That seems to be a really unique position, Chris. WHat is your big hangup?
Actually quite common. Pick a Christian at random and an atheist at random
Odds are the atheist will have a better knowledge of the bible.
And why does it have to be a hangup, except starting from the position that the atheist position has to be mistaken?
If my friends were asked about my obsessions or hangups, I know exactly what they'd say, because they've said it to me.
I think too much and I'm too logical.
I've been the opposite... When I was 14-15 I was getting interested in Leftist politics and I felt my Christian beliefs were to a great extent baggage, yet there was nothing that I could do to logically convince myself that there was not a God, and that there was not a greater Divine plan for the world.
Logic is good, but it is dependent on each step being uniquely valid, and on the starting data and assumptions being valid.
There are ways of doing some evaluation and verification there, but that's neither perfect or perfectly easy.
You must really be a great debater or something to be able to come here and make such an interesting claim that the Christian faith cannot be backed up logically when that has been something that people have been doing since the very beginning.
Have they? The logic may be good but initial assumptions flawed (goes for all arguments) and some things unthinkable to the ancient or the medieval mind can now be thought. Sometimes new findings have driven the new thinking.
What did you do? Just sit down and curl up with Hitchens (lol) books and read them for a year and pretended that his arguments weren't confronted a millenia before he was born>?
Or did you pretend SCIENCE is the only path to understanding of the world without studying an iota of epistemology?
Dear, oh dear, oh dear. You lose points for tone.
I've already said thus was five years in the researching, thinking and discussing.
I got up to at least 10ft of bookshelf (I still have 6ft) of theology, philosophy and relevant history texts.
Favours asked and granted, I got to sit in on some Bible college courses on useful topics and later on, rather clutching at straws, I did a couple of sets of evening classes on liberal theology to see if there was a viable perspective there. There wasn't, really, if you were still asking the "but is it true?" question. Lose that and slide to "does this feel nice? and a different answer can emerge.
I would have said science (small "s") drives you to epistemology. I'm not sure how you can do it without any.
It will be there subconsciously even without conscious awareness.
(Useful book:"Truth: a history and a guide for the perplexed" Felipe Fernández-Armesto)
I was doing epistemology by the age of five, though it was many years before I discovered the actual term.
I'd caught my parents lying to me... (about Santa). So if you can't trust your own parents for reliable information, where can you go for it, and how can you be sure that it is?
I explained *why* I started studying Christianity with greater depth and care.
If I remember correctly my three start points were
"What is the right way of handling, understanding, the book of Genesis?"
(There's more than a handful to choose from!)
"How should the existence of the different endings to Mark's Gospel be handled, understood?"
(Implications for inerrancy, reliability and preservation of text as scripture.)
"What were the doctrines or other factors that lay behind the major schisms and divisions of Christianity?"
(And should I be on any particular side of any of them?)
A level of understanding (and of accepted "don't know"s) that I was fairly happy with for me would not do when I was leading and teaching others.
Chris.
"...curl up with Hitchens (lol) book" {Snort.}.