Immorality

[Inkachu]

Good question Ikachu

My plan is this we live on a farm and have a not so good house at the moment. So once I finish my programming degree, I am going to get a job and save up to build us a house. Then My mom, My brother and Myself are all going to live on this property with are 3 to be 5 dogs till we die. I have no plans of ever leaving. I love the country to much to want to move back to some ugly polluted city.

I live south of Winnipeg where the middle of no where you pass it in like 5 seconds

You really have no desire to ever have a wife or family or home of your own? I love the country, too, but I also love being independent and having my own life Not saying you should, too. I just wonder if this is the life you REALLY want, or are you just settling for it because you don't think you can do any better.

 

[athrun5]

Don't get me wrong if there is a women out there that could actually want to be near me I am very sure I would go along with my mothers original plan that I quite like. Where everyone gets there own area in the land and we live on it all together.

I do want to get married but I just feel as if I know that I won't live much longer then a few more years. If that is the case I don't want that time wasted for a way to get married but I would rather make it easier for those who are alive to have a easier life. After all I would be dead so they would need all the help they could get......

 

[Inkachu]

Why on earth do you think you only have a few years left?

 

[athrun5]

Math. 2 years ago I was ripped, I was hot and the girls actually looked at me and talked to me. Then I got pain in my old surgery wound. The pain got worse over the last 2 years, I had a rectal exam about a year ago from my last and it was painful. The last one I had was so painful it made me scream in pain. The doctors have given up on finding whats wrong with me but they said " lets hope it goes away on its on". So thinking logically the pain is going to get worse yearly and after a few years noone knows whats going to happen but Father and when that happens all I can think of is massive amount of pain. I am fine with that since I could be in a worse off situation. I just think count your blessings.

 

[Inkachu]

Umm.

I don't know how the health system works in Canada, but I can't imagine them simply sending you away in excruciating pain without making a more serious effort to discover the cause. You have pain in an "old surgery wound" - what does that mean exactly?

 

[athrun5]

They put a good effort in, I had 2 MRI, 1 CT, 1 Bone scan, 5 rectal exams and like 10 different doctor and drops inserted into my area. As for my old surgery wound that was a pre-existing condition I had when i was 15. Needed surgery for it

 

[Inkachu]

Is there a reason you've given up on finding the cause of your pain? Other than some doofus saying "hope it gets better". I'd say "I hope so, too, cause I'm going to call your office ten times a day till you do your job and find out what's going on."

 

[athrun5]

No point, I don't care if I live or die. The only thing I care about is that before I die I can make my mothers life alittle easier. That's it, after all think of that king in Israel that asked the lord to give him 15 years even though he was dying and he had the sun go back as proof. So what does it matter to argue with people that only have knowledge the world gives them when it is God who decides when it is the END.

Even then Jesus died on the cross the end is nothing more then a beginning. So what am I to be scared of, why fight about something that is as meaningless as chasing after the wind.

 

[Inkachu]

I'm not saying you should be scared of death. It's just that you're such a young guy, and you seem to have a good heart, you care about your mother a lot, you want to do what's right.

What do you plan to do with your programming degree?

 

[athrun5]

Well I can go into Game development, web development or software development. The Job doesn't matter as long as I work as I am working for the lord. The money is what is needed to be used on our land so we can make it into a good fruit tree farm + new house + fencing.

Besides I have been through alot to get here. So dying to me seems more of a rest in peace. Besides count your blessing and they over amount your worry.

 

[Inkachu]

OK then.