I've been pondering this for a lot of time. It's curious even to me.
I've never had a relationship with anyone. This is because I've never felt the need to be with someone. Loneliness has no effect on me. And I've never had uncontrollable desires for sexual intercourse. The desire does exist but it is fully controlled. When I say NO, it's NO - that sort of thing. (The same applies to every other lust, but it's beyond the scope of this post). Since sexual lust has no effect, and since loneliness is cancelled out, this was possible.
The curious thing loneliness is that, instead of having an effect, it's actually more than that: I never feel lonely, even when completely isolated. This has been from the very beginning. It's not something new, it's not due to advancement of age, and what else may be.
Another thing would be that, whenever I had the opportunity to fornicate, I experienced weird sensations. Bad feelings, of guilt, of grief, of sadness... anything but what the actual sensation should be. And, because of this, I've remained pure for all this time. The opportunities were not set-up by me, but more societal inclination. But the intent was clear, and it has kept me away from it. Similarly, a woman can never seduce me. No matter what she does, it doesn't work. The body listens to the mind, and mind processes the situation as-is. And until the full-picture is seen, nothing is done.
Something similar is happening with people too. There are some signs that happen when trying to maintain a friendship relationship with someone that will drag me down. I feel as if something is weighing me down. A burden, something unclean - I don't know how to explain it.
As I've noticed in the world today, men are incapable of living without women. It may be just my bias, but I rarely see men that can - without committing sin - be without women. Even those that claim to be so, there's still something there.
I believe it is God's influence when one that is in full control of sexual desire, and not be affected by loneliness.
What do you make of this?
I've never had a relationship with anyone. This is because I've never felt the need to be with someone. Loneliness has no effect on me. And I've never had uncontrollable desires for sexual intercourse. The desire does exist but it is fully controlled. When I say NO, it's NO - that sort of thing. (The same applies to every other lust, but it's beyond the scope of this post). Since sexual lust has no effect, and since loneliness is cancelled out, this was possible.
The curious thing loneliness is that, instead of having an effect, it's actually more than that: I never feel lonely, even when completely isolated. This has been from the very beginning. It's not something new, it's not due to advancement of age, and what else may be.
Another thing would be that, whenever I had the opportunity to fornicate, I experienced weird sensations. Bad feelings, of guilt, of grief, of sadness... anything but what the actual sensation should be. And, because of this, I've remained pure for all this time. The opportunities were not set-up by me, but more societal inclination. But the intent was clear, and it has kept me away from it. Similarly, a woman can never seduce me. No matter what she does, it doesn't work. The body listens to the mind, and mind processes the situation as-is. And until the full-picture is seen, nothing is done.
Something similar is happening with people too. There are some signs that happen when trying to maintain a friendship relationship with someone that will drag me down. I feel as if something is weighing me down. A burden, something unclean - I don't know how to explain it.
As I've noticed in the world today, men are incapable of living without women. It may be just my bias, but I rarely see men that can - without committing sin - be without women. Even those that claim to be so, there's still something there.
I believe it is God's influence when one that is in full control of sexual desire, and not be affected by loneliness.
What do you make of this?
