I had a real great week. 
I got to spend it with a friend and her family that I ment from the forums.
She's become like a sister. 
I was excited to come home even though where I'm at isn't my home. I've done pretty good with my ED until today. Well I take it back didn't eat enough this whole last week. I ate today and my stomach hurt so bad. So I asked my roommate to go for a walk. I was trying not to get rid of dinner. Along the way I said something as a joke about a car passing by. She told me that what I said was rude and that I say things like that alot. I took that pretty hard. So of course I came home and got rid of it. You know people do alot every day that offend or hurt me. But I never say anything about it. I just take it. I figure if I were to say something about what someone did I would hurt them. So I don't. It's weird when you work so hard not to hurt or offend some one or any one that you do just that. So I guess today I failed maybe tomorrow will be better.
It's hard not to take offences ecspeacially when your not strong enough to tell people that they have hurt you to.
I got to spend it with a friend and her family that I ment from the forums. She's become like a sister. I was excited to come home even though where I'm at isn't my home. I've done pretty good with my ED until today. Well I take it back didn't eat enough this whole last week. I ate today and my stomach hurt so bad. So I asked my roommate to go for a walk. I was trying not to get rid of dinner. Along the way I said something as a joke about a car passing by. She told me that what I said was rude and that I say things like that alot. I took that pretty hard. So of course I came home and got rid of it. You know people do alot every day that offend or hurt me. But I never say anything about it. I just take it. I figure if I were to say something about what someone did I would hurt them. So I don't. It's weird when you work so hard not to hurt or offend some one or any one that you do just that. So I guess today I failed maybe tomorrow will be better. It's hard not to take offences ecspeacially when your not strong enough to tell people that they have hurt you to.
i'm sorry about what happened. for me because i'm bipolar; things like this move my feelings and moods around. i feel pushed around by them. meds help. so does spiritual growth. when i feel pushed around by my feelings/moods... i just do my best to work through it. 
super stud.
i really don't understand a whole lot about eating disorder's, but i do understand a bit about failure. If u r kinda like me and feel like u can't do anything right sometimes; then u can try what i figured out!... remember that u r your own worst judge and all the 'flaws' that u c in yourself aren't seen by other people! Like i said i don't know alot about eating disorder's but i can tell it's a fight for u and if i were u i would just keep fighting it but don't fight yourself, fight it! well i hope u can come and c us again soon!!! ONLY SO I CAN HIT U BACK! cuz u hit me twice!!! (lol!) i'll c ya later-alligator!
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