Loss of a Son

[DLT]

In January of 1998, my 17 year-old son disappeared without a trace. He had been associating with some unsavory characters, and I believe that was the cause of his disappearance. It is presumed that he is dead

Since then, I have largely sublimated my grief, choosing not to confront it, but to bury it somewhere deep in my heart. I don't discuss it, don't deal with it, and can't even bear to look at a picture of Bryan, fearing that once the floodgates of grief are opened, I will go mad.

After reaching new depths of cynicism and self-pity, I've recently recommitted my life to Christ, and it has been a great comfort to me. I now truly feel that my boy is in a much better place now, and I believe that God understands my grief and is contantly seeking to reach out to me. I honestly feel the presence of God, and allow myself to accept His love.

I ask for all of your prayers as I continue this painful, yet ultimately rewarding journey.

DLT

 

[FallenShadow86]

I am so sorry for your loss. I will be praying for you, and for your son to return alive and well. God is with you both. God bless you.

 

[Mike_41786]

May the Lord comfort you and bring you to a new level with him. God knows, he always does and always will...

 

[crystalpc]

Mat 5:4][/size] Blessed [are] they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.

Bless your heart.
My heart goes out to you.
Father God continue to comfort and guide your child. In Jesus name amen.

 

[Salsa_1960]

Wow! That must be so hard not to be able to know. I would guess that part of you would have some hope that your son is still alive but another part of you would want to know if he had died so you could have some sort of closure. It sounds like you are handling this in the best way you know how. I'm glad that you have a faith in God. As hard as it is, it would be so much more difficult without His help.

I can't say that I know how you feel, because we all experience grief differently, but I do want to welcome you to our forum.

~Sandy

 

[caitlin]

I will keep you and your son in my prayers.

 

[GreenEyedLady]

DTL-
I am so glad that you decided to post here. I lost my little girl 18 months ago.
I would want to say that you should allow the flood gates to open and embrace your grief. It would be better to walk the jorney that you are on instead of trying to walk the other way. I am saying this because I think it would be a good thing for you. Get it out, let it out and know that the Lord Jesus is right there reaching for you. Remember, and ask yourself and God, What now Lord? Ask Him what He wants you to do now????????
My prayers are with you.
GEL

 

[DLT]

I'd like to express my heartfelt thanks to those who repsonded to my post. I welcome your prayers, and am greatly comforted by them. Since rededicating my life to Christ, I am strengthened by the certainty that I will see Bryan again in a much better place.

My deepest sympaties to GEL, who also has experienced the loss of a child. My prayers will be with you as well, dear lady, and I hope that the love of Christ will heal your pain.

DLT

 

[Yasha]

Just a little footprint to let you know I stopped in and lifted your heart to Jesus, for His glory and your peace.

 

[GreenEyedLady]

DLT-
I am so glad to hear you made the first step in the right direction for your grief and your walk with the Lord! I am telling you, He is right there with you right now as you are reading this. ITs funny, heaven was somthing that i heard about and that I thought about but now after losing Chey, heaven is a total reality way more than ever before.
GEL

 

[DLT]

DLT-
I am so glad to hear you made the first step in the right direction for your grief and your walk with the Lord! I am telling you, He is right there with you right now as you are reading this. ITs funny, heaven was somthing that i heard about and that I thought about but now after losing Chey, heaven is a total reality way more than ever before.
GEL

GEL,
I know what you mean when you talk about heaven. I recently lost a friend, who was witnessing the faith right up until the day he died. To this day, I cannot picture him as being dead. The Lord has convinced me that he is far more alive than I, and is in a far, far, better place.
DLT

 

[DLT]

Just a little footprint to let you know I stopped in and lifted your heart to Jesus, for His glory and your peace.

Thank you so much for your prayers. I feel blessed that you responded to my post.
DLT

 

[JMRE5150]

I am typing this with little or nothing to say...I'm speechless. I just want to say that I love you, even though I don't know you or your son. And I will pray for you and him.
I have 2 children of my own, and my heart just freezes in fear at the thought of losing either of them.
Just stay strong in Jesus, and one day you will see your lovely son again.

God Bless you, my friend.
Jesus loves you, and so do I...you have to continue to believe that.

 

[DLT]

I am typing this with little or nothing to say...I'm speechless. I just want to say that I love you, even though I don't know you or your son. And I will pray for you and him.
I have 2 children of my own, and my heart just freezes in fear at the thought of losing either of them.
Just stay strong in Jesus, and one day you will see your lovely son again.

God Bless you, my friend.
Jesus loves you, and so do I...you have to continue to believe that.

Thank you so much for the blessing. It's said that God gives no one more than they can bear, and my situation has sorely tested that claim. However, life on this earth goes on as we anticipate a better existence.
Thanks again,
DLT

 

[childofgrace]

Dear DLT:

May the Lord bless you as you continue on your journey towards healing and wholeness. I have never experienced what you have but I understand the love of a father.

Kirk

 

[GMRELIC]

On 12/28/2003 my handsome 15 year old son was tragicly killed, It has been very hard for me and his 13 year old sister I have been a single father to them since he was 2 years old and his sister was 6 months old, There is no way I could have made it thru this if i had not been a believer, I still mourn and still hurt but I know he is with God, It has only been 5 weeks ago, but sometimes it seems like a lifetime ago and sometimes it seems like yesterday, I will diffently keep you in my prayers DTL, I personally know what you are going thru. God Bless you

 

[DLT]

On 12/28/2003 my handsome 15 year old son was tragicly killed, It has been very hard for me and his 13 year old sister I have been a single father to them since he was 2 years old and his sister was 6 months old, There is no way I could have made it thru this if i had not been a believer, I still mourn and still hurt but I know he is with God, It has only been 5 weeks ago, but sometimes it seems like a lifetime ago and sometimes it seems like yesterday, I will diffently keep you in my prayers DTL, I personally know what you are going thru. God Bless you

May God bless you as well. I think the only way to get through something like this is to lay it upon the Lord, and trust that He will lessen the pain and the sense of loss. I believe that our sons are in a truly better place.
You are in my prayers.
DLT

 

[DLT]

Dear DLT:

May the Lord bless you as you continue on your journey towards healing and wholeness. I have never experienced what you have but I understand the love of a father.

Kirk

Kirk,
Thank you for your thoughts and prayers. The kindness of the Christian brotherhood and sisterhood is one of the best evidences of the true power and glory of our faith.
DLT

 

[Yasha]

Lifting your heart again in prayer, today. I pray you peace and rest in the Heart of Jesus. Amen

 

[garlik]

ultimately rewarding journey