion.

I WORRY BECAUSE I CANT REMEMBER IF THE PROMISE WERE INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS OR NOT. I am writting it in order to feel good.

 

[Tolworth John]

My ocd is telling me not even write this post because maybe the hypothetical promise was about not even think/speak/write about the spit/smoke compulsion.

Two basic facts.

God does not make deals with us. There is no ' If I do or don't do this you will forgive or not condem me!'
God does not do that. He tells us to obey him.
There is no negotiation it is obey.

Then a promise made under duress, if you must make a promise, then that promise is not binding.

I have told you these basic facts before.

You need to learn them, believe them and live according to them.

 

[UnpopularOpinion]

2 years ago, I used to have a compulsion to keep my saliva in my mouth in case I would randomly. inhale/smell smoke from random strangers who were smoking on the street. I would spit the saliva later, in order not to count as if I smoked.

One day, I remember being stressed with this and I remember praying to God. I am not sure what I said but I remembered having some thoughts about a promise about stop spitting on the street or something like that. I cant remember if the promise was 100% intrusive thoughts.


I worry because maybe a punishment was asked in case breaking it.


Today, I removed some food that was stuck in my mouth as part of an other ocd compulsion and I remembered the whole smoke/spit compulsion. My ocd started telling me that I maybe broke it.

I just want to get it off my chest. My ocd is telling me not even write this post because maybe the hypothetical promise was about not even think/speak/write about the spit/smoke compulsion.

I WORRY BECAUSE I CANT REMEMBER IF THE PROMISE WERE INTRUSIVE THOUGHTS OR NOT. I am writting it in order to feel good.

Spitting after inhaling smoke does actually nothing and is pointless , you don't get rid of the smoke particles by spitting they must literally get stuck to your flesh in your nostrils before you even smell them

personally I'd prefer inhale some smoke once in a while randomly on street than to walk in somebody's spit and bring it home with me so please stop ty

 

[Not Perfect]

I just want to get it off my chest. My ocd is telling me not even write this post because maybe the hypothetical promise was about not even think/speak/write about the spit/smoke compulsion.

Good for you posting despite your OCD telling you not to! That's the only way to get over OCD; to just ignore the compulsions.

I worry because maybe a punishment was asked in case breaking it.

I don't think God works that way; making deals and rewarding or punishing people for not keeping them. But I know the OCD makes it feel like he does. I say, do your very best to ignore it, and wait to see what happens. If nothing bad happens (and trust me, nothing bad will happen), then you will know it was just a compulsion, and you'll have more courage to ignore it next time. This is probably a good compulsion to start with, because you are not sure whether you made a promise or not. That's probably easier than breaking a promise you know you made.