My first experience of church was that asking questions was tantamount to a sin and I was basically told just to believe. I left in a state of some disgrace and this put me off church for some years until I decided to try a different church where I had a better experience.
I wonder what you think about doubt. Do you regard it as a weakness or even a strength? It seems to me that doubt and faith go hand-in-hand.
The Bible condemns doubt - but it does not condemn asking questions. You are equivocating between "Asking Questions" and doubt. Doubt in its worst form takes a closed-minded position opposing the Word of God...
Asking questions is an open-minded act of wanting to know more ... wanting to know how something works, wanting to know what exactly is the more full definition of something... how it applies in example-a or example-b. Some forms of doubt are of this category where it just means "lack of certainty" but when you contrast asking questions with doubt .. then doubt is the more definite position of opposing what has been said and raising reasons for objecting to it.
The apostles and people who witnessed the risen Christ are the only people who know for certain that Jesus rose again (or didn't and it's all a hoax) but the rest of us are simply not in this privileged position. We can only have faith that He did but this does seem to imply a level of doubt. If we were certain, we would not need faith. So it doesn't seem warranted to feel guilty about having doubt and perhaps it's even a good and healthy thing to acknowledge it.
Heb 11:1 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.
Amplified Bible says
Heb 11:1 Now faith is the assurance (the confirmation, the title deed) of the things [we] hope for, being the proof of things [we] do not see
and the conviction of their reality [faith perceiving as real fact what is not revealed to the senses].
At a point when Thomas had not yet seen the risen Christ but the other 10 disciples had seen him... we see this
John 20
24 But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came. 25 So the other disciples were saying to him, “We have seen the Lord!”
But he said to them, “Unless I see in His hands the imprint of the nails, and put my finger into the place of the nails, and put my hand into His side, I will not believe.”
26 After eight days His disciples were again inside, and Thomas with them. Jesus *came, the doors having been shut, and stood in their midst and said, “Peace
be with you.” 27 Then He *said to Thomas, “Reach here with your finger, and see My hands; and reach here your hand and put it into My side; and
do not be unbelieving, but believing.” 28 Thomas answered and said to Him, “My Lord and my God!” 29 Jesus *said to him, “
Because you have seen Me, have you believed?
Blessed are they who did not see, and yet believed.”
As you point out - Christianity would have been dead in the water - no good news of salvation gone to anyone beyond the first century disciples -- if everyone took the position - "
“Unless I see in His hands the imprint of the nails, and put my finger into the place of the nails, and put my hand into His side, I will not believe.”
Sinners in a lost world - need to "survive" need to be "survivors" need to take the gospel-ship of escape from the doomed island (planet Earth... lake of fire).
Survivors get on board - those who choose not to get on board don't survive.
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How then are any unbelievers ever convinced at all? how as Christianity grown to over 2 billion?
"The Holy Spirit convicts the WORLD of sin and righteousness and judgment" John 16. So that mens a real life event, real life "experience" is being encountered even by unbelievers.
I heard a program over the radio 3 years ago where the guest being interviewed was an atheist with a "Ministry" hotline helpline of helping Christians choose atheism and exit Christianity. She said that by far the number one call for help from atheists of all stripes no matter how long they had been atheist was an "inexplicable intense fear of hell". That's the Holy Spirit warning them to not leap off the cliff.