Lol, I hear you. Here's how I figured out Christianity. There are folks who go to church, and that's as far as it goes. They may have beliefs, but their lives often don't look too different from anyone else's.
Then there are those who know and follow Christ. Somehow, somewhere, He made a huge difference in their lives, and now everything's different. The same, but different.
I drifted for years all over. Never wanted Christ to be the answer. Long story short, now He's my Messiah and King. I used to laugh at Christians and think they were idiots. Seriously. How could they limit God as they did when there was so much beauty and truth in other religions? Poor things! How blind they were!
I get it now. But it took my own journey and lots of seeking and asking and reading to get there. You got your own journey, and there's a God who's got your back, and who loves you, and who is capable of getting you on the right track.