Maybe you are listening to the wrong voices. If you feel lost, then Jesus has come to seek and save you. That's what the Bible says about Jesus: He has come to seek and save that which is lost. He said that He did not come to heal the righteous, but to comfort and heal the sick and suffering. If you think that you have to be good enough to have Jesus be your Lord and Saviour, you have another think coming. The whole reason for Jesus coming to earth, dying on the cross, rising from the dead, and then sending the Holy Spirit into the Church, is to seek and save folks in exactly the same state as you.
Look at Jesus Himself. He was born without a father. Joseph was going to cancel his wedding because his fiance was pregnant and he wasn't the father. Jesus was born in a stable and laid in the feeding trough. He was wrapped in the shroud they wrapped sheep in after they were slaughtered. He had to be ripped from his home and transported to Egypt because the ruler of the nation wanted to kill Him. When his parents brought Him back they couldn't go back to their home town, so they had to live in some small village in the backblocks of Galilee. He had to do manual work as a carpenter until He was 30. No promotions, no big wage rises. Joseph disappeared from the scene, so he must have passed away while Jesus was relatively young, and His mother had to raise Him and his brothers and sisters on her own. He never had a home of His own, or had a flash motor vehicle, even though His ministry was famous throughout the land. His finances were supplied by His supporters, He was accused of being a fake, a magician, and using the powers of the devil in His miraculous ministry. He was arrested as a common criminal, stripped naked, beaten raw, put to open shame before everyone who had turned against Him. The only ones who were there to see him die slowly,naked on a rough wooden cross were his mother, John, and Mary Magdalene. Everyone else spat at Him, goaded and insulted Him and ridiculed Him because He could not come down from the cross to prove that He was their messiah. It was only the intervention of a wealthy guy offering his own tomb, that Jesus was not thrown into an unmarked grave.
So this is the Person who has come to seek and save you. Have you gone through what Jesus went through for you? If you think you are trash, just think that people who were crucified were thrown out like trash into a place where their bodies were burned alongside the other trash in the rubbish heap. Jesus could have ended up like that, for you!
Do you think that Jesus could be a suitable Saviour for you? How much do you think He loves you that He would go through all that, just for you, as if you were the only one He came to suffer and die for? Have you thought about that?
When you think about it, Jesus was just like you, and He probably felt like it at times, because He was an ordinary man before He rose from the dead. He taught and healed people during the day, and went alone before His Father at night praying with strong crying and tears to get the strength to do what the Father wanted Him to do. In the Garden of Gethsemone, Jesus agonised because He didn't want to go through what He knew was going to happen to Him, and He pleaded with the Father if there was any way it could be avoided. He knew that it could not be avoided, and angels had to come to give Him the strength to go through the trial, ridicule, beatings, and a slow death by crucifixion as a common criminal. The Jesus that many gospel preachers speak about is quite different to the real Jesus, because presenting the real Jesus and what He went through for us is almost too horrible to contemplate.
So do you reckon that the Jesus I have told you about would take the time to seek you out, save you and make you a totally new person, cleansed from sin and living a holy life full of love, peace and joy? I think so.