just sad

[babyallison]

i dont feel like i deserve any of it anymore to be happy, to get married and be happy, to have a better life, to have something get better ,i just dont know what to do i want help i need to get better ,i love my baby and i want to be happy when shes here i dont want to be like this when she is born, Im so sorry, i wish i could just get better

 

[NewSong]

i dont feel like i deserve any of it anymore to be happy, to get married and be happy, to have a better life, to have something get better ,i just dont know what to do i want help i need to get better ,i love my baby and i want to be happy when shes here i dont want to be like this when she is born, Im so sorry, i wish i could just get better

Can you just put your eyes on God and turn your mistakes and life over to HIM and then let God through the counsel of perhaps your pastor, your Chrisitan leaders help you through this?

For me, it was totally personal...I ran and got my Bible because I knew I wouldn't make it if God didn't see me through. Start reading His word. I always loved to read Romans, Psalms, John etc--find a version that will help you the most.

Also, one of the things I done the most was I hung to verses that gave me strength that I believed God wanted personally for my child and me and I made sure they were never far from my sight.

Hon, you can do it. God can see you through this all the way. I remember feeling so like you did. Is there a support system in your life somewhere ? Christian's?

Just start telling God what you are sharing here and see what happens. Just talk to Him and share with Him and watch and see His love and His love for your unborn child.

 

[NewSong]

 

[baby030306]

it will be ok some day?

 

[EbonNelumbo]

Yes, it will be okay someday. Eventually things change but the problem that we face as Christians is understanding why we must go so long without seemingly any change. It is for the better. From our conversations you might understand why I went through some things, to help you and others, so that you might do the same, and so on and so forth.

 

[skipper]

As you work out one problem at a time things will not feel like they are crusing you its like a recovery program one day at a time and lean on God he will bring you through it.

 

[babyallison]

well I feel a little better today

 

[NewSong]

well I feel a little better today

Thank you for the update. Bless you for keeping us posted.

 

[Butterfly2005]

I know somewhat of how you feel. God's grace IS sufficient. God does forgive and there is a man out there that God has for you. Just be patient, things may be bad now but it will get better. It may take time but it will.

 

[babyallison]

thanks for the advise I just hope things get better soon

 

[babyallison]

I can not stand that ALL my mom and her husband do is hang ALL over each other and kiss as !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! LOUD !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! as they can. and me, my brother and sister have told them 100,000,000,000,000,000 times that we dont think its appropriate for them to be doing that and to please keep it in the bedroom the reason why i hate it so much is because I was sexually abused my whole life then I finally get out of it then my mom meets him and then he comes and moves in with us after them being together for only 2-3 months then one night me and a friend were in my room laughing and talking with the door wide open with them in the living room about 10 feet away from the bedroom door and we hear them having sex and this is the second time ive heard my mom have sex with some one. Ive tried to get over it but i can't.

 

[skipper]

Well thats a bad situation to be in, if you can't talk to your mom maybe another relative could do it for you what about an aunt, uncle or grandparent. That is inappropriate behavior for younger people to be seeing and hearing. Are your siblings younger than you

 

[trinitygrace]

babyallison,

I cannot imagine what you are going through right now. I know you have the strength to get through this situation. Please remember God will be with you. Please keep us updated on your situation. You are in my prayers and I have faith that you will rise above your problems and surprise everybody, most especially yourself, because Jesus is in you.

God Bless,

TrinityGrace

 

[babyallison]

yes skipper they are younger then me one is 8 years younger then me,

yes trinity grace God is with me but that doesnt stop them doing what they are doing and i really dont want to bring my newborn into all of this when she is born. i think the only way to rise above it is to move out and i really dont see that happening soon

 

[babyallison]

Its all building up Im so angry all the time when im here. I cant stand it

 

[babyallison]

I give up

 

[roamincatholicgirl]

Im just really sad alot because I have been dealing with alot lately and its just all really hardto deal with my mom just got married to someone that hates me and is always picking fights with me, im pregnant, not married and dont have a permanent home who know which house ill be at tomorrow. I cant seem to find a good church, dont have a license or a job or even my high school diploma. I feel lost and angry all the time and people in my family just seem to not care. I hate complaining but i am just so tired of everything oh and i have no friends near me because they all moved and my babies daddy left me for someone else sorry if i sound like a whinny complaining person because thats not what im trying to be and i know alot of people will prolly think i brought it on myself well i already feel like i am the reason for all of it and that just makes me feel worse i dont like myself and i feel like everyone feels the same way or maybe worse i dont know what to do. im sorry

I am SO sorry that you aren't being supported by your family right now. You don't sound whiny at all, you sound like a girl who is feeling a little lost. I think the #1 thing you need to do is to find a good church. Also check out http://www.gabrielproject.com/ They will help you take care of your baby. We are all here for you and I'm praying!

 

[ForeverSeekingLight]

Hi,
I am also 18 and if you ever need someone to talk to, feel free to private message me. I can also give you my email address if you would like. I would love to talk to you!
Its tough being this age and I can only imagine what its like dealing with what you are. Just know that people do care (like me).
Btw, when are you due? I am guessing it is a girl by your name? Congrats! Im sure youll be an awesome mommy!
As I said, feel free to message me. Id love to talk. I spend a ton of time with children, espcially babies so I know what it is like.
Praying for you,
Becky

 

[trinitygrace]

babyallison,

I'm so sorry to hear that you were abused and went through an unnecessarily rough life. But you have to remember, with God, it doesn't matter what challeges and trials that are thrown our way - it's how we respond to them. No matter how bad it gets, please know you have a choice about how you are going to react to it. And I pray that you will respond with God on your side. Keep praying, reading the word. Do you read the bible often? I try to read everyday on a reading plan but I do slack sometimes. Get connected with other members of your family, like aunts, cousins, grandparents. I'm sure somebody will help you out. If you can't find support from your family, check out some local agencies that specializing in helping pregnant women in need. Please do not feel ashamed to apply for this help, because you are in a tough situation and you need to think of what will be best for your baby girl. So I pray that you get all the help that you need. Don't give up, babyallison, your baby girl is on her way and she needs you. You are going to be a great mom, I can tell! If you need to talk, pm me anytime.
I hope I didn't sound too preachy. I'm just giving you some feedback of what I would do if I were in your situation. Always praying, TG

 

[Nathan55]

I think it is time you and your siblings have an intervention with your mother and her husband. Just sit them down and tell them how it is. How you can hear whats going on between the two of them and how it makes you feel. I just urge you do this in a calm peaceful manner, and prey for better times.

PM me if you need to chat, and may His grace be with you

Nathan55