just a question..who can answer it?

[girlonfire]

hi..
uhm, i just signed up....reccommended from a friend. i was christened as an infant, but was not raised in a house that supported religion all too much. I have had some not-so-pleasant experiences throughout my adolescent life with friends trying to convert me, save me....and just drag me to "their" church. I have read the bible, in college..on my own free will, just to see what it was all about. Honestly, i don't recall much of it. Anyway, my question is this.....
I have been increasingly interested in what "god" is, what christianity is all about.......it is a theme that keeps recurring and being brought into my life.....enough so that it sticks out and i have noticed!! The thing is, everytime i talkto someone about it, or think i might just venture out on my own into an arena i know pretty much nothing about, i get shaky....visibally shaky! i have been known to break down and cry..for really no apparent reason.......i would like to know why this happens. I have to be honest, and say that it kinda freaks me out, so what i end up doing is just avoiding the entire subject matter all together. And that is basically what i have done for years......But, like i mentioned earlier, this religious thing keeps showing up in my life!! EVERYWHERE! and the frequency at which it shows up is getting closer and closer together.

anyone out there who can explain this situation to me?
thankyou!
girl on fire.

 

[AbidingInHim]

I would like to recommend to you a very good book by CS LEwis called mere Christianity

He struggled with this question for decades and come to the conclusions written in this book, he was a devout atheist for years before he exhausted all his arguments and conceded that Jesus was Lord

I'm not sure what kind of answer you are looking for here....Do you understand the concept of salvation?

do you understand how we are sinful and cannot be in the presence of a HOLY and JUST God when we are unclean and are in need af atonement for our sins.


Jesus was that atonement when He died in our stead on the cross,

The hope came in HIs resurection, when he made the way for us

we we submit ourselves to His will and ask to be forgiven of our sins we are the heart change is there with the repentence a turning from an old sinful life toward Jesus's will for us we are indwelt the the HOLY Spirit and have an amazing love andpeace that is truely beyond understanding

it's like a legal matter where if I give you a gift of my are, but you never come to my house and pick it up , you haven't recieved my gift and it doesn't belong to you because you didn't take it

Jesus gave youthe gift of forgiveness, all you do is accept it and His will believing that He will know what's best for you and submit yourself to His commands and will for your life

God Bless
Roxanna

 

[ephraimanesti]

hi..
uhm, i just signed up....reccommended from a friend. i was christened as an infant, but was not raised in a house that supported religion all too much. I have had some not-so-pleasant experiences throughout my adolescent life with friends trying to convert me, save me....and just drag me to "their" church. I have read the bible, in college..on my own free will, just to see what it was all about. Honestly, i don't recall much of it. Anyway, my question is this.....
I have been increasingly interested in what "god" is, what christianity is all about.......it is a theme that keeps recurring and being brought into my life.....enough so that it sticks out and i have noticed!! The thing is, everytime i talkto someone about it, or think i might just venture out on my own into an arena i know pretty much nothing about, i get shaky....visibally shaky! i have been known to break down and cry..for really no apparent reason.......i would like to know why this happens. I have to be honest, and say that it kinda freaks me out, so what i end up doing is just avoiding the entire subject matter all together. And that is basically what i have done for years......But, like i mentioned earlier, this religious thing keeps showing up in my life!! EVERYWHERE! and the frequency at which it shows up is getting closer and closer together.

anyone out there who can explain this situation to me?
thankyou!
girl on fire.

DEAR FRIEND,

God is very seriously trying to get your attention. i would suggest that you spend some quiet time in prayer and ask Him what He wants.
(The answer, of course, is you.)

MAY YOU BE BLESSED,
ephraim

 

[TexasGirl06]

hi..
uhm, i just signed up....reccommended from a friend. i was christened as an infant, but was not raised in a house that supported religion all too much. I have had some not-so-pleasant experiences throughout my adolescent life with friends trying to convert me, save me....and just drag me to "their" church. I have read the bible, in college..on my own free will, just to see what it was all about. Honestly, i don't recall much of it. Anyway, my question is this.....
I have been increasingly interested in what "god" is, what christianity is all about.......it is a theme that keeps recurring and being brought into my life.....enough so that it sticks out and i have noticed!! The thing is, everytime i talkto someone about it, or think i might just venture out on my own into an arena i know pretty much nothing about, i get shaky....visibally shaky! i have been known to break down and cry..for really no apparent reason.......i would like to know why this happens. I have to be honest, and say that it kinda freaks me out, so what i end up doing is just avoiding the entire subject matter all together. And that is basically what i have done for years......But, like i mentioned earlier, this religious thing keeps showing up in my life!! EVERYWHERE! and the frequency at which it shows up is getting closer and closer together.

anyone out there who can explain this situation to me?
thankyou!
girl on fire.

Hmmmm..... sounds like you might have some unfinished (or unstarted) business with the One who created you.

My recommendation: Get alone with Him.
Bring a Bible. For a few hours....or a whole day.
In the woods...in the country....someplace where there are no people.

It is always a scary & unknown time...when God calls and we are walking to the door to answer the knock at the door.

All kids of stuff will surface.
Emotions, pain, joy, doubts, interest ......all scary stuff.

Is it huge?
You bet.

Without knowing you....
I can tell you something about you. You and God.

He loves you very much.
He loves you so much, that He died for you.
Check it out.
Take a look in the book of John.

I was baptised as a newborn baby, too.
I was then baptised many, many, many years later...when I accpeted Jesus as my Lord and chose to be baptised as an act of obedience.

I'm here if you need me.
Be Blessed.

PS. Welcome to Christian Forums.
It's good to have you here....

 

[pistachio]

I think you have a lot of memories that need recognition. Sadness, people not listening to you, damage done, internal conflicts about God...

That shaking used to happen whenever I went to the doctor's office, after going through something traumatic. I was too stoic in normal life, and able to move on, but combining the trigger of familiar surroundings with a kind listening ear, I would always beunable to control the outburst of tears.

This also happened when I started attended a Spirit-filled church. Then, it felt as though God was working therapy in me as I sat. Every week, I would cry over nothing.

I think it's okay to just let it happen, and get through some of it. If you don't want to be in the position of neediness with your friends, then keep talking to people here, and journalling, and praying on your own. Listen to teachings on the radio.

I think this will work its way out gradually. It's not a bad thing, just very embarrassing. And it subjects you to people condescending. But if your body is crying, it's building up toxins that need to be flushed out.

 

[Im_A]

hi..
uhm, i just signed up....reccommended from a friend. i was christened as an infant, but was not raised in a house that supported religion all too much. I have had some not-so-pleasant experiences throughout my adolescent life with friends trying to convert me, save me....and just drag me to "their" church. I have read the bible, in college..on my own free will, just to see what it was all about. Honestly, i don't recall much of it. Anyway, my question is this.....
I have been increasingly interested in what "god" is, what christianity is all about.......it is a theme that keeps recurring and being brought into my life.....enough so that it sticks out and i have noticed!! The thing is, everytime i talkto someone about it, or think i might just venture out on my own into an arena i know pretty much nothing about, i get shaky....visibally shaky! i have been known to break down and cry..for really no apparent reason.......i would like to know why this happens. I have to be honest, and say that it kinda freaks me out, so what i end up doing is just avoiding the entire subject matter all together. And that is basically what i have done for years......But, like i mentioned earlier, this religious thing keeps showing up in my life!! EVERYWHERE! and the frequency at which it shows up is getting closer and closer together.

anyone out there who can explain this situation to me?
thankyou!
girl on fire.

do you think it could be, because your working out your salvation?

do you think it could be because it is conflicting with how you were raised? i mean you mentioned that your raising wasn't brought up in any kind of religion, and if you live here in the USA, Christianity is seen everywhere, so maybe that christening has produced a desire, no matter where your at now, to work out your salvation?

the nerves can get all shaky at times with stuff like this. it brings out emotions, the nerves of acknowledging that we have to seek things out, by ourselves, alone, even if we find a community of believers we are still left with God and ourselves alone to work out our salvation, especially when it is something so important to someone.

or do you think i'm off base here? (you know yourself better than what i know of you )

 

[Calminian]

hi..
uhm, i just signed up....reccommended from a friend. i was christened as an infant, but was not raised in a house that supported religion all too much. I have had some not-so-pleasant experiences throughout my adolescent life with friends trying to convert me, save me....and just drag me to "their" church. I have read the bible, in college..on my own free will, just to see what it was all about. Honestly, i don't recall much of it. Anyway, my question is this.....
I have been increasingly interested in what "god" is, what christianity is all about.......it is a theme that keeps recurring and being brought into my life.....enough so that it sticks out and i have noticed!! The thing is, everytime i talkto someone about it, or think i might just venture out on my own into an arena i know pretty much nothing about, i get shaky....visibally shaky! i have been known to break down and cry..for really no apparent reason.......i would like to know why this happens. I have to be honest, and say that it kinda freaks me out, so what i end up doing is just avoiding the entire subject matter all together. And that is basically what i have done for years......But, like i mentioned earlier, this religious thing keeps showing up in my life!! EVERYWHERE! and the frequency at which it shows up is getting closer and closer together.

anyone out there who can explain this situation to me?
thankyou!
girl on fire.

Sure sounds like the Holy Spirit to me. I think you are going to find that most of us here have gone through something similar. I converted at age 25, but the drawing of God seemed to have started about 10 years prior. It was just something that was continuously brought to my mind. Please don't fight it as long as I did.

God is basically your Creator. Christ is your redeemer who paid for your sins on the cross that you might return to your God. Your God is like the father of the prodigal son. I would second the recommendation of CS Lewis's Mere Christianity.

 

[revmalone]

hi..
uhm, i just signed up....reccommended from a friend. i was christened as an infant, but was not raised in a house that supported religion all too much. I have had some not-so-pleasant experiences throughout my adolescent life with friends trying to convert me, save me....and just drag me to "their" church. I have read the bible, in college..on my own free will, just to see what it was all about. Honestly, i don't recall much of it. Anyway, my question is this.....
I have been increasingly interested in what "god" is, what christianity is all about.......it is a theme that keeps recurring and being brought into my life.....enough so that it sticks out and i have noticed!! The thing is, everytime i talkto someone about it, or think i might just venture out on my own into an arena i know pretty much nothing about, i get shaky....visibally shaky! i have been known to break down and cry..for really no apparent reason.......i would like to know why this happens. I have to be honest, and say that it kinda freaks me out, so what i end up doing is just avoiding the entire subject matter all together. And that is basically what i have done for years......But, like i mentioned earlier, this religious thing keeps showing up in my life!! EVERYWHERE! and the frequency at which it shows up is getting closer and closer together.

anyone out there who can explain this situation to me?
thankyou!
girl on fire.

Greetings Friend
I myself cry like that, it something God does in our heart when he is guiding us, I bet you get a lost, confused sensation when this come to you, it's normal process when God is Calling you to himself. It's only Jesus working on you, he has choosen you to be in heaven with him and he is letting you know so you can choose to accept or reject his invitation, because he wants to save you thats all he is doing right now, softening up your heart.

I've seen this before, you can't be saved like you said you were as a child, because you must have a knowledge of your sins and ask to be forgiven of them, this is the process the Scripture teaches.

AS a child you didn't know that stuff, you just went through a Church denomonational ritual, it's not Scriptual. You have to get your sins forgiven by Jesus only, He is the only way we can be forgiven.

God is seeking you, We want to help you be with us in heaven. Jesus is coming soon and people need to know this. They can choose now to take this free gift of Salvation because after the Saved people are raptured away, you will died to be saved.

It is so important for all those who are putting this off, time is almost over to make this choice. How would you want to go to heaven By faith in Jesus or by being butchered.

You know it is happening right now on your tv over seas. It's coming after those who acepted Jesus Christ are taken out of this world before the Great day of the Tribulation begins. Take his offer and be forgiven now.

Please people don't wait, 99% chance you will die durning this time of Judgement.

Ask Jesus to forgive
Rev Malone

 

[KarateCowboy]

DEAR FRIEND,

God is very seriously trying to get your attention. i would suggest that you spend some quiet time in prayer and ask Him what He wants.
(The answer, of course, is you.)

MAY YOU BE BLESSED,
ephraim

I second this.

It seems like God is sending you all the signs.

 

[FallingWaters]

... The thing is, everytime i talk to someone about it, or think i might just venture out on my own into an arena i know pretty much nothing about, i get shaky....visibally shaky! i have been known to break down and cry..for really no apparent reason.......i would like to know why this happens. ...

This is the main part of your question that gets my attention: "... into an arena i know pretty much nothing about..." I think you're saying it doesn't just happen with Christianity, but with other subjects as well. I think only a professional could tell you for sure why that happens, and I don't know how hard it would be to diagnose.

However, you remind me of myself to a certain degree. Not that I visibly shake, but I am extremely uncomfortable doing things I am not competent at. If I don't know what I'm doing, I don't want to do it at all. Or if I have to do something I feel incompetent at, it's extremely uncomfortable to me.

I have struggled with perfectionism all my life. I was abused and neglected as a child. I think the struggle with feeling competent, wanting approval, fear of rejection, fear of failure, fear of not being perfect, feeling defective... all play a part in undermining a person's ability to respect themselves and to see themselves as having value in the world. Suddenly, doing a thing well becomes a way of proving I am worthy of love.

Have you struggled with any of these things to a serious degree? It's possible that that's at the root of your problem. I'm not a professional. I'm just sharing what I have experienced.

 

[rustypjr]

I wouldn't worry so much about religion as I would salvation. Read the book of Romans. God is working on you, how long can you ignore him? After you have salvation God will plug you into a church type setting where you can serve. You need to get alone you and God. I will be praying for you.