~Anastasia~
† Handmaid of God †
- Dec 1, 2013
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I guess my view is very influenced by where I come from, I have been in an environment that denies belief in spiritual beings (not in a spiritual reality, though - that I very much believe in). That's not to say that I'm at all sure, it's just hard to wrap my mind around it.
I think I need to look into the subject of demons more, I haven't really paid that much attention to it so far. The church I used to belong to never really spoke about these things, other than to warn against exorcism.
I'm very curious as to which particulars you're referring to, but I understand if you don't want to go into detail. In which case, just ignore this.
I'm the same, mulling things over in my mind; questioning, researching, trying to figure things out. Always praying that I will be led in the right direction. Right now I'm on a journey of discovery that I hope will lead me to that firmer foundation you mention.
I understand. It was mis-speaking on my part, btw, to say spiritual reality instead of spiritual beings. I understood what you meant.
My background usually took one of two approaches in regards to spiritual beings - they usually didn't DENY them but said we weren't to focus on them so it was best to just forget about them, or they had an unhealthy preoccupation with them which led to stuff beyond what I think was good.
Normally demons (and angels) won't ever make themselves known anyway. But they can certainly affect us.
I'll tell you one thing. There was a time in my past, very difficult time for me in terms of what I was experiencing in life anyway. But on top of that, my thoughts were really running away with me. I had repeated negative thoughts about other persons and what they were doing (or not doing) and just thoughts that were making me feel like a huge, dark weight was over my head and physically pushing me down into the ground. It ran from the moment I woke up until I went to sleep. The thing is, I'm not really a negative person. But I didn't recognize what was going on, because my life really WAS "falling apart" as some might see it.
But it suddenly clicked. I think God must have had mercy on me and let me know. Those were not my thoughts. That constant flow through my mind for TWO MONTHS was not even coming from me. I suddenly realized, that was a demonic thing, tormenting me. And with the realization came a really righteous anger. I didn't say any special words, I didn't "exorcise" anything - but I did express my feelings out loud. I prayed and thanked God. And it was gone. My mind was clear, and I could see things as they really were (which they were kind of bad, but I wasn't making them worse and I was able to get a handle on reality and make changes where I was able, and deal with what I couldn't change) and I became myself again.
I wasn't "possessed" ... but I was certainly listening to demonic thoughts, and mistaking them for my own. That lesson has taught me the difference, but it can be subtle, and I have "fallen for it" briefly in the meantime (this was about 15 years ago). Demons try new tricks. But being aware and knowing about some of them is helpful.
OK, that's probably enough. That and other things in my life have convinced me that there ARE spiritual beings. But the most important aspect of that, I think, is being on guard against attacks and tricks by the enemy.
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