Im not new to religion, I was raised under catholisism so I know the bible. I know what it expects from us and I agree with the moral code it outlines. However, when I pray I feel nothing. People always tell me god reaches out in different ways for different people but I have never felt his presence. I can admit I am not as open minded as I once was but I know I never truely believed, I cooporated through fear of an everlasting death in hell. I know that I will not find god by fearing him but I would appreciate any help. I would like to point out again I was always an active church member in my youth and I was very good at interpreting the bible but my main issue is never truley finding anything spiritual in it. only guidelines to be a good person. I have a theory that maybe jesus was merely ahead of his time intelligence wise, with the rise of an autocracy I can see why someone would want to draw the minds of the civilians to an untouchable throne. where there would be rule by love and not force. basically im looking for someone whos had this problem and found a way through it because doubt will always be there for me unless I find answers.