I am an elder in my church. I have no problems obeying Jesus Christ. I listen to His voice because He started speaking to me in 1969, so through experience I have learned to distinquish His still small voice from all the other voices that come to us. I have never stopped learning, and the more experienced I become the less I think I know about the ways of God. But I am totally dependent on Him, and I feel that I am still being discipled by Him.
i am very fussy about who I listen to. I spent seven years in a church where the leaders believed they had a special ear to God and that they should be obeyed without question. Anyone who disagreed with them were accused of rebelling against their shepherds. What resulted was many disillusioned, hurt, damaged believers, some of whom left the church altogether. Some even left the Christian faith because they could not see that God is totally separate from the church and its leaders.
As a church leader, I would never expect obedience to me. When I give teaching, I allow people to take it or leave it. I would expect them to study the Scriptures for themselves to see if I am right or not.
Also, people will read me before they read the Bible, therefore I know that my life and the way I treat others has to match up with what I teach. If I teach dependence on Christ, then I need to show by my life that I am totally dependent on Him.
I am also prophetic, and when I give prophecies I will never say "thus says the Lord", because I don't think I have that level of authority. I expect people to judge my prophecies and to give me feedback.
I would never instruct people about who they should marry, whether they should attend Bible College or not, what job they should have, what they should wear, or any other non moral part of their lives. I respect that their private lives are their own business and they have the right to live them without being micro-managed by me.
In moral issues, I follow the Scriptural pattern of going to the person on my own, if they won't listen, I go again with two or three witnesses, and only when they will not listen to that, I will inform the church - not the whole congregation, but those who are praying for him and are concerned about his spiritual welfare.
I would never tell anyone to leave the church because they disagree with my theology. I don't have that right because it is not my church, but Christ's.
Although I will teach a discipleship class on the first principles of the Christian faith, my role is to increase their faith and dependence on Christ. I would do myself out of a job as each believer became more dependent on Christ than me. I would never enter into a personal one-to-one discipleship relationship. It is too risky. It would have the effect of having that person more dependent on me than Christ, thereby causing that person to commit idolatory.
My role as a church elder is that of a servant. I am serving the congregation, seeing to build up their faith and equip them for service.
I have some major disagreements with my minister at times and I voice them in the right venue - in the elder's meeting. I don't mention them outside of that meeting. My minister is humble enough to spend time discussing the issues and we come to workable compromises.
Although I disagree with my minister in some issues, I respect her role in the church, and that she is appropriately trained in theology and ministry. We called and appointed her to the role, and we believe that she does her best to live the life and to be an example of what a Christian minister should be. She has her faults, as we all do, but they do not stop us respecting her and following her lead when it is to build and grow the church.
I have other very capable mentors in the ministries I am involved with, but they do not set rules for me, and I do not obey them without question. I see those men as much more experienced in the prophetic than me, and I give attention to their teaching, and respect them because their lives are matching what they teach.
I know that I have said some things about myself, but I am not justifying myself to anyone here. I am merely pointing out what I am at as far as my position toward those who lead me, my fellow elders, and those whom I serve in the church. I believe that I am no-one special in this regard, and there are many on this forum who have the same attitude as the ones I have pointed out.
What I am saying is that if you are in a church and in bondage to an authoritarian leadership and are afraid to either speak out or leave the church for fear of disobeying God, be encouraged, because Jesus does not expect you to be under man's rule of law. You can get yourself out from under those leaders and leave that church without feeling that you are deserting Christ.
Your relationship with Christ is totally separate from the church. The church does not have authority in itself. Any spiritual effectiveness or authority that any church has is for the healing of the sick and casting out demons, and it has only what Christ has given it. The whole point of going to church is to know Christ personally and be totally dependent on Him. Any man whether he be a pastor or any type of leader who imposes on you a set of rules and requirements to obey him over and above what Christ reveals to you in your heart, is doing out of his own mind and ambition toward you. He is doing it to prop up his own sense of power and authority, and not reflecting the spirit of Christ.
Find some good books on Toxic Faith, Twisted Scriptures, and Spiritual Abuse, and these will help make you aware of the issues I am talking about.