my day was goin so well, I was happy...it was almost perfect, just almost...then everything fell down like a crashing wave upon my heart and soul...
...I just want to break down and cry for years...hide away where no one can find me, and never come back....but I guess that probably won't happen...I can't take it...right now I just want to revert to my s.i. but then again I don't want to cause it will totally ruin everything I have accomplished..but right now I just I dunno....I don't really care 

I dunno...I'll stop ramblin now....*breaks down and cries*

I know that it is hard and that you feel out of control, I wish I could take it for you, but these are things that we must endure! You can get through it, it takes will power and determination...and crying is not a bad thing. It can be really good for you, so feel free to cry your eyes out.
but when you need that ear it will be here....