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I was a mixed race student at a Wesleyan Bible College. Normally being mixed race wouldn't be relevant but it is unfortunately relevant to this tale of woe. I was also stupidly idealistic. I guess I must still be stupidly idealistic because it still offends me that my ideals were not met. These are just some of the key events I experienced.

1. A young white man and a young black woman fell in love. They became engaged. They were then taken aside by a professor at the college and told that inter-racial marraige is ill adivised because of the racism they would face and because their offspring would not fit in anywhere. He also personally disagreed with inter-racial marraige for these reasons. They left the college.

2. I heard of this and was surprised and didn't know how to incorporate the knowledge that a professor, supposedly teaching and mentoring to us the word of god and teaching us to minister, had done this into my world view. So I went to our Global Studies professor, himself a missionary, hoping to talk to him about intolerance and gain some golden nugget of wisdom from him. Insteady, he told me that he too disagreed with inter-racial marraige and found it ill advised. I was surprised. I pointed out to him that I am mixed race and asked who he thought I should be able to seek out to marry. He shrugged and said, 'Well that's the problem, isn't it?'
I said thank you and left his office.

3. I became engaged to the son of missionary couple that had been ministering in South Africa. We parted ways for the summer break months and in that time he decided not to return to the college and broke off contact with me entirely. I later found out through a friend of his family who thought I deserved to know that his parents did not want him marrying inter-racially.

4. This will probably seem silly to mention, but I have very curly, difficult to manage hair. In order to get a comb through my hair I have to have detangler/conditioner in it and brush it out in the shower. I also need a decent strength of water pressure to even get the water to penetrate my hair, otherwise it just kind've beads on the surface and takes alot more work. As a result I was taking 30 minutes rather than the requested 5 in the bathroom at college. I was approached about it. I explained my problem. they said it wasn't their problem. So I said ok. I cut my hair nice and short so that it wouldn't take so long. And I lightened it for fun at the same time. I chose the same shade of reddish blonde a few of the other campus girls were going for. The President of the College actually complimented it. But then I was called in to the Dean of Students - who very strictly told me that my choice of hair colour was not appropriate to my ethnicity. I was shocked. I asked where in the handbook it specified ethnic specific hair colours. He said it was extreme and then said he was dissapointed in me.

There were other really horrible experiences - but these are the race related ones.
 
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Well, as a white, anglo-saxon Christian, the son of a Baptist pastor, the grandson of a well-known evangelist and pastor here in Canada and the husband of a very wonderful Filipino woman, I must say that the experiences you've shared make me shake my head in wonder. It is quite astonishing to me to hear Christians saying such stupid, unkind, and ingracious things to you. Not one of my born-again relatives would ever think of suggesting that my marriage to my non-caucasian wife was inappropriate or unwise. I love her, she loves me, we both love God - that's the end of it. And if I ever heard a pastor even hint that mixed marriages were unwise, I would be having some very sharp words with him. So long as your choices are aimed at honoring God, you do as you like and ignore these silly, ignorant folk.

Peace.
 
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Well, as a white, anglo-saxon Christian, the son of a Baptist pastor, the grandson of a well-known evangelist and pastor here in Canada and the husband of a very wonderful Filipino woman, I must say that the experiences you've shared make me shake my head in wonder. It is quite astonishing to me to hear Christians saying such stupid, unkind, and ingracious things to you. Not one of my born-again relatives would ever think of suggesting that my marriage to my non-caucasian wife was inappropriate or unwise. I love her, she loves me, we both love God - that's the end of it. And if I ever heard a pastor even hint that mixed marriages were unwise, I would be having some very sharp words with him. So long as your choices are aimed at honoring God, you do as you like and ignore these silly, ignorant folk.

Peace.

:amen:

You took the words right from my mouth.
 
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Thank you Aiki. It's easy to know they were stupid and wrong - but to get that much stupid and wrong from trusted representatives of the supposed Body of Christ was a little bit mind reeling at the time. I looked up to these people and entrusted them with my spiritual education. Instead I'm left feeling like a complete idiot and a sucker for having put any such trust in anyone.

The phrase 'once bitten twice shy' is an understatement. I've not been part of a regular congregation since Bible College. About 8 years now. The closest I've come really is the sunday afternoon tea's at my husband's family's church - and it's really about the cake. really. awsome. cake. Which is probably just as well since I'm not a Christian anymore. But I just hate that when I look back at these experiences they still have the power to hurt me and make me angry.
 
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Its ashame that this a christian college. This doesn't sound like Christ at all-but legalism and self righteousness. This isnt Christ love. God doesn't see color but the spirit inside. True christians show this love; phoney ones don't. Please don't let the bad apples cause you to leave God. Jesus said to be a fruit inspector. If one doesn't walk it-they arn't a christian.
 
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Its ashame that this a christian college. This doesn't sound like Christ at all-but legalism and self righteousness. This isnt Christ love. God doesn't see color but the spirit inside. True christians show this love; phoney ones don't. Please don't let the bad apples cause you to leave God. Jesus said to be a fruit inspector. If one doesn't walk it-they arn't a christian.

And yet given the range of professing Christian's I've experienced this from in my lifetime and their status in Church culture this racism does not seem at all uncommon within Christendom. It's just not PC for people to talk about it much so it goes unnoticed.

Four of these people were in the ministry. They beleived in Christ enough to dedicate their lives to either training others to minister or to travelling the world to be ministers. How could they not be true Christians and do that? They were almost certainly true believers. So what did they do wrong that kept them out of gods special club? Did they not cast the born again spell correctly? Did they miss a phrase in the special 'I believe' prayer/chant that's supposed to change everything and summon the endwelling Holy Spirit? What happened to that light that's supposed to shine into every corner of their hearts? What happened to that little 'this is wrong' twinge that buddists have and hindu have, zorastrians have, and wiccans have, and atheists have but these and so many other Christians who are supposed to have the 'patent' on right and wrong seem to be missing? Where's the transformation in the gossips who destroy lives, in the racists, in the paedophiles, in the power hungry?

If whether or not a person is good or evil, has a working conscience or not, has wisdom or not, has compassion or not, is moved deeply to act in love or not, has nothing to do with whether they are professing, born again Christians or not then Evangelicals are telling some pretty big lies.
 
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I myself don't believe in mixing races but I don't and won't hold the children accountable it's not your fault, and being mixed don't make you a bad person or any less a Christian. I will admit though I think it's wrong how they are treating you over all of this...
 
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And yet given the range of professing Christian's I've experienced this from in my lifetime and their status in Church culture this racism does not seem at all uncommon within Christendom. It's just not PC for people to talk about it much so it goes unnoticed.

Four of these people were in the ministry. They beleived in Christ enough to dedicate their lives to either training others to minister or to travelling the world to be ministers. How could they not be true Christians and do that? They were almost certainly true believers. So what did they do wrong that kept them out of gods special club? Did they not cast the born again spell correctly? Did they miss a phrase in the special 'I believe' prayer/chant that's supposed to change everything and summon the endwelling Holy Spirit? What happened to that light that's supposed to shine into every corner of their hearts? What happened to that little 'this is wrong' twinge that buddists have and hindu have, zorastrians have, and wiccans have, and atheists have but these and so many other Christians who are supposed to have the 'patent' on right and wrong seem to be missing? Where's the transformation in the gossips who destroy lives, in the racists, in the paedophiles, in the power hungry?

If whether or not a person is good or evil, has a working conscience or not, has wisdom or not, has compassion or not, is moved deeply to act in love or not, has nothing to do with whether they are professing, born again Christians or not then Evangelicals are telling some pretty big lies.
MY DEAR SISTER,

Do you not realize that the majority of people calling themselves "christians" and perhaps functioning as people in authority in "christian" settings think and act 180 degrees away from what our Lord taught and how He thought and acted.

"Christian" translates as "Christ-like." In order to be considered a "Christian", one must measure up to the One from Whom the name derives. The old cliche "WWJD"--"WHAT WOULD JESUS DO"--is a quite accurate way of determining who is a Christian and who is not by evaluating their attitudes and behaviors in light of Jesus Christ's. Racists, no matter how much Christian doctrine they spout or even teach, are beyond the pale of our Lord's Kingdom, no matter how sugar-coated their pronouncements may be. They speak from spiritual darkness and shun the Light.

i am so sorry for what you have experienced. i know it must have hurt you deeply. May our Lord heal your wounds, banish your pain, and lead you lovingly into the light of His Kingdom.

BE BLESSED!

:bow:ABBA'S FOOL,
ephraim
 
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They were then taken aside by a professor at the college and told that inter-racial marriage is ill advised because of the racism they would face and because their offspring would not fit in anywhere.

It can most certainly feel that way, especially if you let it. I like to refer to myself as a Caulk-Asian, but often time feel completely race less.(Not fitting in anywhere)

Like it or not, unless you make people see beyond the nappy hair or slanted eyes, the truth is, they won't. we generally like to be able to quickly place people into categories and work with basic information of those types of people, whether we can admit it or not.

For example, Tell me you have never been in a Hard core Asian persons house for the first time and wondered if you should have taken your shoes off or not.. Or if your asked to stay over for dinner and you wonder What it is you will be eating.. (Meow)
I'm a have-zie, and i wonder these things about my own family!!

There is nothing wrong with working with in those comfort zones so long as we do not demand that individuals are made to fit our personal profiles of what we think their people should be like. Once you learn how people really work despite their smiling faces and promises to the contrary, you can use this system, to your advantage. Not fitting into a category is a double edged sword, it will cut both ways if you let it. Meaning yes you can be burned by this experience or you can let it take you places that Whole-zies can't go.

As far as your "man" is concerned, if he is so easily swayed by friends and or family then ask yourself if truthfully is this the type of leader you wish to have presiding over your future family? Just look at how easily he was willing to give up (That He loved) when just alittle bit of pressure was added to his life...

What happens when the baby is chronically ill, the mortgage is a few months past due, the car is out with a bad transmission, creditors are calling and His job has become unsteady? It's Better that you found out now, that he folds under pressure, then when the "stuff" really Hits the fan.
 
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How I feel has never been so much the problem as how others feel and treated me because of it. I've never identified myself through ethnicity. I identify myself with my actions and my interests, my talents.

I know the boy I had been with is nothing to mourn over anymore. Though I was sad he'd left for a long time and humiliated by how. I'm happilly married now and my husband is my best friend and partner.

I'm just angry. And when I think about it, about all the things that happened, it hurts. It doesn't make me wish I was more like them in any way what so ever or change how I think about who I am.

It does change how I think about what they are. I don't trust church. I just don't want to be prejudiced against christians, and I am. I'm more open to the idea of joining a coven than joining a church. Synagogue is more comfortable than sunday morning service. I have more respect for Buddhists or Zorastrians than I do Christians. I don't think there's a religion I have much less regard for unless you count Scientology - and let's face it, that one was made up by a science fiction writer who once said he fancied making up a religion...

Christianity rejected me. I don't do rejection well. Worse, I saw how Christianity attacked and hurt other people too. But I think I should at least be able to regard Christianity as a religion on par with the others, rather than several steps below.
 
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I am so sorry you went through all that! It is so far from how Christ is portrayed in the gospels... I don't understand how any Christian could think that way.
I don't know whether the area you live in is historically racist and people are parroting what they have been taught themselves, but even if it is, that is no excuse.

Maybe you need to get to know more christians who don't share these prejudices. They certainly aren't part of the Christian faith!
 
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Christianity rejected me. I don't do rejection well. Worse, I saw how Christianity attacked and hurt other people too. But I think I should at least be able to regard Christianity as a religion on par with the others, rather than several steps below.

Perhaps that is the issue. you are looking for a religion to hold close to your heart. meaning your looking for a set of rules and a community of like minded people that reflect your Ideas of what God is. Christianity can be a place to find religion, but also know "Religion" is not what God wants for us. We are told God hates religion. If you know the bible, look at all the times Jesus rebuked the religious leaders of his day. Instead we are call to have a personal relationship with God.

With in a personal relationship with any one it should be easy enough to remove yourself from those outside of your relationship. Like for instance what you did with your old BF, and your current husband. Even though what the old BF did was hurtful it doesn't mean all men who share an interest in you will treat you the same way. In this instance you are able to segregate the actions of one weak man, from the intent and actions of the Man who truly loves you.

That said, why do you think you are not able to do this with God through Christianity? If you were looking for a relationship with man, like you were looking for a relationship with God, you would have not married.

The "other" religions you had mentioned are more attune to those looking for a religion (a set of rules and a community of like minded believers.) rather than a direct relationship with God so if religion is what you seek then it really doesn't matter where or what "god" you worship. the end result will be the same.

Why look for a religion when you can have a relationship? All religions depend heavily on people and interpretations of rules.. Which if given enough time will fail, while a direct relationship with God is everlasting.
 
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Thank you Aiki. It's easy to know they were stupid and wrong - but to get that much stupid and wrong from trusted representatives of the supposed Body of Christ was a little bit mind reeling at the time. I looked up to these people and entrusted them with my spiritual education. Instead I'm left feeling like a complete idiot and a sucker for having put any such trust in anyone.

Well, don't throw the baby out with the bath water. Nobody is perfect, remember. King David was a "man after God's own heart" but a lousy father; Abraham is listed as a hero of the faith in Hebrews but he was at times cowardly and deceitful; Moses was angry and impatient but God loved him as one of his greatest servants. No one gets it all right - not me, not you, and not the "trusted representatives of Christ" who have left you feeling so cold toward the Saviour. So, we need to have grace with stupid, unkind people just like Christ did. You don't have to make any concessions to their foolish thinking, but it seems to me that tossing all of Christianity away because they did not live up to your expectations is an over-reaction and one that is not tempered by the reality of your own shortcomings.

The phrase 'once bitten twice shy' is an understatement. I've not been part of a regular congregation since Bible College. About 8 years now. The closest I've come really is the sunday afternoon tea's at my husband's family's church - and it's really about the cake. really. awsome. cake. Which is probably just as well since I'm not a Christian anymore. But I just hate that when I look back at these experiences they still have the power to hurt me and make me angry.

And Satan laughs gleefully. He has managed to use the foolish prejudices of Christian people to embitter you and draw you far from the joyful love of your Saviour. How very, very sad...

Peace.
 
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Perhaps that is the issue. you are looking for a religion to hold close to your heart. meaning your looking for a set of rules and a community of like minded people that reflect your Ideas of what God is. Christianity can be a place to find religion, but also know "Religion" is not what God wants for us. We are told God hates religion. If you know the bible, look at all the times Jesus rebuked the religious leaders of his day. Instead we are call to have a personal relationship with God.

With in a personal relationship with any one it should be easy enough to remove yourself from those outside of your relationship. Like for instance what you did with your old BF, and your current husband. Even though what the old BF did was hurtful it doesn't mean all men who share an interest in you will treat you the same way. In this instance you are able to segregate the actions of one weak man, from the intent and actions of the Man who truly loves you.

That said, why do you think you are not able to do this with God through Christianity? If you were looking for a relationship with man, like you were looking for a relationship with God, you would have not married.

The "other" religions you had mentioned are more attune to those looking for a religion (a set of rules and a community of like minded believers.) rather than a direct relationship with God so if religion is what you seek then it really doesn't matter where or what "god" you worship. the end result will be the same.

Why look for a religion when you can have a relationship? All religions depend heavily on people and interpretations of rules.. Which if given enough time will fail, while a direct relationship with God is everlasting.



Drich -

Oh gosh no. I am not religion hunting. I enjoy studying it to try to understand different people better. The symbolism a person grows up, not to mention their entire understanding of their place in the universe, is wrapped up in religion. I got a taste for it in my Social Anthropology class in College and have since continued with the Social Sciences. Also, once I started I couldn't really stop because I kept finding TONS of stuff that evangelists wrote about these other religions that were just plain misinformation. The only way to learn about someone elses beliefs is from the perspective of someone who actually believes - it's not possible to learn it properly from a group of people who are trying to sell you something else.

That's really something else that's interesting though. If all these other religions are soooooo bad and christianity is soooooo good then why oh why oh why do all these pastors and evangelists feel like they have to LIE about the other religions to keep people away from them.

Aiki - I think you're onto something there. I guess I'm hanging around here because I'm looking to forgive Christianity as a whole. I understand intellectually that people tend to insert their own beliefs (right or wrong) into their religions. They love to create some sort of Divine approval for whatever cultural norms they embrace. Don't like short skirts? Here's a bible verse to back you up! Don't think women should wear jeans? Here's a bible verse to back you up! Don't beleive the races should mix? Here's a bible verse to back you up! Want to wear jeans? Here's a bible verse to back you up! Think God loves racial intermarraige? Here's a bible verse! Gay? Here's a few passages? Homophobic? Here's a few other passages. Separation of Church and state? Here's a verse. Want God in the whitehouse? Here's another. It's a tailor made god for a consumer society. How many denominations are there for this very reason? Christians can't agree to disagree or explore the questions hand in hand. They have to be right! EVERYONE seems so much more concerned with whether or not God agrees with their personal viewpoints than with serving an independent being. It's gotten to the point that many seem to think it's their providence to create God's own personal kingdom of heaven on earth - what Christ said he DID NOT come to do - in the form of Christian legistlation, Christian Presidents, and Christian Education. Because let's face it. Nobody wants Creationism taught in schools. You want GENESIS creation taught in schools. If other forms of creationism from other religions get taught I don't want to be twenty miles from the uproar.

You ban gay marraige as though what two people who do not believe the same things as you does infringes on your own beliefs. But it's deeper than that and most are too willfully uneducated to understand what's really going on in their hearts and minds. The BNP party in the UK wants to enact a governmental policy which actively discourages the mixing of races. Why? Because they're think the purity of the white race and culture needs protection. There is actually some sort of fear that if two people they don't even know, or even their offspring, marry inter-racially it threatens their OWN place in the country. There is even a sense that it threatens their own identity in their country.

Isn't that in a nutshell what Christians in America are terrified of too? That a more liberal america changes your identity, affects who you are? You are who you choose to be, and that's all anyone else wants as well. You can't legistlate Christ, or your version of him, into the hearts of people.

So much of who a person percieves themselves to be in the world, in god, in the universe, is given to them by the religious influences they grow up with. When they are faced with other people who embrace other possibilities it makes one wonder - How can they be whole if I'm whole? How can they be right if I'm right? How can they know god if you know god? How can they be happy if I'm happy?

Then the mind slams shut. Because, particularly in evangelical christianity, they can't be whole, they can't be right, they can't be happy. Not really happy. Not like you. They must have lots and lots of short comings. The mind really has no choice but to tell you these things in defence of your sense of self. Otherwise you risk openning yourself up to culture shock, and a rewriting of your understandings, even your understandings of self. And make no mistake. Culture shock sucks. It hurts alot like hell. Maybe you look a little closer at the other people, the people who don't live and think like you and must not know god like you. they look happy enough. they don't seem to be evil. That feels unsettling. Oh wait! that unsettled feeling must be a demon or satan trying to get into your heart! Oh yay! for joy! You were right after all. time to start praying for them! Then form a picket line and write protest letters. If that doesn't work throw flaming rocks through their windows as warriors for christ!

Where is the death to self? Where is the willingness to maybe, just maybe, not have the whole answer? The ability to self-lessly consider, prayerfully, that maybe the interpretations you were raised in aren't the only valid ones or even the right ones? Instead of selflessness there is vicious self-defense. Defence of race. Defence of religion. Defence of denomination. Instead of love there is hate. There is anger. There is offence. There's even slander! It's all the same bigotry. It's not about god. It's about culture. It's about being secure in the knowledge that your interpretation of the universe is all there is so that your inner world remains intact. Self isn't dead. It's on a freaking shrine! It's decorated with gold and jewels and payed honour on a daily basis. It's petted and preened until that golden feeling of security in your own correctness is felt.

Jesus Christ has stopped being the Person represented the Bible and has become an idol carved in the image of Self and self-proclaimed 'Little-Christs' have done it and are still doing it. It's not cool. It's hurting people. Nobody but me sees it. And it kills me.

If Christianity exists at all it's as a unique, man-made, fragmented religion formed through varied political climates and cultures and sharing too few of my own interpretations of the Bible (having actually, prayerfull and meditatively, read it more than a few times) for me to consider myself a part of it.
 
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That's really something else that's interesting though. If all these other religions are soooooo bad and christianity is soooooo good then why oh why oh why do all these pastors and evangelists feel like they have to LIE about the other religions to keep people away from them.

The whole point of my previous post was that "christianity" as a religion is no different than any other 'lost" religion. Religion is NOT what God wants for us. Because our "religions" are our own efforts to understand and worship God/gods. Instead He wants us to have a relationship with Him directly.

True Christianity is supposed to be the way to establish that relationship. Popular christianity on the other hand is no different than any other false religion.

The difference being in the Relationship one has, or in the Doctrine (List of rules, observances and ceremonies) one follows to obtain righteousness.

So if you were seeking a religious experience, then it really does not matter where you get it, whether it be in christianity or Buddhism, or any other religion the end result will be the same.

Isaiah
13 The Lord says:
"These people come near to me with their mouth
and honor me with their lips,
but their hearts are far from me.
Their worship of me
is made up only of rules taught by men.


In Matt 7 Jesus says:
22Many will say to me on that day, 'Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and in your name drive out demons and perform many miracles?' 23Then I will tell them plainly, 'I never knew you. Away from me, you evildoers!'

Jesus is speaking to those who think they belong to his church.

Religion is a fickle thing that will always serve the intentions of your heart. It will draw in those who wish to know God, but if your not careful with your heart can become your god. that is if your heart is not set in knowing the one true God. this is true for any religion.


Again I say all of that to say, if you had approached God for a relationship (like you did with your husband) Then no matter how many bad experiences you had with other people then, you would have had the relationship that you sought. instead you have a mild story of religious, and personal persecution that your trying to use to cast a veil of false religion over the whole of christianity.. All because someone changed their mind on how they felt about you. (For whatever reason.) And/or someone else made an accurate observation about the difficulties multi-cultured people will and do have. All while flying what you perceived to be the flag of true christianity.. what i wanted you to see is that you have misunderstood the point and purpose of true Christianity, and have possiably mistaken pop christianity in place of the real thing.

So one more time, if those misguided brothers were deep into religion, and religion is not of God, then How is the relationship that you are supposed to have with God, known to us as Christianity to blame for your misfortune? Why or how is God/Jesus to blame?
 
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Jesus Christ has stopped being the Person represented the Bible and has become an idol carved in the image of Self and self-proclaimed 'Little-Christs' have done it and are still doing it. It's not cool. It's hurting people. Nobody but me sees it. And it kills me.

You can do what you like with christianity, reject it, parade it, love it, make it up as you go... you are right about all that. But what one does with and thinks about christianity isnt what matters. Its what you do with and how you respond to Christ.

I was going to comment about the fact that Im a white american woman married to a half-cast british man. My husband's father was black jamaican and his mother was white british. I was going to go all into how that has effected him, in much the same way it effected you. My husband is very much like how you described yourself. He doesnt trust church, wont set foot into one anymore really. But he will never walk away from his Saviour. In love, I would lovingly and kindly encourage you to take a good look at just Jesus. Take away all the studying you've done. I studied sociology in college too, or began to, when I decided to quit and elope with my husband. Anyway... for a number of reasons we have left the church but not Christ. We are looking for believers who KNOW Christ. Im guessing that since you havent talked about it in your posts you dont really know Jesus. There can be world of difference actually Knowing Christ vs being a christian. I dont think the issue for you is race tho. Nor is it forgiving christianity. Are you willing to look at Jesus and accept what He offers? That would require not looking at other christians, or religion to find Him.

Anyway, I dont know why, or if Im even allowed to but I wanted to post some pics of my husband and I together. You see, you can love the Lord but hate the world, in fact this is what we're supposed to do. We're supposed to recognise this world is corrupt and not a very lovely place. Anyway, Im rambling. But I do care about your predicament and it struck a chord with me. So here's those pics I wanted to show you. Mods, if Im not allowed to post these Ill delete them happily.

Here is a pic of my husband being baptised (for the second time) last sept.

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this is he and I at the beach last summer.

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and here is our family.

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Drich, you are now misunderstanding me to the point of preaching to the choir as well as making some rather sweeping assumptions about my past and present spirituality. I wasn't looking for a relationship with God. Why search for what's already had? God isn't the person I have a problem with. It's humanity. Christian people in particular so it's Christian people I'm here to test the waters with and try to mend some sort of figurative relationship. Possibly a mistake.

If you're going to continue to assume that I have never had and currently have no relationship with God then our conversations are not going to go anyway. I'm not some bottle-sucking milk drinker. I've been on the meat for a very long time.

Blaming God for what people do in His name would be ridiculous. Like blaming communism for what some communist leaders do, or capitalism for... well you get the idea. I completely blame people.

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All because someone changed their mind on how they felt about you. (For whatever reason.) And/or someone else made an accurate observation about the difficulties multi-cultured people will and do have.
Way to demean my entire issue. Here I thought this is where people who don't call themselves Christians are encouraged to share their struggles. Instead I get told I'm just too sensitive and don't really have anything to be struggling about. As for the difficulties multi-RACIAL people 'will and do have' I suppose we should all try to breed more stupid into our children too since smart kids get so picked on in school and frankly my IQ has always set me apart way more than the fact that I'm multi-racial. Maybe wack little Jimmy in the head a few times just to make sure he has a good life.
 
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You can do what you like with christianity, reject it, parade it, love it, make it up as you go... you are right about all that. But what one does with and thinks about christianity isnt what matters. Its what you do with and how you respond to Christ.

I was going to comment about the fact that Im a white american woman married to a half-cast british man. My husband's father was black jamaican and his mother was white british. I was going to go all into how that has effected him, in much the same way it effected you. My husband is very much like how you described yourself. He doesnt trust church, wont set foot into one anymore really. But he will never walk away from his Saviour. In love, I would lovingly and kindly encourage you to take a good look at just Jesus. Take away all the studying you've done. I studied sociology in college too, or began to, when I decided to quit and elope with my husband. Anyway... for a number of reasons we have left the church but not Christ. We are looking for believers who KNOW Christ. Im guessing that since you havent talked about it in your posts you dont really know Jesus. There can be world of difference actually Knowing Christ vs being a christian. I dont think the issue for you is race tho. Nor is it forgiving christianity. Are you willing to look at Jesus and accept what He offers? That would require not looking at other christians, or religion to find Him.

Anyway, I dont know why, or if Im even allowed to but I wanted to post some pics of my husband and I together. You see, you can love the Lord but hate the world, in fact this is what we're supposed to do. We're supposed to recognise this world is corrupt and not a very lovely place. Anyway, Im rambling. But I do care about your predicament and it struck a chord with me. So here's those pics I wanted to show you. Mods, if Im not allowed to post these Ill delete them happily.

Here is a pic of my husband being baptised (for the second time) last sept.



this is he and I at the beach last summer.



and here is our family.

Your pictures are beautiful and made me smile. I guess I can understand where you're coming from in that I don't mention Christ. Not ever. And I think I am alot like your husband. The reason I won't mention the name is because I am so thoroughly convinced that the name doesn't matter and the name has been misused to the point that it drives seekers away. If there is any power it's in the Personhood. A Person is more than a name. I still feel the Presence all the time. It's the unique Peace that Passes Understanding that, once felt, is always recognizable. But I am terrified of assigning any dogmatism or taking upon myself any appearance of the evil I feel like I was once involved in and almost went out into the world to spread. I Am that I Am is enough for me. The rest is just meaningless linguistics and cultural baggage.
 
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Aiki - I think you're onto something there. I guess I'm hanging around here because I'm looking to forgive Christianity as a whole. I understand intellectually that people tend to insert their own beliefs (right or wrong) into their religions. They love to create some sort of Divine approval for whatever cultural norms they embrace. Don't like short skirts? Here's a bible verse to back you up! Don't think women should wear jeans? Here's a bible verse to back you up! Don't beleive the races should mix? Here's a bible verse to back you up! Want to wear jeans? Here's a bible verse to back you up! Think God loves racial intermarraige? Here's a bible verse! Gay? Here's a few passages? Homophobic? Here's a few other passages. Separation of Church and state? Here's a verse. Want God in the whitehouse? Here's another. It's a tailor made god for a consumer society.

As recent generations have moved farther and farther from a thorough knowledge of the Bible, more and more of what you describe above has occurred. This isn't the fault of the Bible, or how its written, however, but the fault of those who have neglected to study the Scriptures so that they might "rightly divide it" for themselves and discern whether or not another has rightly divided it. If the average Christian in the pew was a dedicated and careful student of the Word of God, the warping and twisting of Scripture that goes on today would occur far less frequently and, when it did occur, would be quickly recognized and rejected as unbiblical.

How many denominations are there for this very reason? Christians can't agree to disagree or explore the questions hand in hand. They have to be right! EVERYONE seems so much more concerned with whether or not God agrees with their personal viewpoints than with serving an independent being.

I think this is something of an over-generalization. Many of the evangelical Christian denominations in my area hold to the same basic doctrinal and theological tenets. Denominational distinctions exist sometimes due to nothing more than heritage. Many of the Baptist churches in the city where I live were founded by Swedish immigrants; Mennonite churches here were founded by German immigrants. In any event, Alliance, Baptists, Mennonites, Nazarenes, E-Free, Lutherans, Presbyterians - all hold to essentially the same Christian worldview.

I know personally many Christians who do "agree to disagree" and still call one another brothers and sisters in Christ. I wonder, though, at your charge that Christians "have to be right." Do you believe the things you've written are wrong? Do you think you are in error concerning what you believe? If not, are you not guilty of the very thing about which you criticize Christians?

It's gotten to the point that many seem to think it's their providence to create God's own personal kingdom of heaven on earth - what Christ said he DID NOT come to do - in the form of Christian legistlation, Christian Presidents, and Christian Education. Because let's face it. Nobody wants Creationism taught in schools. You want GENESIS creation taught in schools. If other forms of creationism from other religions get taught I don't want to be twenty miles from the uproar.

Christ did come to change people and in so doing he changes the world. What's wrong with a Christian president? How is such a president inferior to, say, an atheist president, or a Buddhist one? And what is "Christian legislation" exactly? What other form of legislation is superior to it (as opposed to merely different)?

Nobody wants Creationism taught in schools? Obviously somebody does or you wouldn't be talking about the prospect. And how is the idea that everything came from nothing a better alternative than that a Creator made everything? I'm not sure you understand well what Creationism offers. It is not an abandonment of science but rather a different interpretation of the facts that science offers up than the naturalistic one. How is this a bad thing?

You ban gay marraige as though what two people who do not believe the same things as you does infringes on your own beliefs. But it's deeper than that and most are too willfully uneducated to understand what's really going on in their hearts and minds.

Actually, I have studied the matter of homosexuality fairly carefully and know that it is not genetic but rather the result of various relational, social, and moral influences. I don't have a problem with two people of the same gender loving one another deeply; I just object to their having sex with each other. Why, when homosexuality is ultimately a choice, should I give a homosexual the same rights that I would someone who is born black, or asian, or with some physical disability? I don't do this for someone who prefers chicken to beef, or the color red to the color blue; mere preference is not an appropriate basis upon which to confer upon someone special rights and protection, which is exactly what the homosexual community is pressing for.

The BNP party in the UK wants to enact a governmental policy which actively discourages the mixing of races. Why? Because they're think the purity of the white race and culture needs protection. There is actually some sort of fear that if two people they don't even know, or even their offspring, marry inter-racially it threatens their OWN place in the country. There is even a sense that it threatens their own identity in their country.

Does it? If most of Europe becomes Muslim, what do you think the culture will reflect? If it becomes mostly asian, what norms will entrench in the culture? Caucasian ones? (Don't mistake me here: I am not endorsing anything the BNP party espouses; I know virtually nothing about the party.)

Isn't that in a nutshell what Christians in America are terrified of too? That a more liberal america changes your identity, affects who you are? You are who you choose to be, and that's all anyone else wants as well. You can't legistlate Christ, or your version of him, into the hearts of people.

I am not legislating my faith upon others.

A more liberal America is a kind of cultural "identity" and that identity is at odds with the Christian faith. Why should Christians not be able to do as you are doing here and make assertions about what is right and wrong and vie for representation within the culture? Essentially, you are doing the very thing you accuse Christians of doing: Asserting a worldview. Your objection to things Christian shows the same kind of intolerance toward them as you claim they show toward you. Why is it okay for you to be intolerant but for Christians it is not?

When they are faced with other people who embrace other possibilities it makes one wonder - How can they be whole if I'm whole? How can they be right if I'm right? How can they know god if you know god? How can they be happy if I'm happy?

People can be happy for a variety of reasons, many of which have nothing to do with religion. People can even feel quite "whole" apart from a belief in God or gods. But the matter of who is right is something altogether different. Truth is not defined by happiness or a feeling of wholeness. Truth by its very nature is exclusivistic. When religious ideas collide and contradict it is irrational to simply say that "all roads lead to the top of the mountain." Someone is wrong, or maybe everyone is wrong, but beliefs that oppose one another, that contradict one another, cannot all be right. If I believe I am right and have coherent, rational reasons for thinking that I am, then it is perfectly appropriate to say so. As soon as I do this, though, I necessarily rule out a host of other contradictory beliefs. It is not arrogant or intolerant to do so, merely rational.

Then the mind slams shut. Because, particularly in evangelical christianity, they can't be whole, they can't be right, they can't be happy. Not really happy. Not like you. They must have lots and lots of short comings.

Oh? How do you know this?

The mind really has no choice but to tell you these things in defence of your sense of self. Otherwise you risk openning yourself up to culture shock, and a rewriting of your understandings, even your understandings of self.

Again, how do you know this? Are you just projecting your own experience on everyone else?

And make no mistake. Culture shock sucks. It hurts alot like hell. Maybe you look a little closer at the other people, the people who don't live and think like you and must not know god like you. they look happy enough. they don't seem to be evil. That feels unsettling.

No, it doesn't. I am not the least unsettled that people feel happy and content without faith in the God of the Bible.

Oh wait! that unsettled feeling must be a demon or satan trying to get into your heart! Oh yay! for joy! You were right after all. time to start praying for them! Then form a picket line and write protest letters. If that doesn't work throw flaming rocks through their windows as warriors for christ!

Whoa! Easy there! You're making some pretty wild leaps now. What's wrong with praying for someone? And what's wrong with writing letters and picketing what you think is wrong? And how do you leap from peaceful protesting to violent action? I know many, many Christians who have protested abortion, homosexuality, etc., but would never dream of exerting their point of view violently upon another.

Where is the death to self? Where is the willingness to maybe, just maybe, not have the whole answer?

Who said knowing some things are right means you "have the whole answer"? In fact, the apostle Paul wrote that we only know "in part" while we live on this globe.

The ability to self-lessly consider, prayerfully, that maybe the interpretations you were raised in aren't the only valid ones or even the right ones?

How do you know whether or not I have carefully considered my worldview?

Instead of selflessness there is vicious self-defense. Defence of race. Defence of religion. Defence of denomination. Instead of love there is hate. There is anger. There is offence. There's even slander! It's all the same bigotry.

The strength of your bitterness and feeling of offense does not make you right. You are oozing anger, hate, offense, and bigotry; you are vigorously defending your point of view and attacking mine. Where is your love?

It's not about god. It's about culture. It's about being secure in the knowledge that your interpretation of the universe is all there is so that your inner world remains intact.

How do you know this? My faith is about truth and living according to it. I have good reason to believe the things I do completely separately from what my culture urges me to believe. In fact, my culture runs completely contrary to my faith. So what of your assertion above, then? In my case, at least, it is quite in error. If it can be mistaken in my case, it can be in others, too.

Self isn't dead. It's on a freaking shrine! It's decorated with gold and jewels and payed honour on a daily basis. It's petted and preened until that golden feeling of security in your own correctness is felt.

Your saying so doesn't make it so. And what part of you are you indulging as you vent so fiercely upon me? Your words don't ring of selflessness, I can tell you.

Jesus Christ has stopped being the Person represented the Bible and has become an idol carved in the image of Self and self-proclaimed 'Little-Christs' have done it and are still doing it. It's not cool. It's hurting people. Nobody but me sees it. And it kills me.

Maybe nobody else sees it because it isn't them you're seeing but yourself.

If Christianity exists at all it's as a unique, man-made, fragmented religion formed through varied political climates and cultures and sharing too few of my own interpretations of the Bible (having actually, prayerfull and meditatively, read it more than a few times) for me to consider myself a part of it.

Well, if these are your reasons for rejecting Christianity, I can see why you would. Unfortunately, nothing you've just described above about Christianity is actually true of it.

Peace.
 
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