I was going to write; I may be insane
But I just felt Him say you arent insane I am here (with a giggle)
All the times I have heard invite Jesus into your life it seemed more like a noun not a verb. I would walk through my rushed day and when a problem arose (like every hour) I would say Jesus; please come and then go about my business in distress often like; ah if He could just answer me or even let me know He hears me
But right now listening to a Newsboys song called I am free as I have 100 times before I cried (literally) Jesus come inside me please in desperation.
In an instant crying turned to laughter as the voice of my friend and Saviour was heard; here I am.
Like He had never been any other place but right here the whole time. I could picture myself laying there with Him explaining to my spirit and hostile mind that Our Father is awesome isnt He!
I had a million imagery thoughts at once about The Awesomeness of God
Than just as I began to feel how unworthy I am and the negative stuff about to flood the moment away, I felt Him take my concentration again and saying;
Its Our Father who will make a fool out of there wise men you know (with a giggle even)
I was laughing for the first time in years and imagining Jesus here with me on my bed making my burdens light and enjoying His Father, Our Father and my Father with me!
My attention stayed in the moment as I had thoughts of; a Baby will be there king (Jesus)
And
A mosquito has the power to destroy millions of people
And
A donkey carried the King of Heaven & Earth
They were all thoughts at showing how my perception of my own weaknesses and insignificance are quite funny in comparison to the seemingly insignificance things God has used in History.
I havent had an encounter with our Lord like this since I was a teenager and I could put it down to insanity but I am going to put it down as a testimony- with FAITH
But I just felt Him say you arent insane I am here (with a giggle)
All the times I have heard invite Jesus into your life it seemed more like a noun not a verb. I would walk through my rushed day and when a problem arose (like every hour) I would say Jesus; please come and then go about my business in distress often like; ah if He could just answer me or even let me know He hears me
But right now listening to a Newsboys song called I am free as I have 100 times before I cried (literally) Jesus come inside me please in desperation.
In an instant crying turned to laughter as the voice of my friend and Saviour was heard; here I am.
Like He had never been any other place but right here the whole time. I could picture myself laying there with Him explaining to my spirit and hostile mind that Our Father is awesome isnt He!
I had a million imagery thoughts at once about The Awesomeness of God
Than just as I began to feel how unworthy I am and the negative stuff about to flood the moment away, I felt Him take my concentration again and saying;
Its Our Father who will make a fool out of there wise men you know (with a giggle even)
I was laughing for the first time in years and imagining Jesus here with me on my bed making my burdens light and enjoying His Father, Our Father and my Father with me!
My attention stayed in the moment as I had thoughts of; a Baby will be there king (Jesus)
And
A mosquito has the power to destroy millions of people
And
A donkey carried the King of Heaven & Earth
They were all thoughts at showing how my perception of my own weaknesses and insignificance are quite funny in comparison to the seemingly insignificance things God has used in History.
I havent had an encounter with our Lord like this since I was a teenager and I could put it down to insanity but I am going to put it down as a testimony- with FAITH