- Dec 2, 2005
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I talked to my pastor yesterday about the session I had Monday.... it lasted 10 hours and it was so... I was stunned. I am just so confused though. The associate pastor of my church talked to me yesterday... He said that God wouldn't live in a vessel with a demon... that suggestion was powerful... He gave me so many verses that led me to the truth... He said to not go back, to cease communication... I need to pray to God... I feel even more confused and lost then I did before... God loves me though. He is there for me... He knows my pain and confusion. I just don't know what to do anymore though... my reality is distorted... all I want to know is the truth... counselor after counselor... now another... this time the church is paying for it... what if it doesn't work... what if it is a lie... what if they decide no, I have to graduate you have to find another... and another... I haven't cut since Monday, I feel no need too... I am just so confused... I see God but I can't reach Him... I hate myself so much because I can't seem to get back in fellowship with Him... it is like nobody is able to help... I don't even know what I need...