I've been writing poetry several times a week for the past month or two about my feelings with my walk with God and life in general. But I've been going through a really hard time so the Poetry is really dark and depressing. I'm just expressing how I feel. Is that okay? Is that healthy do you think? Here's an example of a poem I wrote today:
Poem 14
9-9-18
Mood: confusion, frustration, slight improvement in life
When will it end? This confusion and terror?
Will I ever see freedom?
I feel like I have been drowning for so long...
I can't look anyone in the eyes because I'm so ashamed.
Why am I going through this? Why am I this confused? I am supposed to be at peace.
It feels like things might be improving, but how much longer until I am free? Why am I this isolated? Oh what a Wretched man I am!
What does that poem sound like to you?
I too write poetry and some of it starts off dark but ends in the light. King David had much to be depressed about and he wrote about his darkness. With his word came truth; he confessed to God how he felt, but his Father already knew, but was delighted to hear it from his mouth. We live in a fallen and depressed world and sometimes it rubs off on us, that is why it is necessary for us to always bring light and truth out from the pages of the Book that will lift our heads and keep us moving forward. Keep writing until your words turn from darkness into light. It will happen just don't give up or seek worldly wisdom. Keep telling God how you feel and let Him heal you.
The Questionable Cross
by Steve Blackwell
The cross is conspicuously and inescapably
Opposed to everything I think and see,
And I'm to trust and be willing;
When in His mercy there's killing?
The cross was repugnant and incongruity
I could not accept this, this blood-love seizing me.
That mystery possessed me, though resisting unbending,
God's goodness toward some, and to others life ending.
Then my own soul lay wounded, God's casualty,
In thought and in body, still determined to flee.
A free wind in the world, against truth blowing,
Like a bird in a window, I could escape unknowing.
His Book's words spoke soundly, but His justice uneased,
His price for acquittal no man could appease.
So His Son paid it all, with no sense of loss
He laid it all on the ground and then climbed on a cross.
The end of the story is glorious indeed,
God's justice is severe and yet now we're set free.
I am yet in this world and will rejoice at passing,
To be lost in Christ's love for life everlasting.