This is not insult the christian belief. I was raised Christian and spent the last 23 years of my life devoted to God, however I have never had a prayer answered.
That you know of anyway...
Since I was a little girl I'd pray for this and that. Mostly selfless things like God heal so in so or God bless so in so.
You're right those prayers are selfless but they become selfish when you demand or expect God to answer them exactly the way you want and if He doesn't you turn your back on Him.
Its confusing. Last year into this year has been the worst two years of my life. Everything that can happen to a person emotionally has happened to me. The boyfriend/fiance cheated and left me,
I'm sorry this has happened I too have been cheated on before I got married. Instead of moping around over all this why don't you realize that maybe Gods trying to show you that your fiancée wasn't the right guy for you. Afterall would you really want to marry someone who you can't even trust???
two car accidents (one in which the bf did costing over $6k in damages and he will never pay back),
So? Forget the 6k! You're alive that's an answered prayer!
the family is against me,
but God is for you!!!
I lost my job, I've had to move,
at least you had a job to lose, many around the world cannot even find a job. As for moving I'm sorry you had to move but you have another place to go unlike many homeless individuals.
depression and anxiety increasing..but throughout this I still had faith.
I don't see faith in anything you've said but merely the opposite, in fact all I see is selfish demands.
A friend asked me to stop seeking others for advise and to seek God more, so I did. I stepped up my bible game and prayer and meditation. Nothing.
You've stepped up your Bible game? Let me ask did you read the Bible solely because you wanted your prayers answered or did you do so out of love for Him?
Finally I demanded God to reveal himself to me. To speak loudly so that I knew he was still in control. Even if it was in a dream. I just wanted to make sure I wasn't devoting so much time to air. It's been 8 days and nothing.
I'm afraid neither me nor you get to make demands. Also sometimes God does not speak in some load roaring voice but instead He speaks in a small still voice. Also it's only been 8 days and you're already insinuating that you were just speaking to the air, the Bible says without faith its impossible to please God.
My heart is still broken, my house hold is still cracked, and my faith has gone to nothing.
Who has moved? God is still there.
I am starting to believe this is a waste of time. If I hadn't noticed before, the last 6 years (especially last year and this year) have been a real awakening for me. I am about to throw in the towel.
ID implore that you don't throw in the towel because you think you have it so rough now just wait until you turn your back on God and the Holy Spirit leaves you because you don't want Him and you have to endure the world without His complete protection. And possibly all eternity in hell.
I am starting this as a last resort. If someone can prove to me that God is real then do so. And please don't provide scripture.
The fact that you don't want anyone to provide scripture speaks volumes. Scripture is how God has originally revealed Himself to all mankind. Without Scriptures aka the Bible no Christian would have life, as the Bible is not just some dusty old book its leaving and breathing !
I have studying scripture this last year and talking to God about his word. Ask and you shall receive, all I want is to know hes not imaginary.
Humble yourself and He will lift you up. The righteous fall many times but the Lord lifts them up everytime! All you need is faith, faith the size of a mustard seed. It sounds like the problem isn't God but it's your lack of faith!
I don't mind having a crappy life, but I will not have a crappy life keeping a relationship with an imaginary friend.
again the problem is not God it's you, and I know this will anger you and hurt you and that's not my goal... My goal is to get you to see that by the way you're acting it appears to me that you have already lost faith a long time ago. It's so easy to serve God in the good times, yet many fail when it comes to serving Him in the bad times. Look at Abraham and Isaac... Abraham could have given up when God commanded Him to sacrifice his son Isaac, but Abraham listened and obeyed he kept the faith and in the end God provides the lamb! Our lamb today is Christ! Trust in Jesus not because you demand a sign or because you need a genie to grant your every wish, but serve Him from your heart because you love Him and I can guarantee you will see a difference! How do I know this? Because I have been delivered numerous times from things similar to you... In fact I've gone through things that would make most people completely give up, yet I remained not in my own accord I literally remained in Him.