I've heard it said that happiness is a choice, that life is what you make it. If this is true why does it seem such a difficult task. Even in my closest walk with God I carried the deepest of discontentment at times reguardless of circumstance. Of course this was before I was Dx: and was recieving no treatment. But even still I find myself unable to be content a good part of the time. How can I choose not to be affected by people and problems. Physically things happen in me that I have no power over. When the pressure is on I shut down and there is no switch I can find to turn that around. I get headaches, I cant sleep, and cant stay awake when I am required to function, work, upkeeping the house etc, I cry, eat too much or not at all, my IBS flares up and I cant keep myself out of the restroom, I withdrawl, have anxiety attacks, start missing work and not caring at all, become irritable, discontent and desperate.
Do I have a choice over these things that seems to engulf my life? Am I choosing to be miserable. Or is this part of this disorder which I have little control?
I am told by family and friends to push through it, suck it up and force myself to move forward, it seems I am incapable at times. Is that a cop out as many suggest?
Do I have a choice over these things that seems to engulf my life? Am I choosing to be miserable. Or is this part of this disorder which I have little control?
I am told by family and friends to push through it, suck it up and force myself to move forward, it seems I am incapable at times. Is that a cop out as many suggest?