Here is the key from my experience to finishing the inner debate, my testimony, so that those who share the similar things can be built up, if that is what they yearn for, and so that those who do not share the same viewpoint, can see where at least one of us is coming from.
Ever since I heard of the concept of "eternal torment" as a child, my first memories of it, when I play in my head what the person was describing, I shuddered with fear. Not fear of the place so much, as to the trembling question "would God really do that to a person?" In no more complication than that, of a child, it was a rejectable thought. Since I had already been told, and come to the realization, that God loves everybody, even bad people. I grew up methodist, with little teaching on "hell", as well as most other serious topics. Church seemed to be a place to hear "stories of miracles", with the epic choice of whether or not to be sprinkled, and become a member of the church, and that this for some reason made one special and more accepted. At school, a more harsh admonition to become baptized was being preached by the other kids at school, who were mostly baptist. It was all confusion to me. I was already able to pray, and I was already convinced that God was always with me available at any moment, and all I had to do was think to talk to him. So I did so, as much as a child can without getting distracted by childhood activities, constantly. I never heard any distinct voices back, but I was kept for the most part, protected from the world, and very much so in hindsight, from myself. All my life this was the case, and I went through much spiritual tribulation and pain in my life. Never able to get ahead. As I began to grow older and see the reality of the circus that we live in, and how imprisoned the average human mind is, I decided to break away from modern social understanding as best I could. Eventually, bells went off and I began to wonder about all of this "revelation" and "rapture" stuff, and if and how the world was playing up to it. It certainly is playing up to *some* kind of intervention by God, because I cannot imagine us getting much worse off than we are without blowing ourselves up. I see that in himself, mankind is beyond his means to repair the world without God stopping it all. I began to study the bible for serious, and decided that most of what Jesus did is pretty rockin, and that almost none of it is being manifested in modern religions. At some point, this "eternal torment" struggle took hold. I finally came to the realization that in my opinion, it calls God "evil" in no uncertain terms, and realized that according to modern standards, some of my loved ones would supposedly go to this "hell" because they did not jump through certain hoops, even though they lived lives that in my and most other people's opinions, were relatively filled with good fruit. Something doesn't add up, why by any stretch of logic, would all this boil down to having said "uncle" or not, and microchips that affect the condition of the heart in no way except to instill fear.
Jacobs struggle: I challenged God. Why add to the command to "go home" by dividing the camp so that some would be saved at the expense of others? That night as I lie in bed soaking it with tears on behalf of the entire clueless human race, particularly my own errant self, I prayed:
"Father, please come soon and clean all our mess up!"
And I prayed a prayer that later I was elated to find that Moses, Paul, and certainly Jesus had prayed:
"Forgive them Father, and if not, take me and destroy me, let me take another's place in destruction or whatever, so that the other person, who cannot save himself, might be saved. If you cannot save everyone, especially those who do well and don't know you, how can I be happy in that 'paradise' ? To me, to watch my dad burn in eternal torment, would have been eternal torment for me as well, though I would be 'happy' forever."
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"Don't worry my child, I don't do those things. I've got this." was the most clear and beautiful response I could have ever imagined.
Jacob (heel-grabber, struggles with flesh)
becomes
Israel (struggles with God)
I was allowed to "win", and I was struck upon my thigh as a reminder of who's in charge.
My right thigh was physically and ever so mildly "frogged" as I lay in bed that night. And it twitches on occasion when I am in serious prayer of praise to this day.
Subsequently I have "discovered", rather, truly, been shown:
1. "eternal" and "forever" clauses in the bible are mistranslations.
2. the "sinner" that is to be destroyed is the sinner inside me.
3. there are only two things in the bible that are written in stone, i.e. SOLELY LITERAL with no room for interpretation,
The ten commandments, and the life, death, resurrection and actions of Yeshua.
Everything else is symbolic, whether or not it happened literally.
To "stone" someone until they "die" is to cast your testimony upon that person until they die to the sin in question. If not, cast them out of the camp so that God may deal with them personally in the wilderness, as the NT teaches.
Moses' peers knew this, pharisees turned it in to a literal death penalty for power and control.
The destruction of the sinner has suffered the same fate, being turned into "eternal torment" for the same purpose.
I never bought into it, and can see that those who do, do not really know...
YET.
Then once they fully understand it, have a chance to decide:
Blaspheme the Set Apart Spirit or not.
The abomination (eternal torment) has caused desolation, in that it forces men to buy and sell thier soul, when it has already been paid for.
It stands in many temples.
And the body is the temple.
Jacob's struggle.
Be free.
Now, all references to Jacob and Israel, are to me, and to you, whoever believes.
You give up none of the gospel, by ceasing to unknowingly call God "evil", and all of the instructions given by the prophets are revealed, if you clean yourself the best you can from sinful intent (the body follows automatically)
"Son of man, I send you to a rebellious house"
"Whether they will hear, or whether they will forbear"
The tribulation is spiritual. Any physical events that occur are simply because:
"I will answer them according to the multitude of their idols"
Thus saith YHWH, our Elohim.
Peace.