In need of support.

[zjacobs0101]

Hey all, I just came upon this forum wanting some advise/support form a more biblical approach. Here's my story:
Im currently 20 at a military college, im in the army national guard. I entered into this program called the early commissioning program with a girl who i was madly in love with, she got me through everything and we went through hell and back together. Troubles with our relationship started when we both started receiving money. I became bitter and neglectful and didnt think i wanted to be with her, so i broke up with her. A month of off and on she decided to end everything, she wont talk to me and told me she no longer loves me. Im so heart broken and its like all the things i used to feel for her are coming back all at once. I cant escape the memories we used to have and i really dont have very many friends or people that i can talk to.
Im extremely depressed and want to turn to god.
i realize i havent been a good follower of christ... at all. I just want to turn my life around and experience true happiness with god and build a relationship with him and help heal myself... however i have no idea where to even start reading the bible... I need someone to help show me where to start so i can get things on track and the man i can be again.

 

[Spunkn]

I'm not familiar with the early commissioning program? What exactly is that?

What do you mean when you say troubles started when you both started receiving money?

Is this your first love?

Just trying to get some more information about your situation

 

[kat]

I got closer to God when I would pour my heart out to Him, tell Him all I feel and be real... and I would read Psalms and John's writings... hope that helps...

 

[coons786c]

I agree with kat.

 

[Coire]

the book of Romans has helped me alot. it describes Gods love and how to hav a relationship with Him. its so great i think it would help u 2

 

[1watchman]

First one needs to know for sure they are a "born again" believer, and not just a follower of Christianity and the teachings of God. That will not last nor keep one going on well. Yes, the Epistle to the Romans is a great help.

Without Jesus Christ in our heart and devotion and a thankful spirit to Him, one will have no part in God-the Father (John 14:6 --see all of John 14).

Read all of the Gospels, pray earnestly to God, and receive His beloved Son for salvation and eternal blessings. Then one can be led and blessed (pray as did the Lord Jesus: "...nevertheless, not My will but Thine be done".

The Lord can restore the relationship with the girl you knew if it is a good thing, or the Lord may have other plans for you, Jacobs. He cares!