Mature chat thread.....

[memoriesbymichelle]

Feeling so sad right now... I have been following the Casey Anthony case where the mother didn't report her 2 year old daughter missing and went partying for a month or so and the grandma calls 911 around the 31 day mark and she just got aquitted! They found her baby about 10 houses away wrapped in trash bags and duct tape that came from her house and her car smelled like a dead body. I didn't have much faith in our justice system anyway, but now I for sure have lost all hope in it. But I don't understand why this is affecting me so heavily. I feel lost. My faith in God is not shaken, nor do I question His plan or motives, I'm just shocked I guess. The jury didn't even take 24 hours to go over anything it was about 10 hours and that includes selecting a forman and eating lunch. I think they just wanted to go home and I'm mad and sad and IDK?

I also am coming to the very realization that I eat for comfort. And that must mean I really am not very happy in my life because I can't seem to get and keep off the 30 pounds I need to rid myself of. I know part of my unhappiness is of course not having my husband, and another part is being SO in debt. But I love and trust God and have 2 wonderful boys, and an awesome step daughter, son and daughter in law. So now I know WHAT my problem is but IDK how to change it, or make myself feel differently.

 

[peacechild4]

It's hard to open up when you're not a 100% that people care! Not saying that I think you don't, because never in any of your posts have I ever gotten the feeling that you would turn away...but in general...when you're a newbie on a forum like this, it's easier to keep quiet than to face rejection!

I've felt that way SO much. I want to just let it all hang out! But I don't want to intimidate people, or scare people off. I've got a lot of stuff that I wish I could look for advice on, or love and support. So, maybe I'll start by sharing a bit with you? You seem like such a beautiful soul!

Aww... fair enough.. I would lov to be here all the time and be able to respond to every post.. but I just cannot.. I think that is why GOD wanted us to be together.. because amongst the family of GOD.. world wide.. there is always someone around and we all bear each others burdens.. I would fail you personally if you leaned only on me.. as nice as I want people to think I am.. lol.. I am human... I just get so lonely these days.. and I do not want to sit around and focus on all I do not have.. I sincerely hope you find people to talk too about such..

This morning in my time with GOD.. HE was reminding me that I have an inbuilt counsellor within.. a strengthener and helper.. always 24/7... I do look for a person to share my life with.. and long for it.. but I realize nobody can be as close to me as the HOLY SPIRIT.. sorry probably derailing your post.. I am the kind of person that lets loose easily about anything which has not always been a good thing.. though I would never share personal intimate details shared with me in confidence but I talk openly about myself but sometimes it is hard to find someone to listen..

THis was posted on face book today..

The most basic and powerful way to connect to another person is to listen. Just listen. Perhaps the most important thing we ever give each other is our attention… A loving silence often has far more power to heal and to connect than the most well-intentioned words....

I hope if I cannot always be here and cannot always find someone to hear my woes.. lol.. I can put myself out here and say I will listen and care..

 

[peacechild4]

Feeling so sad right now... I have been following the Casey Anthony case where the mother didn't report her 2 year old daughter missing and went partying for a month or so and the grandma calls 911 around the 31 day mark and she just got aquitted! They found her baby about 10 houses away wrapped in trash bags and duct tape that came from her house and her car smelled like a dead body. I didn't have much faith in our justice system anyway, but now I for sure have lost all hope in it. But I don't understand why this is affecting me so heavily. I feel lost. My faith in God is not shaken, nor do I question His plan or motives, I'm just shocked I guess. The jury didn't even take 24 hours to go over anything it was about 10 hours and that includes selecting a forman and eating lunch. I think they just wanted to go home and I'm mad and sad and IDK?

I also am coming to the very realization that I eat for comfort. And that must mean I really am not very happy in my life because I can't seem to get and keep off the 30 pounds I need to rid myself of. I know part of my unhappiness is of course not having my husband, and another part is being SO in debt. But I love and trust God and have 2 wonderful boys, and an awesome step daughter, son and daughter in law. So now I know WHAT my problem is but IDK how to change it, or make myself feel differently.

I have not been following the news Michelle but have seen posts about it on face book.... but immediately as I read this.. I thought of the scripture about GOD knowing when even a little bird falls.. how much more would our FATHER in heaven know and be with this little child as she was falling through the big cracks in our world.. GOD would have been with her.. I am absolutely assured of that.. please take comfort in our GOD loving little children and HE will bring justice about for this.. somewhere else it is written that if anyone harms a little child or keeps him or her from heaven.. it would be better to have a millstone tied to their neck and be cast into the depths..

I lost a baby boy.. and he was dying before my eyes.. but even in death.. and suffering GOD showed me amazing ways HE was there with me and my son.. powerful ways that are stronger then death and nothing can separate us from HIS love.. I know HE was with this child.. as grusome as the details are..

As to how you are feeling personally.. I would encourage you to just concentrate on the HOLY SPIRIT within.. that is what GOD is showing me.. without HIM we are nothing Michelle.. these things.. feelings.. reactions.. habits.. are only because we need more and more of HIM.. only HE can truly satisfy..

I spend my waking hours daydreaming.. sigh.. escaping reality.. shocking really because it is such a temptation and I can be driving somewhere in another mind set.. but it does not satisfy..

I am reading a great book by Joyce Meyer at the moment.. about becoming more intimate with GOD.. amazing timing.. I get a little angry over how long I have waited.. and why things are the way they are.. yes with finances.. alone with kids.. long evenings.. etc.. but in those moments when I am feeling destitute.. I must turn to GOD as ask the HOLY SPIRIT to strengthen me and help me..

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

I know you are right Peacechild, and I totally agree with you, but I think you would agree with me, as imperfect humans, on this roller coaster of a life on this Earth, somedays we just feel like we do, even when we know the truth. It's just part of living in this broken world and I cannot WAIT until Jesus takes back total control and rids us of the evil that permeates the air.

 

[peacechild4]

I know you are right Peacechild, and I totally agree with you, but I think you would agree with me, as imperfect humans, on this roller coaster of a life on this Earth, somedays we just feel like we do, even when we know the truth. It's just part of living in this broken world and I cannot WAIT until Jesus takes back total control and rids us of the evil that permeates the air.

I guess lately GOD has lifted me to a place that I cannot experience these feelings.. But you are right i have felt that way...

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

Well I'm feeling a little better today about Justice. I know that Vengence is the Lord's and Evil people will get what they deserve if they do not repent, but also I was reading about David today when Nathan confronted him about Bathsheba. Since David took awhile (well actually until confronted) to repent, he still had to have a consequence for all that he did regarding taking Bathsheba and having Uriah killed. Even though I don't want anyone really to get what they deserve because that would mean I also would have to get what I deserve and I know I have done shameful things too. But God is always teaching us and disciplining us, which is different than invoking wrath on us so that comforts me when I look around the world and see people getting away with murder (literally) and thinking that not only will they someday have to meet their maker and answer for their actions, but they also will probably get some consequence here on earth too.

 

[dayhiker]

Ya, that was a hard one. It was pretty clear that she did it. But our justice system is in favor of letting the guilty go free over punishing an innocent person. That's the way I think it should be. In some contries the government trumps up charges and convicts then just because some little thing they did displeased a high ranking official. So even tho there was a lot of circumstancial evidence and no one else that seems to be involved. I guess from out courts point of view I think she should go free.

Now she is going to have some serious problems. She no doult will face people calling her names for years. Might be hard to find work. What relations she had with her family is now gone I'm sure. Sounded like it was somewhat shaky anyways. I hope this smartened her up and she will reform her ways. So little of our justice system helps reform people.

 

[peacechild4]

I was praying that this mother knows GOD forgives her and loves her.. or whomever did it.. I was also praying for Arnald the terminator.. cannot type his name.. lol.. because it is so blatantly obvious his sins.. but I wonder how these feel having done these evil deeds and how it would be to be judged by the world.. it would be horrible.. as bad as their sins are.. I am glad GOD forgives us no matter what we have done.. Just how I see things.. GODS SPIRIT is one of mercy and forgiveness and love.. it is worse I think knowing how much HE loves us no matter our sins.. how it brings us to our knees to know that love.. and that we fail the one who loves us.. but praise be to GOD... even our sins though scarlet can be made whiter then snow..

 

[dayhiker]

Ya, because God first loved us we also start to love. God's love overwhelms us and leads us to love others. To reject love is to reject the God who is love.

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

Ya, that was a hard one. It was pretty clear that she did it. But our justice system is in favor of letting the guilty go free over punishing an innocent person. That's the way I think it should be. In some contries the government trumps up charges and convicts then just because some little thing they did displeased a high ranking official. So even tho there was a lot of circumstancial evidence and no one else that seems to be involved. I guess from out courts point of view I think she should go free.

Now she is going to have some serious problems. She no doult will face people calling her names for years. Might be hard to find work. What relations she had with her family is now gone I'm sure. Sounded like it was somewhat shaky anyways. I hope this smartened her up and she will reform her ways. So little of our justice system helps reform people.

Not possible. The ONLY way she could be reformed is by JESUS CHRIST, otherwise, she is just another sociopath and they do NOT have feelings and cannot change.

 

[dayhiker]

Yes, Jesus is her only hope for sure.

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

Wow so today was not so great of a day! My boss informed me he will not be back until Thursday PM. The reason that is a problem is because we get paid on Thursday and he won't be here to sign checks and I only have 2 signed checks. Then one of the guys dropped the ball on some jobs that we have and then got all [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]y and wasn't going to do anything, playing the ignorant card. I emailed my boss to let him know and thankfully he got the email and called the shop. The only good news I got was my son doesn't have any cavaties Yahoo! I tried to fix a little pipe leak on my pool (cuz I don't have the money to pay someone to fix it) and the stupid waterweld isn't working!!! It's days like these I hate being alone and being broke. Not much I can do about it. Sigh

 

[peacechild4]

Wow so today was not so great of a day! My boss informed me he will not be back until Thursday PM. The reason that is a problem is because we get paid on Thursday and he won't be here to sign checks and I only have 2 signed checks. Then one of the guys dropped the ball on some jobs that we have and then got all [bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse][bless and do not curse]y and wasn't going to do anything, playing the ignorant card. I emailed my boss to let him know and thankfully he got the email and called the shop. The only good news I got was my son doesn't have any cavaties Yahoo! I tried to fix a little pipe leak on my pool (cuz I don't have the money to pay someone to fix it) and the stupid waterweld isn't working!!! It's days like these I hate being alone and being broke. Not much I can do about it. Sigh

 

[dayhiker]

MbM, if I were closer, I'd fix that pool leak!

hate when money is slow coming in!

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

MbM, if I were closer, I'd fix that pool leak!

hate when money is slow coming in!

Awe! You're sweet to say that! My ex son in law is gonna take a look but it's just agravating to be so helpless sometimes. It's not my style.

 

[peacechild4]

MbM, if I were closer, I'd fix that pool leak!

hate when money is slow coming in!

Aww I bet you would.. thats sweet.. I wouldn't... lol.. hopeless at anything remotely practical.. but I would make you both a coffee and give you both a hug..

 

[peacechild4]

My kids are all under my roof.. my son came from Melbourne with his girlfriend Kirsty last night!!!!!! And Justin brought Keanu over (ives with his dad full time) and I had my sisters three children too lol... we had a very full house last night.. some still sleeping now.. my son Sebby just brought me a cup of hot tea.. aww... a very blessed mother here..

 

[dayhiker]

love a family reunion of sorts ... I'm going to my parents in Aug for 4 days. A couple of sisters will be there.

 

[memoriesbymichelle]

Yeah I love the times when my kids actually want to spend time with me. Its a rarity now days since they are teenagers.

 

[mjmcmillan]

Sounds like we could have a party. I could help Dayhiker repair the leak, I'm pretty sure we'd enjoy the coffee and-- that PC4 would make and we could all enjoy the repaired pool. Not a bad afternoon.