On the morning of September 11, 2001, David was scheduled to appear in court with his attorney. The courthouse is located on Centre Street, approximately four blocks away from the Trade Center. He watched both Towers erupt into flames on the news over his morning coffee but decided to head downtown anyway.
When asked why he did this, David thinks for a moment and responds, 'I don't know. I watched the explosions on TV but it sorta didn't register right then what was really happening. Nobody really had any context to attach to the event, you know? Nothing like this had ever happened before. So I figured, well, I have this court date. And court dates are important. Can't miss that. So I got on the subway and headed downtown, straight into the disaster zone. You know what? I think I might have been in shock. Looking back, that's really weird behavior.'
David was not alone. In fact, a surprising number of New Yorkers interviewed for Tower Stories recall how their first reaction to the immense destruction of the World Trade Center was one of peculiar implacability. Many report not being able to feel any emotion for days.
IN HIS WORDS:
I got up at about 8:15 on the morning of the 11th and the phone rang at 8:45. My roommate's mom was on the phone, so I rousted him from bed and passed him the portable. She didn't say what she was calling about and I didn't ask. A few minutes later, my roommate stumbled out into the living room with this weird expression on his face. He said, 'Dude, turn on the TV.'
So I clicked on the set and there it was: a big, gaping hole in the one of the World Trade Towers with smoke and flames gushing out of it. The TV announcer was in the middle of hypothesizing what the cause of the incident was. He said,
A plane has hit the building. This is confirmed. At this point no one is sure if it's related to a screw up in air traffic control or perhaps a malfunction on the plane itself? We're still trying to make sense of this...
My roommate and I were standing there watching the coverage when all of a sudden from out of nowhere the second plane zoomed on in and charged straight into the other Tower. Fire! Explosion! Now we had Gaping Hole Number Two. My roommate and I just sort of looked at each other. We didn't say a thing. I don't think either of us could believe our eyes at that point. It was like, is this some kind of joke? This is the trailer for a horror film, right? Tell me this is the trailer for a horror film, please...
We watched. I had a cup of coffee in my hand and I sipped it. On TV, the commentator's voice became really stressed out and he started shifting his observations toward, ladies and gentlemen, this must be a terrorist attack of some sort! The United States is under attack! I remember feeling a little funny, like I was drunk or something. Not thinking clearly. But I do remember thinking this: that's right. A terrorist attack. It's got to be. Plane accidents like that don't happen twice in a row.
* * *
That morning I had a meeting scheduled with my attorney downtown before we attended a court date. My lawyer's office was right across the street from the Trade Towers, but that didnt really register with me. I finally looked up at the clock I noticed I was running late. It seemed like I'd only been watching the TV coverage for a moment, it turned out to be more like 45 minutes. I threw on my suit coat and ran out the door by 9:30. Then [from the Upper West Side] I took a cab over to the east side, 51st Street where I caught the 6 train going downtown. I sort of wasn't really thinking about this part, either. But I was heading straight into the heart of the disaster.
Just before I hit the tunnels, I noticed that my cell phone had stopped getting reception. Guess that was part of what was happening at the Towers. No one would have noticed that underground, though. Pagers, Blackberries, cell phones, none of that stuff worked in the subways anyway. I also noticed that there were MTA guys scattered all over the [subway] platforms with their hardhats and orange vests. They were getting reports in over their radios about which trains in the subway system were still running, which ones weren't.
All of a sudden there was a big commotion on the platform I was at. Some kind of announcement had been made and whatever it was really rocked people off their feet. I couldn't hear what was being said, so I grabbed the arm of MTA guy passing by, asked him what happened. He told me that our train was probably one of the last trains heading downtown. When the train pulled in I got on and noticed that most of the people riding in my car didn't seem to have a clue as to what was going on.
* * *
I got off at City Hall and it was pretty apparent that news was breaking fast. I took the stairs up from the tunnels to the street, and I specifically remember the police officer who was standing at the top of the stairs, directing people. A black man in a tan suit, white shirt, and a tie. About six-one years old with a little male pattern baldness in the front and a little in the back. I knew he was a cop because he had a flip-out badge opened on his belt and he was definitely an authority figure. He was sweating and yelling, gesturing wildly with his arms and screaming at people. 'Move, move, move! Come on now! Move, god dammit! Move!' He was sending everybody who came out of the tunnels back north.
The first thing I noticed on the street was that a lot of people were just sort of standing around, ignoring the policeman entirely. Everyone had their faces turned up to the sky they were watching something so I looked up, too. And that's when I saw it. The World Trade Center was in flames. From where I was, the line of sight was broken by smaller buildings, but the Towers were so tall, you could easily see the top 50 or 60 floors. You could see where the planes had gone in, the smoke and the fire and the soot that was coming out. Debris was falling from the holes in the buildings. I think I saw the bodies of people either jumping or falling from the sky.
At first I could only see the South Tower burning. But I walked a little ways and from a different point of view I could clearly see them both. Again, I had that peculiar feeling of being drunk or something. Like, this isn't really happening, is it? Is it?!? Then there was a huge noise like the roar of the ocean and the first Tower began to slide down into itself and crumble.
People started running north. Away. We were only six blocks away from the base of the Towers. I stood there, frozen, watching the Tower collapse into itself and sink out of sight until it disappeared behind a lower building. And I felt a little uncertainty. Like, did it fall over? Did it fall straight down? Did it take out four or five blocks of the City? What exactly just happened? None of this made any sense at the time. It still doesnt really.
I just stood there staring in disbelief and I guess I must have been in shock because I suddenly realized I was practically all alone there in the street and now I could see why people were running. The cloud. This gray-brown gush of dirt boiling right toward me, real fast, pushing up the street, climbing up the walls of buildings, eating everything in its path.
I started to back up. I was staring at the cloud and walking backwards in slow motion. It wouldn't be until several days later that I finally acknowledged that the cloud did in fact hit me. Slammed right into me. But I don't remember it happening. I think I sort of blocked that part out of my mind. All I know is that suddenly I'd turned around and now I was running. Couldn't really see where I was going. Bumping into parked cars and slamming into who knows what. I ran. I ran until I outpaced the cloud by just a little bit. And after I'd gotten maybe two blocks, I turned my head and saw what had happened. The cloud had pulled up and was just sort of sitting there, it wasn't moving toward me anymore. 'd outrun it. I'd beaten it.
* * *
The next thing I remember doing, oddly enough - I started hunting through the crowd of people for my attorney I wasn't concerned for his safety, I think I was more or less looking for a friendly face, someone I knew whose presence would confirm for me that yes, this was indeed happening. This wasnt a bad dream. This was real.
It was tough hunting for him in that crowd. People were screaming, people were crying, people were running. It was madness. Lots of people were punching buttons on their cell phones but of course that got them nowhere. The signals were all dead. The microwave antennae, I guess, had been on top of the Tower that had fallen and now... now it wasn't there anymore. All anyone heard was a rapid busy signal in response to any number they dialed. I couldnt find my attorney anywhere so I stopped looking for him.
Long lines of people started forming at the payphones, which I thought was interesting. Most times in New York nobody bothers with public telephones. They sort of became useless years ago.
I hung around for awhile. I guess I kept walking because eventually I found myself in front of the courthouse, talking to a police officer. Believe it or not, part of me was still concerned about my court date. I just wanted to make sure that court wasn't in session for the day, so I asked the cop. He gave me this really strange look like I'd just said something very odd. And he said, 'No. Court is not in session.'
After that, he began to insist that I head north. The police were directing a steady stream of refugees away from the World Trade Center, toward whatever safety we could find. I sort of ignored him and hung around downtown for awhile. I know that doesn't make much sense. Very little that I saw that day does. I guess I was still in shock and part of me wanted to see what might happen next.
* * *
Just before the second Tower fell, I was walking west, trying to get a different view of what was happening. I hadn't eaten anything at all and it was 10:30 in the morning, now, I was getting hungry. So I stopped into a McDonald's to get an Egg McMuffin. I went up to the counter and put my order in the girl behind the register seemed very weirded out by everything that was going on, but she still took my cash. All of a sudden, this guy comes into the store and walks right up to the counter. He's covered in white dust.
He might've been in his early 40s, but it was tough to tell. The dust masked everything. It was in his hair, on his clothes, everywhere. When he blinked, his eyes sort of disappeared. Maybe he was a white guy, but that might've been the dust, too. He was built heavy heavy jowls, a belly, a few chins. Sort of your average middle-aged American guy. And he strolled right up to me and stood next to me in line, waiting for his turn at the counter like it's any other day. But he was visibly shaken. Sweating crazily.
The counter attendant came back with my McMuffin and handed it to me, looked past me, saw the guy and her jaw dropped a bit. She recovered pretty quick, though, and asked if she could get him anything. He said, 'Glass of water?' She turned to get him a drink.
I looked at this guy and said, 'You know youre covered in dust.' Stupid thing to say, but like I said that whole morning I was in shock. The guy said, 'Yeah?'
I said, 'How close were you?' And he said. 'I was right there, I started running.'
I said, 'Oh yeah? How fast?' He looked at me and said, 'Fast.'