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Dear Lord Father God, please bless this special sister with exactly the right friends to propel her into all the joy, peace, blessing, goodness that can be found only in you. In the name of our Lord and Savior. Amen. Psalms 68:6I've secretly been feeling this way for years. Not for a husband, but for Christian companionship, to be with like-kin rather than those that live a worldly lifestyle. I find it's far too easy to plunge back than lunge forward in my walk with God than with those that don't walk with Him.
Thank you everyone for the prayers.
I've secretly been feeling this way for years. Not for a husband, but for Christian companionship, to be with like-kin rather than those that live a worldly lifestyle. I find it's far too easy to plunge back than lunge forward in my walk with God than with those that don't walk with Him.
Good post swan, I can relate.
Last night I faced death (figuratively speaking), what I mean by that is I went to visit a friend at her request since she's back living in the city, and she's so in need of Jesus I can't tell you how much. Every sentence there are several "F" bombs and she has a drinking problem and a smoking problem.
Now, of all the history between her and I, we had been friends for years until something very bad happened and I pulled away from her for what I thought to be was for good. But then reading the Bible, He says to forgive one another or He will not forgive you. I thought that was fair and just, but years ago I thought to be condemned for hell because I could not see myself ever forgiving her for what she had done and keeps doing if it's not me, to others. So, I prayed and prayed and hoped God would soften my very hardened heart to be able to forgive not only her, but others that I held a grudge against that made me miserable as well. I wanted to be free so badly!
And I still do!
Living in this world is very difficult when trying to walk with God, obey him through respect and love...
Last night when I went to visit her, I was already offered SO much wine and the smell of pot all over her clothes and especially in her bedroom, where I kept my purse. Thankfully the rest of her house didn't smell like that and we spent most of our time outside, which helped. Last night her and I went to grab some firewood for a fire outside and put a bundle in the trunk. We went inside, she paid, and grabbed two bundles and put them in the trunk. She said she only paid for 2... so, in my mind, I was an accessory to stealing!
God was so much on my mind and reminding me constantly not to fall backwards (back in the worldly life I used to live for years). This was a lesson I clearly failed! My ever ongoing question to Him is "how do I live the way You want me to in this world for the way it is?" I've repented of my sins and failure. This is not easy.
I really need true Christian friends in my life. I need spiritual help. I've tried the whole online thing looking for such friends, but every time someone says they're Christian, they aren't. At all. What I mean by that is they are not living for God, but for this world...
