Is this how I cope with life now:(

[Jo1]

Hi everyonehope you all had a nice christmas.
Cos of depression I have got into self harm thing
So now im not satisfied with myself, till my arms get all red
Is this how im coping with life now. I just dont know anymore.

 

[Criada]

Praying for you, my sweet.
I hope that counseling will help you past this
Love you.

 

[Annie2]

I don't have words for you, but i'll be praying for you!
All bad will pass. All and all things will be well.
The Lord Jesus Christ is with you in this very moment.
Emphatizing, loving, Annie

 

[Bellicus]

Just said a prayer for you. Hope you will feel better soon. Remember that I am here for you if you need anyone to talk to, OK?

And try a rubber band around your wrist, pull and let go, instead of cutting or anything else. You will regret it later if you get lots of scars.

 

[Jo1]

Thanks everyone i just need to get out of this self-destructive thing.

 

[Jo1]

Holidays nearly over Its a New Year. Cant see it gettin much better.
I feel lonely and depressed.

 

[Jo1]

Im doing it again I cant seem to stop this.
I want to hide away. I feel so ashamed
I even hide this from my husband and cover my arms up

 

[katey]

Its brings all sorts of feelings with it, feeling ashamed is one of them. unfortuantly we do tend to hide it from other people, mainly because theyl try and stop us doing it and we dont want them to worry about it. the only problem there though is by covering it up and hiding it, it stars a vicious circle off and its not the best circle to be in x

 

[Jo1]

I guess im very good at hiding my feelings at the moment even from those closest to me. I have struggled with this self- harm thing because where I live no one really understands it So I find that the most difficult I guess.and it can get really lonely out there I guess i talk the most here now.
I think the shame of it is the worst too. cos u think u should b coping, and not have to get to this point. I think this has been one of the hardest times of my life and ive had many. I used to reach for pills when I got low now ive transferred to this

 

[Jo1]

Its brings all sorts of feelings with it, feeling ashamed is one of them. unfortuantly we do tend to hide it from other people, mainly because theyl try and stop us doing it and we dont want them to worry about it. the only problem there though is by covering it up and hiding it, it stars a vicious circle off and its not the best circle to be in x

thanks Katey i understand where your coming from thanks for your comments hope your doing ok.

 

[Orville]

Seek some tangible help from a psychotherapist. People here can offer prayers and a degree of comfort, but only a trained therapist can work with you and help you stop the self-destructive behavior.

You know God does not want you to hurt yourself, so get some help.

Best wishes and peace be with you.

 

[over the rainbow]

I guess im very good at hiding my feelings at the moment even from those closest to me. I have struggled with this self- harm thing because where I live no one really understands it So I find that the most difficult I guess.and it can get really lonely out there I guess i talk the most here now.
I think the shame of it is the worst too. cos u think u should b coping, and not have to get to this point. I think this has been one of the hardest times of my life and ive had many. I used to reach for pills when I got low now ive transferred to this

I hide the scars too because I am ashamed and lie about where I got them. But when you lie and hide them, it makes you alone in pain. When people see the scars they know you are in pain. Somehow it helps. I know its hard to believe but I actually told somebody once that I did it - a doctor who saw the scars and didn't even asked -she just said "you're a cutter." I didn't even know people on the outside knew people did it. She talked kind to me. She didn't yell at me. She didn't call me names.

I have lots of problems with this too but I just wanted to tell you that I can hear you. Maybe sometimes that's all I needed was to know somebody heard me. I wish you could hear me.

Allison

 

[Jo1]

Thanks everyone Please will you say a prayer for me. I have my counselling assessment on Friday afternoon. Just a chat I suppose to cover the problems I have. So hopefully I can get counselling. Which im not looking forward to and I have also arranged to see my doc in the morning. Thanks

 

[Bellicus]

Prayed for you.

 

[Ariel]

Praying!

 

[aflower4God]

Hi everyonehope you all had a nice christmas.
Cos of depression I have got into self harm thing
So now im not satisfied with myself, till my arms get all red
Is this how im coping with life now. I just dont know anymore.

Hi Jo1.

I am deeply sadden to hear this my dear friend. PLEASE KNOW that i have been ACTIVELY praying for you. You are a treasure. You are one of the VERY few friends that I talk to online who has stuck by my side and likes me for me. Please know that I am thinking about you. Please keep us all posted!!!!
God bless you sister

 

[Jo1]

Thanks everyone, Im worried about it b glad when its all over.

 

[Ariel]

(((((Jo))))) Dear friend, I am praying for you.

 

[Criada]

praying sweetie

 

[WhatThe]

Thanks everyone, Im worried about it b glad when its all over.

I'm sorry you have to deal with this.
The hardest thing is to tell someone, but doing so will make it easier to bear. I told my gf, so now she doesn't let me near anything sharp if i'm down. Tell your husband, he loves you he should understand.
I'm sending you Love and Light.