when I was going through all the terror and anguish of ocd , I was so scared
to read the bible
or go to church
or pray
I did type out some pages of scripture that gave me hope and then took them and got them blown up and laminated.
I prayed even when it terrified me and for a long time all I could do was keep saying Jesus help me
and quote a few scriptures over and over
like nothing is impossible for God
and Jesus said he that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.
seek and you will find.
the Lord has never forsaken those who seek Him.
Some of those verses
also he that believeth on Me has everlasting life
hope is not disappointed.
behold I make all things new.
you are accepted in the beloved
I heard these above two in my spirit one day, not in my mind
if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
I felt so hopeless, I just kept hoping I had a sliver of hope.
The terror and anguish was so unbearable I jarred awake at night.
My dad had died and the terror started that day, and then my mom was dying also and died four months after my dad died.
I knew my only hope was that Jesus take me out of this , because it was way too big for me, I was helpless and totally without strength
I felt like my faith had been snatched away and replaced by a horrible terror and anguish in one day
and the terror kept on 24/7 for over two years
I was scared that the promises in the bible did not apply to me because I thought my faith was gone
however I knew a few things maybe I could hold onto
nothing is impossible with God
so I was not impossible
the Lord has never forsaken those who seek Him
I loved that verse
if I seek Him He will never forsake me
because He said it and He is Truth
mercy triumphs over justice
and hope is not disappointed
Why did I go through that, not sure.
Maybe an example of God's love and mercy and how He can save from anything.
The people around me know it is a complete miracle from Jesus , just as I know.
As I was ruined and in the miry clay
but like King David said
my soul fainted unless I believed I would see the goodness of God in the land of the living
it certainly hindered my ability to think or function
however I realized that I needed Jesus so bad that I had to keeping hoping and searching for Him and hoping even if I stayed that way til I died, I would never give up.
Also on top of that it was better for my family to see me in that state and still searching and hoping than to ever see me give up.
I was devasted and ruined and had so much terror and pain and without faith and without strength, truly only Jesus could fix me and I knew that, if only He would.
I prayed Jesus if you will, you can make me whole, I prayed it in my mind,in my heart I cried it out.I begged to Jesus to soften my heart and reveal His mercy and Truth to Me and who He is and to restore my soul.
Jesus , by His great mercy and compassion and power and love, set me free and set my feet upon a Rock, He healed my brokenheart and delivered me and set me at liberty and gave me rest and restored me soul, and lead me to still waters.What a wonderful and Mighty Saviour He is.He is my Lord and my Master and my God.
to read the bible
or go to church
or pray
I did type out some pages of scripture that gave me hope and then took them and got them blown up and laminated.
I prayed even when it terrified me and for a long time all I could do was keep saying Jesus help me
and quote a few scriptures over and over
like nothing is impossible for God
and Jesus said he that cometh to Me I will in no wise cast out.
seek and you will find.
the Lord has never forsaken those who seek Him.
Some of those verses
also he that believeth on Me has everlasting life
hope is not disappointed.
behold I make all things new.
you are accepted in the beloved
I heard these above two in my spirit one day, not in my mind
if we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.
I felt so hopeless, I just kept hoping I had a sliver of hope.
The terror and anguish was so unbearable I jarred awake at night.
My dad had died and the terror started that day, and then my mom was dying also and died four months after my dad died.
I knew my only hope was that Jesus take me out of this , because it was way too big for me, I was helpless and totally without strength
I felt like my faith had been snatched away and replaced by a horrible terror and anguish in one day
and the terror kept on 24/7 for over two years
I was scared that the promises in the bible did not apply to me because I thought my faith was gone
however I knew a few things maybe I could hold onto
nothing is impossible with God
so I was not impossible
the Lord has never forsaken those who seek Him
I loved that verse
if I seek Him He will never forsake me
because He said it and He is Truth
mercy triumphs over justice
and hope is not disappointed
Why did I go through that, not sure.
Maybe an example of God's love and mercy and how He can save from anything.
The people around me know it is a complete miracle from Jesus , just as I know.
As I was ruined and in the miry clay
but like King David said
my soul fainted unless I believed I would see the goodness of God in the land of the living
it certainly hindered my ability to think or function
however I realized that I needed Jesus so bad that I had to keeping hoping and searching for Him and hoping even if I stayed that way til I died, I would never give up.
Also on top of that it was better for my family to see me in that state and still searching and hoping than to ever see me give up.
I was devasted and ruined and had so much terror and pain and without faith and without strength, truly only Jesus could fix me and I knew that, if only He would.
I prayed Jesus if you will, you can make me whole, I prayed it in my mind,in my heart I cried it out.I begged to Jesus to soften my heart and reveal His mercy and Truth to Me and who He is and to restore my soul.
Jesus , by His great mercy and compassion and power and love, set me free and set my feet upon a Rock, He healed my brokenheart and delivered me and set me at liberty and gave me rest and restored me soul, and lead me to still waters.What a wonderful and Mighty Saviour He is.He is my Lord and my Master and my God.
