Meltdown...

[FindingaWay]

Can't hold it together... I don't know how to cope.
I flooded the bath.. and hubby yelled.. and it just all came back.
I always thought they sent me away because I flooded the bath..
everything is just suddenly overwhelming... and I can't let him see me cry.....
Why am I so careless and useless?

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Can't hold it together... I don't know how to cope.
I flooded the bath.. and hubby yelled.. and it just all came back.
I always thought they sent me away because I flooded the bath..
everything is just suddenly overwhelming... and I can't let him see me cry.....
Why am I so careless and useless?

Sweetie, I know you...you're careful and useful in more than a hundred ways. You know better than I how triggers work, how your mind might sometimes wander without you even realising. That doesn't make you careless or useless - it just means you've got a thousand other things running through your mind. It happens to everyone at points in their lives and they don't have half the reasons you do right now . It doesn't mean you're a terrible person, just that you're human (as much as we hate admitting it sometimes). You can only cope with so much by ourselves .

You know you can always PM me if you want to talk Hun...and I think you're awesome. You're not going to convince me otherwise.

 

[bubblefish]

Hun, I completely agree with Steffi here - you are definitely not careless or useless. You are amazing! We all make mistakes, it doesn't make you a horrible person.

And you also have every reason to be feeling the way you are right now. Triggers are horrible, and can cause a lot of pain but you can get through. Give yourself time Hun. Is there someone you can talk to at all? Other than your hubby? Or even, if you can't talk about any of this, just someone you can tell that you are going through a rough time and to get you out for a bit and do something for yourself - go shopping or to the movies - something you enjoy doing. Take your mind off things for even just a little while.

I am also always here if you want to talk Thinking of you.

Love always,
Katie

 

[Johnnz]

Getting some support is really important. Don't let the spiral do down too far.

John
NZ

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

How are you doing Hun?

 

[FindingaWay]

Ach... I'm ok
Just one of those flashbacks that throw me for a while.
Still a bit wobbly.. but ok.
Wish I could just get on with life.... why are things from 30 years ago still able to disrupt my life at the drop of a hat? Scares me, really... being so unstable.
But... trying to trust God, you know...

Thank you for being so supportive. It makes a huge difference.

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

Ach... I'm ok
Just one of those flashbacks that throw me for a while.
Still a bit wobbly.. but ok.
Wish I could just get on with life.... why are things from 30 years ago still able to disrupt my life at the drop of a hat? Scares me, really... being so unstable.
But... trying to trust God, you know...

Thank you for being so supportive. It makes a huge difference.

You know we're always here to support you Hun .

Whether you're stable or unstable, take things as they come. You're a hero in my books...you lived through things that I couldn't imagine having to go through and you're still here stepping forward each day. I am constantly amazed by the bravery and courage survivors have - I'm not sure I'd do half as well in a similar situation .