Married a little over 5 years and she had an affair. She had slapped me several times in the marriage. When i caught her cheating i lost it and for the first time i slapped her. I have really given it to God but it will be with me forever, I know that it was the biggest mistake of my life and i can not change what has happened. She says she has forgiven me for it and i have never even given it a second thought when she slapped me. She is now taking the kids from her first marriage to her new boyfriends house ever weekend, and is staying with him until monday... I have forgave her for what she is doing, but now that she is calling me, she seems to always want to know what i am doing and is always letting me know what i did and I"m not mentiong the affair sheis having and i would still love for my marriage to work i realize to read this you might think how bad it was but we really had a really good relationship over all. Will she ever really forgive me???