...Right now im really struggling in my life. It may not be noticable on the outside, but internally im a wreck. Over the last two years i have started to take my christian life seriously. I have faith in God, and know that without him i can do nothing. Over the summer i was making large strides towards spiritual maturity. I was leading bible studies weekly, and contributed quite a bit to my sunday school class. I even did wednesday night classes for young teens for a period of time. However, everything took a horrible turn for the worst. I started back to college in the fall. Im 23 and had been out of school for a while, but decided that it was time i started to take an education seriously. When the year started i was so inspired to make sure that others i was going to school with were able to see Christ in me. I wanted to be an outstanding Christian at school. Buuut..that didnt last long. It wasnt long before i wasnt reading the bible at all, and i was returning to the person i used to be, that i despised so much. In september i started to date a girl from school. I went to a birthday party where we started to talk, and it went from there. The relationship was very detrimental to my relationship with God. I was so distanced from him that i even stopped praying for the most part. Over the last two months, ive really got myself into a mess. The girl I was with and I were together sexually, and she got pregnant. She absolutely was not even going to think about having the kid, shes already got one, and said there was no way she could have another one right now. So she had an abortion.. and im no longer with her. I am trying desperatly to repair my relationship with God, but i dont really feel like i am making any progress. There is a verse in Hebrews that really scares me ...
Hebrews 6:4-6 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost v5. And have tasted the good Word of God, and the powers of the world to come v6. if they shall fall away to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.....
I knew the things i was doing were wrong, but didnt care enough to stop. I know David sinned after walking with God for many years, and God forgave him. And Isreal sinned against God repeatedly, yet he told them he they forsook their evil ways he would receive them. But i almost feel damned...any words of encouragment, or thoughts would be amazing to read..
Hebrews 6:4-6 For it is impossible for those who were once enlightened, and have tasted of the heavenly gift, and were made partakers of the Holy Ghost v5. And have tasted the good Word of God, and the powers of the world to come v6. if they shall fall away to renew them again unto repentance; seeing they crucify to themselves the Son of God afresh, and put him to an open shame.....
I knew the things i was doing were wrong, but didnt care enough to stop. I know David sinned after walking with God for many years, and God forgave him. And Isreal sinned against God repeatedly, yet he told them he they forsook their evil ways he would receive them. But i almost feel damned...any words of encouragment, or thoughts would be amazing to read..
