Life is so Boring...

[My King and Lord]

For some, that kind of life would be considered a blessing. I wish the Lord had seen fit to make my life boring. You are fortunate to have the life you currently live. Be careful what you wish for.

I don't think you understand. Life is like a prison for me. I don't have any social interactions, I never realy enjoyed my life with actual friends. I went to some places with my family and while it was different, I want some loyal friends to be with. All I pretty much do is wake up, go to school, go home, maybe go on the same walk, and stay in my room. College is coming up soon and I do not see what will change. I am very bad with talking and interacting with other people. School is gonna end soon anyway, so I can't even do something after school like join an art class or anything I really like to do. Infact I never truly had friends I've been with. I wasted my childhood on nothing and I don't expect my young adult years to be any different. What even makes it worse is I can't do anything Christian. No church, no talking about this, nothing. Christianity is something I talk about with people I really know and trust. I wish I lived somewhere more urban, atleast I can go new places and meet more people.

 

[My King and Lord]

I think there is a website called persecution.org where you can donate money to help the persecuted Christians. If you want to help them it’s something.

I checked out the site and found this story Kenyan Schoolboy Rekindled Dreams After Losing Father to al-Shabaab | Persecution Honestly it made me cry. It made me think about myself. I care, obey, and appreciate my parents, but I don't really love them. They can be here one day and gone the next and I wouldn't care all that much. I feel so bad too, they love me and think I am a devout muslim. I remember my dads best friend past away and everyone cry except me. I really experienced love and tears when learning about The Christ's life and sacrifice. I spent entire days just crying so much about it. It felt amazing, knowing what true love feels like. My family comes from very religious muslim family. When I was younger, they wouldn't even let me go near the Bible. A few weeks ago I almost got caught with one and I truly believed the Lord saved me in that situation. If that was any other book, I would have been caught. However I felt like a liar and so bad since I had to make up the worst lies so I wouldn't know what would happen to me. If I ever tell my family I am christian, they would hate me forever, even if I try to show them why. If I ever do that, which would probably be never, it would be years down the line. Infact I feel scared all the time posting on this forum because I feel like someone will catch me. They love me and think i am a good son, but I feel bad knowing I have to hide all my christian stuff from them. And the school thing made me reflect also. I do good in school and get good grades and I am in some advanced classes, but I don't try my best. I can do better. Sometimes when the teacher calls on me I just stare blankly at tem for whatever reason. No one in my classes wants to help me, so I am stuck on work by myself with no one to help me out. Exams are coming soon and I do not know what to do. Sometimes I just feel like a loser, a heartless person with no friends or social activity. Just a quiet, unknown loner.

 

[timewerx]

Honestly what am I gonna gain by working some job I hate? Earn some money, I don't care about money that much. I had a job before and while it was kind of enjoyable I can't imagine doing that for years.

Unfortunately for most of us, this is the only option we have.

Nothing else we can do other than imagine we're a super double spy working undercover doing a job most people hate.

For me, helping others who are in a worse position is the best job in life. I try to help the less fortunate even now, it's not much, but it's something.

Unfortunately, you need money to get anything done in this evil world. To have regular source of money, you either get a job or put up your own business.

Finally, look at the bright side of life...I can assure you there are lots of people who are worse off than you do. Let's count our blessings!


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[My King and Lord]

WOW, I knew Albania was more Muslim than Christian, but I didn't realize that there was that much overt persecution against Christians there

--David
p.s. - BTW, I know of at least one well-known Albanian Christian (at least, I'm pretty sure Mother Teresa hails from Albania, yes?).

I am not actually from Albania. I don't wanna put my location, but I am an immigrant that live in a westeen nation. It is mostly atheist though and I prefer eastern denominations more. I wanna keep this account very secret. If I could put no nation, I would do that. People in Albania really don't care about religion.

 

[Joined2krist]

Possibly, but I really don't want to know what would happen to me. This forum and a loyal christian person I know is the only places I actually openly talk about Christianity.

Possibly, but I really don't want to know what would happen to me. This forum and a loyal christian person I know is the only places I actually openly talk about Christianity.

This means you're in a society where Christianity isn't popular or accepted.I reckon they'll be other Christians like you who are going through the same feelings and experience, is there a way you all can form a small believer's group and meet up often?

 

[bèlla]

I think we respond to aloneness in different ways. I have a lot of time alone and live with an adult daughter. She's gone most of the day. I have long periods of silence and appreciate the quiet. I've lived this way since my mid-30's and couldn't fathom the daily rigors and bustle of life. But the Lord brought me home for a purpose and entrepreneurship is a solitary path. I'm at peace because it's where I belong.

There was a period when I lived as you do and had no one to talk to save relatives. It was like that for several years. But I filled the time and space with God and that made a difference. I sought His face and placed my burdens in His lap. He was my lone company for the longest time. The fellowship and faith I gained through that experience has held me in great stead. I trust Him completely.

I once had a wide group of friends and my phone rang from 7 AM until midnight. But I didn't have God and that absence was a glaring hole which drove me to Home. We all have fat and lean times and my season of lack prepared me for the plenty to come.

I have learned grace at the feet of my Savior. I will be a better friend, companion, mother, and servant as a result. My loss is their gain. Prayer was a soothing balm. When sadness or loneliness reared its head I prayed. I kept flooding Him with prayer until the day arrived when I no longer felt alone. His nearness enveloped me.

It is helpful to look at our seasons in their rightful guise. I would take my concerns to Him and speak honestly. Acknowledging your concerns is helpful. You cast your care where it belongs. I would also ask for divine appointments. My encounters provided an opportunity for God-ordained sharing and we were both blessed by the discussions.

Things are different now. My responsibilities don't afford me the time in prayer or impromptu discussions I had with passerby's. I don't spend my day talking to the Lord as I once did. Life is exciting and I have many things I'm working towards.

But am I better? Am I more fulfilled? In some ways I am. In others, not so much. Today, I must make time for Him. And in the past, I had all the time in the world.

May God grant you the solace and companionship you seek in His measure and season.

 

[derpytia]

I don't think you understand. Life is like a prison for me. I don't have any social interactions, I never realy enjoyed my life with actual friends. I went to some places with my family and while it was different, I want some loyal friends to be with. All I pretty much do is wake up, go to school, go home, maybe go on the same walk, and stay in my room. College is coming up soon and I do not see what will change. I am very bad with talking and interacting with other people. School is gonna end soon anyway, so I can't even do something after school like join an art class or anything I really like to do. Infact I never truly had friends I've been with. I wasted my childhood on nothing and I don't expect my young adult years to be any different. What even makes it worse is I can't do anything Christian. No church, no talking about this, nothing. Christianity is something I talk about with people I really know and trust. I wish I lived somewhere more urban, atleast I can go new places and meet more people.

My life is also a prison but of a different kind.

Can you go to sleep with relative ease each night? Can you eat and drink pretty much whatever you like without major consequences to the functionality of your body? Can you, if you got the opportunity, go out to an amusement park or an art show? Can you drive a car without the noise of it threatening to put you on your back? Can you walk around and talk without any general agony in any part of your body? Can you attend school without worrying about how long it will be until your body gives out on you? Can you get out of bed each day and do things that need to be done without worrying about if you have enough energy to do them? Can you play video games and listen to music without it making you ill or exacerbating your health issues?

Let me say that I would love to have your life, friend.

I understand the loneliness. I feel it as well. But take a look around you and consider yourself incredibly blessed by the Lord to have the life you have currently. There are so many Christians, young and old, that pray to God to someday have the life that you currently lead. You never never know when something could happen to change it and not necessarily for the better.

I'm not saying this to chastise you but to try to get you to look at this from a different perspective, one that is not your own, for a bit.

As for college, my advice as a college grad (I didn't graduate that long ago either) is to attend as many college activities, meetings, clubs as you can. Many college offer free ones (and sometimes they have free food, which is always a plus). You don't have to make the first contact when it comes to talking to people but your presence and participation at these activities make cause someone to make the first contact with you. Also, most colleges have a Christian club or group of some sort. That might be a good place to start.

 

[sea5763]

nvm

 

[Daniel C]

Let me just tell you that life has been boring for me for the longest time. Everyday it's same cycle. I have almost no friends, no social activity, no interaction, nothing. I walk and help out the community, but that gets boring too. I try to get into new hobbies, like art, and while I did teach myself some pretty good art, that get boring too. The only reason why I know so much about history, geography, and religions so much is because I needed something to do. In fact my repetitive life and curiosity is what brought me into Christianity, instead of being in it 10 or so years later. The evidence, historical accuracy, connection, it was honestly so surprising. I live in a small village, so I can't go anywhere. I can't even go to church as I am a convert and if anyone finds out, I'm over with. Plus there are no churches near by too. Everyone else I know has friends, does stuff, go on trips, and have a lot more fun with life. In fact there was recently an art trip and I didn't go. I really wished I went, especially since I am getting into art. I actually never been on a trip like that before. All I know is my little areas I walk to. I regret not going so much, it was the last one for the year and my only chance of actually meeting people and making friends. I really couldn't care about the museum that much, I just wanna make friends and do fun stuff outside with other people I share similarities with. My life has been the same thing for over 10 years now. The only fun thing I really enjoy is dreaming, I really hope heaven is like dreaming. I am going to go to college in about a year or two and I don't expect life to be all that different. I know Jesus went through a lot, but to be honest I don't think he ever experienced the same repetitive boredom as me. He was rejected by everyone, hated and experienced so much, but he traveled across Judea and at least had his disciples. Although they were very doubtful and not the most loyal. I only look to the past and future, The past because I have some, not fun, but memories of being a spectator in what my siblings did. Before they went to college and all of that. The future because there is something that awaits me. Hagia Sophia and The Holy Sepulchre. But that is a long way from now. Maybe about 3-4 years at the minimum. It is a very long time and I honestly don't want to keep being in this cycle during that time.

Below is one of my art. I do mostly stuff I am interested in. I do on both paper and computer.
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I'm tired now but this is a compelling story so I want to respond tonight to a fellow Christian and check back tomorrow.

You and I seem to be experiencing some common things. I regularly get bored and my days are repetitive and I don't have that much interaction with others, but the lack of interaction with others doesn't actually bother me. I don't go to church, I would like to but I'm in a small town where the locals are more interested in drinking beer than Christ. Pathetic!

If you're looking for immediate company the first thing that comes to mind is fortnite. Loads of young guys on that just to talk with and have a bit of fun for a while to break the day up.

I have to remind you that a Christian is not allowed to deny Christ. Whoever denies christ will be denied before the father. Sorry to drop that in there but we must not let ourselves be bullied or pushed around by non believers so hiding your faith is not a good idea.If you fear for your safety, consider moving to a country and (legally) buying a gun.


Talk more soon.

 

[My King and Lord]

I feel like a loser too. I don’t think you’re heartless I think you’re in pain and emotionally distancing from your family because you’re concerned about what will happen if they find out your Christian. Honestly I feel so bad for people like yourself that are born into a Muslim family and then find Christ. It’s the best thing that could possibly happen for them to find Christ and salvation but the suffering that comes with it makes me sad for them. I like to tell myself I’d do the same if I was born into the same situation but I’m not sure I would because I’m a coward and have never been truly tested. It’s a situation where you can truly live for Christ through suffering and gain much more glory and gifts probably in Heaven but it takes a person of amazing strength and character to suffer through that. I admire that and look up to it I’ll probably never come anywhere close to that though.

I try to think of it more positive though. I mentioned to someone else before that I am from western nation that is pretty atheist(I am not actually from Albania, they don't even care about religion anyway), and apart from my family and other muslims I don't think people will care that much years later on in life. I could have been a muslim to christian person in Iran, Pakistan, Egypt, Gulf Nations, Indonesia among many others. I believe I would have converted if I was there, probably not at my age, or maybe only the Lord knows. In those nations apostasy is something huge and could even result in death. People in western nation for some reason become atheist, they do not know how lucky they are. I even could have been some turk in anatolia in the 15th century or an andalusian muslim in the 12th century who would have never heard of the gospels. Also I am fortunate enough to have an online bible, I much prefer a physical one, but it gives me hope. I finish the New Testament in about a month and I am reading it again, it's so I don't know, just special. Many people in the world never read the bible, they never saw the amount of evidence behind Christianity. I truly believed that I am blessed and the Holy Spirit has guided me to the light in this sinful dark world.

 

[MartyF]

Let me just tell you that life has been boring for me for the longest time. Everyday it's same cycle. I have almost no friends, no social activity, no interaction, nothing. I walk and help out the community, but that gets boring too. I try to get into new hobbies, like art, and while I did teach myself some pretty good art, that get boring too. The only reason why I know so much about history, geography, and religions so much is because I needed something to do. In fact my repetitive life and curiosity is what brought me into Christianity, instead of being in it 10 or so years later. The evidence, historical accuracy, connection, it was honestly so surprising. I live in a small village, so I can't go anywhere. I can't even go to church as I am a convert and if anyone finds out, I'm over with. Plus there are no churches near by too. Everyone else I know has friends, does stuff, go on trips, and have a lot more fun with life. In fact there was recently an art trip and I didn't go. I really wished I went, especially since I am getting into art. I actually never been on a trip like that before. All I know is my little areas I walk to. I regret not going so much, it was the last one for the year and my only chance of actually meeting people and making friends. I really couldn't care about the museum that much, I just wanna make friends and do fun stuff outside with other people I share similarities with. My life has been the same thing for over 10 years now. The only fun thing I really enjoy is dreaming, I really hope heaven is like dreaming. I am going to go to college in about a year or two and I don't expect life to be all that different. I know Jesus went through a lot, but to be honest I don't think he ever experienced the same repetitive boredom as me. He was rejected by everyone, hated and experienced so much, but he traveled across Judea and at least had his disciples. Although they were very doubtful and not the most loyal. I only look to the past and future, The past because I have some, not fun, but memories of being a spectator in what my siblings did. Before they went to college and all of that. The future because there is something that awaits me. Hagia Sophia and The Holy Sepulchre. But that is a long way from now. Maybe about 3-4 years at the minimum. It is a very long time and I honestly don't want to keep being in this cycle during that time.

Below is one of my art. I do mostly stuff I am interested in. I do on both paper and computer.
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Do something hard.

Start a business.

Run for political office.

Anything, you don't think you can do. Try it.

If you want a life which isn't "boring", you'll have to push yourself or place yourself in a challenging position.

Just sitting around doing mediocre things will lead to a mediocre and boring life.

 

[My King and Lord]

Do something hard.

Start a business.

Run for political office.

Anything, you don't think you can do. Try it.

If you want a life which isn't "boring", you'll have to push yourself or place yourself in a challenging position.

Just sitting around doing mediocre things will lead to a mediocre and boring life.

Sometimes I wonder if some of these people here read my entire threads and not just the title. I am not old enough yet to do that. I could have went on that art trip though, but I didn't and I really regret not going, like a lot. I never went on a far away trip with people my age. Plus it was a good amount of nice students who went. Not to little not to large. But thats in the past now and there are no more trips for me to go to. I volunteer, but I do the same things over and over again. The people at the park and library are double or more my age and they're always busy. So I can't even talk with people to the only place I go. I wish I was a bit older. Maybe I could then go to Hagia Sophia. One of the best former Cathedrals in the world. I don't mind it being a museum, it'll be cool seeing the Islamic stuff with the Christian stuff. Especially since I was previously muslim.

 

[bèlla]

Sometimes I wonder if some of these people here read my entire threads and not just the title.

Oftentimes people read a question through personal experience and neglect to address the topic or question that's asked. It may be difficult for some to grasp your situation because time is not a luxury for most. They don't have the opportunity to be bored on a daily basis. Responsibilities and challenges occupy their thoughts. But that isn't true for everyone.

I'm in my late forties. I have more in common with millennials than Christian's my age. Most are married with families or desiring the same. I've never been married but I've raised a child. That season is behind me. I've had the span of my day at my dispense since 35. Self-employment has expanded my thinking in and I've found peace in my solitude.

Time is a commodity and I have the privilege of directing its flow. I've begun to recognize the various privileges God has bestowed and it's helping me to see my life through different lenses. I'm discovering ways I can utilize time for my betterment and His glory. Possibilities that go beyond the ones I've devised. I've decided to develop fluency in several languages and become adept at art. I'm adding two years to my time overseas for exploration and the joy of residing in another culture.

In short, I'm finding contentment where I am. And I don't want to be five years ahead. I want the here and now. Lest I miss the lessons I'm meant to learn by stretching my neck too far. My quasi millennial reality is a source of joy and I wouldn't change a thing. Not one iota.

So add the Hagia Sofia to your to do list. Check out Facebook groups for kindred spirits. There are many art aficionados on the site. Nurture your creativity or an interest that requires time and focus. You'll be surprised how often that it cross your thoughts when time is fleeting.

Today I'm decluttering. I undertook a cleaning project at the start of Lent and its winding down. I'm setting up a nook for sewing projects. I have five stretched canvases waiting to be covered in linen fabric and turned into vision boards. A stack of books await my perusal for seasoning canning projects. I have time for the little things now. Pretty pleasantries and the extras I'd have to forgo and cram into a weekend. I can pursue them when I want.

I no longer seek companions. But I appreciate the similarities I encounter from fellow entrepreneurs, nomadic travelers, and the unexpected surprises God brings my way. Whether it's an impromptu discussion at Whole Foods or the discourse we're sharing this moment. All is grace. I could be sitting in an office buried in work but I have the pleasure of reading your post.

And that's a blessing.

 

[-Luca]

Do something hard.

Start a business.

Run for political office.

Anything, you don't think you can do. Try it.

If you want a life which isn't "boring", you'll have to push yourself or place yourself in a challenging position.

Just sitting around doing mediocre things will lead to a mediocre and boring life.

Thank you for this, it is incredibly useful. Reminds me of something that my dad would say, which is typically along the lines of "Work hard and it will pay off". It has reminded me of why I put in a lot of effort in school and other activities.