But this time I've probably gone too far.
It's one thing to cheat on someone and have that relationship be purely sexual. I'm not saying that it's okay to do, but doesn't compare to starting a whole new relationship.
My wife and I were seperated for a while and I got involved with someone else. I tried to convince myself that it was okay because we were seperated and divorce looked to be very near. But then someone else came a long. Long story short, she fell in love with me and I have grown very attached to her. She was very sifferent from my wife: she was extremely positive, hard-core christian, funny, encouraging, her family is very religious, and she is in the same college program I am.
But, despite how well things were going, I knew it was wrong. Even though my wife was the complete opposite of this new woman, it just felt wrong since we were technically married still. I know it's wrong, but I've been struggling with divorce. People tell me that when God brings two people together he doesn't make mistakes, so divorce should be out of the question. But the skeptical side of my says that that makes no sense at all.
I'm so confused. When I get physically ill, my wife is teh first person that comes to mind. All I want to do is go home and be with her. To me, that says alot. We are both going to start going to marriage counseling now and that's a step we have never taken before. It's a christin counselor and we have been seen him individually, but tomorrow will be the first time we visit him together.
I love my wife, but I have strong feelings for this other girl. People tell me that she is evil, but she can't be. She's very involved in the church as well, and she's a good person.
My wife knows all about this girl. She knows we've slept together, that there are feeling involved and how much she loves me. I'm scared that even though she forgives me now, she will use this against me later. I have trust issues as you can see. She says she wishes it were some one night stand bcause then feelings wouldn't be involved. She knows we seperated because we were not getting along at all, she was so negative all the time, and this girl had nothing to do with it.
The other girl knows all about my wife. she knows we were seperated and that I was extremely unhappy. Things were going well between us until her father talked to me. He is a pasture at a local church and does marriage counseling. That's the irony of it all. He didn't say anything negative to me, but just meeting him made me realize that this has gotten way more complicated than I ever thought it would. I never wanted to hurt his daughter, she's a wonderful person, but whenever I try to stop talking to her she is convinced we met each other for a reason and that we will end up together. This is just a very delicate situation and it's just tough.
The funny thing is that the thing I KNOW is right to do, which is end it with the new girl and make things work with the wife, doesn't really feel right. That doesn't bring me the joy I experienced with the new girl. But in the long run, like I said, my wife makes me feel safe when I am sick. Does that make sense?
I just wish none of this ever happened. I want to see both women happy. They're both great people and I wish nothing but the best for them. This whole ordeal seems to be making me physically ill. The stress is unbearable. I've told my wife that we will work at things, now I have to end it with teh new girl. I just don't know what to tell her. I also hope I'm not making a mistake.
It's one thing to cheat on someone and have that relationship be purely sexual. I'm not saying that it's okay to do, but doesn't compare to starting a whole new relationship.
My wife and I were seperated for a while and I got involved with someone else. I tried to convince myself that it was okay because we were seperated and divorce looked to be very near. But then someone else came a long. Long story short, she fell in love with me and I have grown very attached to her. She was very sifferent from my wife: she was extremely positive, hard-core christian, funny, encouraging, her family is very religious, and she is in the same college program I am.
But, despite how well things were going, I knew it was wrong. Even though my wife was the complete opposite of this new woman, it just felt wrong since we were technically married still. I know it's wrong, but I've been struggling with divorce. People tell me that when God brings two people together he doesn't make mistakes, so divorce should be out of the question. But the skeptical side of my says that that makes no sense at all.
I'm so confused. When I get physically ill, my wife is teh first person that comes to mind. All I want to do is go home and be with her. To me, that says alot. We are both going to start going to marriage counseling now and that's a step we have never taken before. It's a christin counselor and we have been seen him individually, but tomorrow will be the first time we visit him together.
I love my wife, but I have strong feelings for this other girl. People tell me that she is evil, but she can't be. She's very involved in the church as well, and she's a good person.
My wife knows all about this girl. She knows we've slept together, that there are feeling involved and how much she loves me. I'm scared that even though she forgives me now, she will use this against me later. I have trust issues as you can see. She says she wishes it were some one night stand bcause then feelings wouldn't be involved. She knows we seperated because we were not getting along at all, she was so negative all the time, and this girl had nothing to do with it.
The other girl knows all about my wife. she knows we were seperated and that I was extremely unhappy. Things were going well between us until her father talked to me. He is a pasture at a local church and does marriage counseling. That's the irony of it all. He didn't say anything negative to me, but just meeting him made me realize that this has gotten way more complicated than I ever thought it would. I never wanted to hurt his daughter, she's a wonderful person, but whenever I try to stop talking to her she is convinced we met each other for a reason and that we will end up together. This is just a very delicate situation and it's just tough.
The funny thing is that the thing I KNOW is right to do, which is end it with the new girl and make things work with the wife, doesn't really feel right. That doesn't bring me the joy I experienced with the new girl. But in the long run, like I said, my wife makes me feel safe when I am sick. Does that make sense?
I just wish none of this ever happened. I want to see both women happy. They're both great people and I wish nothing but the best for them. This whole ordeal seems to be making me physically ill. The stress is unbearable. I've told my wife that we will work at things, now I have to end it with teh new girl. I just don't know what to tell her. I also hope I'm not making a mistake.